Theraputic Thursday

[twotrue]

What's one thing you need to vent about?

And now finish it with one thing you are thankful for.

[tattooedmeegs]

Oh boy is today a venting kind of day. Trav and I got in a fight yesterday and today and I'm wondering if this is just going to be a daily f*in thing now. Then he emailed me this morning as if nothing happened. No jerk, you don't get to be an ass then just go on like normal. We're going to need to have a talk tonight and it sucks and I'm not looking forward to it, but something has to change.

And on top of it, work is frustrating as hell today, and I just give up.

Thank goodness we leave for vacation tomorrow because I just need a break. Hopefully a vacation with my husband and 2-year old feels at least somewhat like a vacation...

[twotrue]

Sorry Meegs, fighting sucks. Try to leave all the bad mojo in PA and enjoy your vacation!

My vent: Oh there is just so much I could write about. I'm a bit heartbroken by some changes in my life and that sucks. Oh, and I really wish I made a few more dollars every week. I'm just so tired of being worried about money. I honestly can't even imagine the exhaustion of being truly poor. :-( I should probably get my resume together but the thought of switching jobs, just to possibly move in a year or so doesn't appeal to me. I'm just in a funk. I should play the lotto ;-)

But I am thankful for what I have. I'm thankful for job security and a child who is mending wonderfully. :-)

[kershnic]

Sorry for your arguing in your relationship, Meegs, and TT sorry for your money stress!

For my vent I'm going to follow suit with TT... I am trying to decide if I should take a class as a non-matriculated student in the fall, which I would eventually put towards a degree I want to pursue. Through a variety of things I can get tuition half off, which is a huge deal. But even half tuition at a private school is a huge freaking deal. I've been trying to do the math to figure out how we can make this whole get me a new degree thing work and the finances just do not work. DW keeps telling me "we'll find a way" but taking out six figures in loans is not a way I'm willing to go. I mean, we can pay for the one class just fine, but it's not worth paying for the class if I'm not going to get the degree.... and I honestly have no clue how we're going to make that work. Which pretty much leaves me feeling that despite having put a lot of time and money into undergrad and my first master's degree that the only feasible answer is to not give a crap about my career and just stay in a dead end job forever. And we both have respectable jobs and are a 2-income family. IT SHOULDN'T BE THIS HARD!

I am thankful we have jobs. I am thankful my job is flexible. I am thankful for the vacation we went on last week. I am thankful for having a wife I love who loves me back and wants to work this crap out with me.

[Deleted]

Vent: The other night J went to bed before I did, when I went to bed I cuddled up next to her, something that hasn't happened in a LONG time. I was just about to fall asleep when I felt her move and grunt because I was in her space, she pushed me off, got comfortable and went back to sleep. I felt so lonely in that moment, so disconnected from my wife. J and I love each other deeply but because we are so overworked and spread thin we just don't have time for each other and when we do try to connect it feels awkward. This one thing has pushed me more in the direction of not expanding our family further because I want my wife more than I want more children.

Thankful: I am so thankful for the family I have now, I feel a sense of balance and completeness (is that even a word?).

[2brides]

Butterfly - I could have written that post. Well, except for the wanting more kids. I am sorry.

[bluedaisyus]

I can't find one damn pair of running shoes that I like, and I was seriously unimpressed by the girl who did my fitting.

But, I actually NEED running shoes because I've gotten off my ass and actually started, you know, running, which is a very good thing.


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[ct]

Sorry for the relationship stress going around we all have it at times and it blows.

My vent: I hate the pattern in my life lately where there always has to be something bad to balance the good. So, our adoption party was saturday. Looking forward to it for months (years!) and had a wonderful time. truely one of my top 10 days. except, my grandmother (mom's mom) had passed away just a few days before and then, yesterday, I left work early to pick up my brother for a doctor's appointment and found him passed out (drunk) on the couch. despite the fact that he was awesome at the party and such a huge help, i could have killed him in that moment. its only a matter of time before he's back in the hospital...

The good: writing for the new blog is exactly what i need right now. its helping my suffering self esteem, giving me a positive distraction from the cyclical d-r-a-m-a in my life, and the support I'm getting from DW and my friends and family is so nice. I feel like DW finally *gets* what my blogging and online community means to me and instead of thinking its silly, she's proud.