PGAL Check In

[Alwaysabridesmaidf]

Hope all of you are doing well this week. Sorry I missed last week. Still sick here. I ate cereal and went to bed at 7:30 last night. I just requested access to our "special needs" (read private) bathroom here. I haven't thrown up yet but I can't help but think I am not far off from it and the thought of doing it in a stall with 3 other people in the other stalls makes me want to cry. Plus the smells! So hopefully that gets approved. I try to keep tellig my self that I am grateful for this pregnancy and the symptoms come with it.
2nd ultrasound and first real appointment was yesterday and it went well. They took so much blood!

[blushing]

Glad that your appointment went well Alwaysabridesmaidf.

I am hoping I am starting to see the light at the end of the first trimester tunnel. I am now 10w3d and I have not thrown up in over a week. I have felt sick, but I can handle that and the exhaustion is still lingering, but I am feeling better in myself. This week I have no cold sore, no migraine and no conjunctivitis so that is probably playing a role in the better mood too.

I do have my 12 week scan on 11 March. That is just under 2 weeks away. I am already so nervous for it. What are the chances that I have had 2 missed miscarriages in a row? I mean I have seen the heartbeat. I am feeling the ickiness, but last time I was still throwing up on the day of the scan. I was still bloated. I never had any signs that anything was wrong and I was 13w4d already. It has been playing on my mind and my emotions a lot lately and the closer I get to my scan the worse it gets.

[spankswife]

Really happy about your good appointment Alwaysabridesmaidf, but sorry you are feeling crummy.

blushing - glad you are feeling better! FX for a great scan for you! Try not to worry too much!

Who knows how far along I am - 11 wks since LMP, 10 from O, 2 weeks ago I was measuring 6. I am hoping to be measuring 8+ tomorrow when I have my US. It has been a total mindf*ck the past 6 weeks.

In the last day or two I have felt a little nauseous, so hopefully that is a good sign.

[mrssandro]

Cautiously tip toeing into this post. If you guys didn't know my history I had two MMC in the last year and one prior to having DD. Last time I had MMC after having seen a perfect strong HB at 8 wk and then almost two weeks later I started spotting and I went in for another scan and I had lost the baby at 8 wk 1 day. 

I am still super early 6 wk 3 days and I get my first scan next Thursday. 75% of feels that this is likely not going to work out this time but 25% me thinks that it will. I am trying not worry myself silly and just hope for the best but survive again if it's the worst. 

PGAL is a total mind fuck when it comes to symptoms after having a loss. Crossing my fingers for you blushing.

[mrspost08]

I'm 11w1d today. I am still sick! In some ways I want the sickness to stay until I can feel the baby move. March 10 we have out NT scan & I meet with a high risk ob. March 10 feels like an eternity away!

I've had some awful dreams lately where the baby is born too early. If having 9mc didn't mess with my head enough now these stupid dreams.

I had an ultrasound last Friday. The baby was measuring right on track & moving all over the place. It actually looked like a baby instead of a blob lol. Arm & legs were waving. I asked the doctor is there a heart beat. He kind of laughed. He said yes there is look at that baby move.

[speyedr]

I am 34w today and have had some pgal brain return. I was fine once I was out of my first tri and knew I could pick her up on my home doppler whenever I doubted myself and then the last few weeks I have had such a fear that something is going to go wrong and I wont have a baby in my arms in 6 weeks. I think part of this is because two people in my life have had 21/22w losses really close together and the closer reality gets, the more it effects me.

I was contracting last night pretty regularly and close together for about two hours. I stayed in bed and went back to sleep and they have calmed down on their own. I'm hoping they don't pick up again, a trip to L&D is not something I want for another few weeks at least.

[radical]

blushing I feel the exact same way!!! Sunday was a really hard day for me emotionally and I just cried to to H and said I just don't feel like I'm lucky enough for a healthy pregnancy. I am scared to death of our next appt, which is March 12. I'll be 15 weeks but haven't heard the heartbeat since 11w. I can't even feel like "yay I'm out of the first tri" because what if something happened right after we heard the heartbeat. It feels good to not be alone although I'm sure we all feel like this on this thread.

I'm good expect for the above worry. Still feel yucky and gag when brushing my teeth sometimes. I thought since I am 13w maybe I'll get some energy back but I was passed out in the couch at like 7:45 last night.

Today baby must be going through a grow spurt because I cannot get satisfied. I feel like my hunger is out of control today.

Only a couple people at work know. I hope I'm hiding my little bump well enough. I was thin to begin with and always wore tighter clothes so I feel like it is obvious. Luckily I'm going to Vegas next week and won't be at work for 3 days. I can't wait to embrace my bump around people who don't know me! Hahaha

[blushing]

spankswife - Good luck tomorrow!

mrssandro - I am so happy you are here. Congrats! I hope this is your take home baby.

mrspost08 - Good luck for your scan.

speyedr - You are passed V day. If your baby is born now it will be fine. 34 weeks is not terrible. My son's BFF was born at 33 weeks and he is a thriving, healthy 6 year old now. I know its easy to say, but difficult to do, but try and relax.

[blushing]

radical - Sending you a hug. You are definitely not alone in this.

I am at the point of where I am thinking maybe I should get a doppler, but I am so scared that I might not be able to find the heartbeat.

[mrssandro]

I think if I had a Doppler I would be obsessed with using it all the time. Only to add to the craziness. I secretly want one but I am sure DH would give me a hard time about it.

