PGAL reassurance

[shekels1222]

I think I just need some positive words and hair pats right now.

I was doing well but having some anxiety and crying jags today. Then like an idiot I took another test. In my head I know the darkness of lines don't mean much, but it freaks me out a bit that it hasn't darkened.

I'm regretting not calling my doc this week now to get betas.

[VillainV]

I know it sucks, but hang in there. Lots of hugs!!!

[mrssandro]

Stop peeing on sticks. I am telling you this for your own sanity.

I took one digital this time and I did not take any others. I am patting myself on the back here. In the past I peed on sticks daily for a week.

Try not to worry. I know it's so hard not to worry yourself about this.

Big hugs!

[picksthemusic]

The mindfuck that is PGaL sucks. I'm so sorry you're having a rough time.

Keep telling yourself, "Today, I am pregnant. I love my baby." That might help.

Talk to your DH/SO about your feelings and get some comfort there.

We're here for you!

[statlerwaldorf]

FWIW the lines never got darker when I was pregnant with DD. They were always really faint.

[anaps28]

Hang in there shekels1222 its a very anxious time when your PGAL. Can you go in Monday for a beta to at least calm your nerves?

[shekels1222]

Thank you ladies. DH is great support but doesn't understand really. I'm tired of worrying myself sick and overanalyzing every twinge, symptom or lack thereof, but I just feel helpless. I know I'm preaching to the choir here.

Thanks for listening and letting me have my freak out of the day.

[shekels1222]

Mar 14, 2014 13:40:21 GMT -5 anaps28 said:

Hang in there shekels1222 its a very anxious time when your PGAL. Can you go in Monday for a beta to at least calm your nerves?

I could. My OB is great and head nurse is my BFFs mom. Maybe I'll call on Monday. They took such great care I me last time.

[anaps28]

Mar 14, 2014 13:45:22 GMT -5 shekels1222 said:

Mar 14, 2014 13:40:21 GMT -5 anaps28 said:

Hang in there shekels1222 its a very anxious time when your PGAL. Can you go in Monday for a beta to at least calm your nerves?

I could. My OB is great and head nurse is my BFFs mom. Maybe I'll call on Monday. They took such great care I me last time.

I would go ahead and give them a call, its one small step that might calm your nerves a bit.

[Odonata]

Oh, I was just there a few weeks ago! My lines were not dark at all. However, my betas were SO HIGH! I thought I might be having twins at one point. I would call and see if they could have you go in for a beta. I know reassurance feels so good when you are so anxious.

I was paranoid b/c my first two chemical pregnancies had faint lines so I was sure this one was going to follow suit.

Just goes to show the darkness of the lines is not a variable to go by.

[jewel]

Oh, I have no advice, just commiseration.

I tested at least 20 times after my first BFP. Probably more. Crazy town. My lines did get obviously darker, until they leveled out a week or two later.

At 15 weeks, I'm still incredibly nervous. At every appointment, I'm just hoping that the heartbeat is still there. It feels almost unbelievable that things could just progress uneventfully. I have a Doppler, but that little bugger is hiding behind and anterior placenta, so I can almost never get it.

[lo]

Mar 14, 2014 19:58:37 GMT -5 jewel said:

Oh, I have no advice, just commiseration.

I tested at least 20 times after my first BFP. Probably more. Crazy town. My lines did get obviously darker, until they leveled out a week or two later.

At 15 weeks, I'm still incredibly nervous. At every appointment, I'm just hoping that the heartbeat is still there. It feels almost unbelievable that things could just progress uneventfully. I have a Doppler, but that little bugger is hiding behind and anterior placenta, so I can almost never get it.

You've probably tried all the tricks, but are you going low enough with the Doppler? For a LONG time I would always find the heartbeat super low, like almost touching pubic hair (hello, tmi).

[mrspost08]

I POAS 3 times & had the faintest line. Never dark lines. It was making me crazy. Call for Betas on Monday. Hang in there!!! Big hugs

[jewel]

Mar 14, 2014 22:29:00 GMT -5 lo said:

Mar 14, 2014 19:58:37 GMT -5 jewel said:

You've probably tried all the tricks, but are you going low enough with the Doppler? For a LONG time I would always find the heartbeat super low, like almost touching pubic hair (hello, tmi).

I've tried EVERYWHERE, even an inch or two into pubic hair (or where is should be, since you asked ), LOL. I've gone as far down as I can go until I hit the pubic bone. At my last appointment, the NP couldn't get it on her Doppler either. She was all breezy about it, but I made her do an ultrasound just to check.

[Odonata]

This is the reason I would never get a doppler. I would be irattionally freaking out if I couldn't get it. I already convince myself the heart beat won't be there the next time I go in.