[radical]

mrssandro blushing
My H encouraged me to get a Doppler, but I'm afraid I would be obsessive. I have a very obsessive personality. I'm worried about the what if I can't find it. Do I call the doctor and tell them I bought a Doppler or wait in misery till my next appt to see if it was user error or a mmc? I want it for the good news but so scared of it for the bad news.

[mrssandro]

radical you are so close to feeling that baby. I don't know if maybe the Doppler would add undue stress. I think though if you did get one and you weren't able to find a HB right away that calling the doctor would be a none issue. But then maybe just waiting it out may be better for your sanity. It's a tough choice. If it where me I would wait it out. 

[radical]

Feb 26, 2014 11:18:27 GMT -5 mrssandro said:

radical you are so close to feeling that baby. I don't know if maybe the Doppler would add undue stress. I think though if you did get one and you weren't able to find a HB right away that calling the doctor would be a none issue. But then maybe just waiting it out may be better for your sanity. It's a tough choice. If it where me I would wait it out. 

I've already talked myself into waiting it out. I don't need any more doubts in my head. Haha

[chickadee77]

My H was also pro-doppler, but I think it would just worry me, lol, so no for now.

Finally starting to feel her moving more consistantly (I'm about 22.5 weeks), so that's reassuring.

Excited for next appointment, though, and then another u/s a few weeks after that. Second tri is zipping by! So much to do yet, but I suppose it'll get done. I hope, lol.

[mrspost08]

Feb 26, 2014 11:04:44 GMT -5 mrssandro said:

I think if I had a Doppler I would be obsessed with using it all the time. Only to add to the craziness. I secretly want one but I am sure DH would give me a hard time about it.

I'm on the fence about getting one. I want one but then I'm scared I won't find the heart beat & freak out lol

[anaps28]

Well today I don't feel like I got hit by a bus but tried to have lunch out with my DS and could barely eat, then we went to Target and I had to leave bc I felt like I was going to pass out. Seriously this blows but now I feel so sick that I don't have time to be as anxious as I was. I mean I know I'm only 7 weeks and we aren't out of the woods by any means but I felt such a weight lifted that we were able to get passed the 6 week mark seeing a hb. Now I can start worrying about my next US I guess. I think all of us won't really feel OK until that little one is in our arms, most people just don't get that I think.

[picksthemusic]

Checking in. Super tired today.

I still deal with anxiety about this pregnancy, but it's mostly gone now since I can feel little flutters here and there that I know are baby (STM).

The thing that does worry me sometimes is this BH-like tightness that I get every once in a while if I stand up too fast or am dehydrated. I'm definitely going to mention it next OB visit next week, but it concerns me for sure.

Huge hugs to all of you ladies that need them - this is such a weird time for all of us.

[loira]

blushing and radical, hang in there, you are so close to those next appointments!

13w5d here. I put it in the mum to be thread last week, but everything looked normal at our NT scan on the 14th. I am so grateful for this, but like pps I can't keep some of the intrusive thoughts away. I am desperate to feel the baby move but I know I'm going to have to wait another couple of weeks at least. I have my 16w midwife appointment on 11th March but have no clue what they check for. Blood pressure and blood sugar maybe. I'm really hoping they'll bust out a doppler or something. I won't have my next scan until 20w.

[Odonata]

I'm still so early but am allowing myself to get excited, especially because I feel like shit so I figure if I'm going to be (literally) sick and tired I might as well be excited, too.

I'm freaking out because I did see a heartbeat earlier this week and I'm reading all these stories of going in after all these positive and strong tests only to have no more heart beat one day. It's like everything I'm feeling now or all the good signs are pointless and I will be dealing with m/c #3 any time now. And then I'll feel stupid for getting my hopes up. And then there is that feeling total failure and abandonment because I have two friends who are also pregnant. It'll be me alone again with no children - since all my friends AND siblings have reproduced but me. I don't want to go down that road again.

But I keep thinking that I made it this far. My first two never got to the point of a heart beat so there is that.

[Blue Moon]

Hi ladies. I'm so glad to see this thread get larger every week. It's so nice to be able to support each other. I keep having the "what are the chances" thoughts as well, but I'm getting better at not dwelling and redirecting my thoughts.

I'm 12w6d. I had my NT scan last Wednesday, and it was so cool to see the baby wiggling all around. My mom was able to join me and it was really nice to share that with her. She was so excited because even though she has five children, she's only had one or two ultrasounds total. We got a really nice profile shot of the baby as well that I hung on the fridge. Every time I open the door, I smile.

My belly has become noticeable in the past week and I'm loving it. I'm still exhausted come early evening, and have some pretty intense cheese cravings. I actually had a dream about mozzarella sticks the other night, lol.

[blushing]

Feb 26, 2014 15:57:19 GMT -5 loira said:

13w5d here. I put it in the mum to be thread last week, but everything looked normal at our NT scan on the 14th. I am so grateful for this, but like pps I can't keep some of the intrusive thoughts away. I am desperate to feel the baby move but I know I'm going to have to wait another couple of weeks at least. I have my 16w midwife appointment on 11th March but have no clue what they check for. Blood pressure and blood sugar maybe. I'm really hoping they'll bust out a doppler or something. I won't have my next scan until 20w.

They will check your blood pressure and your urine (don't forget your sample). Talk to you about your blood test results and arrange for you to get your shot if your blood type is negative. And they will listen to your baby's heart beat with the doppler. I double checked that with my midwife at my booking in appointment. Mine is on 9 April. It is school holidays so DS and DH are going with. I don't think they measure your fundal height yet. That comes later. Oh, and they won't weigh you again.

Yay for a great NT scan!