PGAL check in

[blushing]

Hope no one minds me starting one of these, but I feel like I need one.

I am having a holy crap moment! This is really happening. I am really having another baby. I had this same feeling at my 12 week scan and then today when we heard the heart beat for the first time. After the last pregnancy ended in a loss at 13w4d (well that is when I found out) I have not managed to think past little milestones in this pregnancy. I almost set myself targets of just trying to reach the next stage. After 12 weeks (I had some targets before then) was 16 weeks when I knew we would hear the heart beat. My next target is 24 weeks when we will reach viability.

How are you all doing? Anything to share?

[shekels1222]

This IS it blushing! I know it's hard to get excited but I'm excited for you!

I started spotting again after doing too much yesterday. Doc has put me on modified bed rest until my 9 week ultrasound and I'm really struggling with it. I feel like a terrible mom to DS. DH is really stepping up, took off lunch today to take him out of the house. He's being such a great caretaker to all of us.

PGAL is a total mind f&$@ I have alternating moments of feeling confident this pregnancy will last and waiting for the other shoe to drop.

[picksthemusic]

Doing pretty okay here, except this kid likes to stand up in my uterus (he's breech right now) and thus sending me to the bathroom every 10 minutes. LOL

Still trying to wrap my brain around a boy. Not that penises scare me, but it'll just be different. In a good way, I know, but still.

Hugs to everyone!

[mrssandro]

I have been a little nervous this week. I am about to exit the first tri. The last two scans I was measuring 4 days ahead so if it keeps growing like it is I should be 13.1 tomorrow. I have my NT scan next Thursday at the butt crack of dawn. I consider this my final OMG this is happening test. I just hope everything is okay and is working as it should be.

I am trying not to google things like seeing a great HB at 12.1 weeks and miscarriage happens. Actually I have pretty much stopped with the googleing lately.

[radical]

I am having the same kind of moment blushing!

We had our anatomy scan this morning and baby girl looks perfect. I feel like now that I know there is nothing that looks wrong and all my test have been normal that this is really it. I know things can stil happen but for once, I am letting my excitement push my fear out of the way! I am starting to believe I am going to have my take home baby this time!

It was so cool seeing her this morning. She was moving like crazy! I couldn't feel her at all while we were looking at her moving around so she must really be hitting me good when I do feel her. She can kick me as hard as she wants. I'll always welcome them!

In other news - I'll be 20w on Monday. I can't believe I'm half way there. Now that I am accepting that this is our time, we need to get working on the nursery

[luv2rn4fun]

I am so excited to see everyone here doing so well and reaching your milestones!!!

I'm back and actually feeling pretty great! My test results yesterday were awesome (hcg went from 134 to 294 in 48 hours and progesterone is at 46.31!)! I also have a decent amount of symptoms (tired, asthma, boob soreness, and hungry all the time). It's starting to feel real and I have so much hope and faith that this little one is here to stay!

((hugs)) to everyone that needs them!

shekels1222- I hope your spotting goes away soon! Good for your DH for stepping up and taking care of you and DS while you cannot!

mrssandro- I am so, so excited for you and cannot wait to hear the update after your NT scan! You are almost there!! And yes, stay away from Google!

[loira]

I can't stop thinking in milestones too. I think it's partly PGAL and partly my personality (I like to break things down into manageable 'mini goals'). We have our A/S on Friday, so I just hope everything is normal and healthy. I'm trying to distract myself by getting excited that we will find out the sex, solving a piece of the puzzle of who this little person will be.

[anaps28]

I'm having similar feelings as blushing.
Yesterday at my NT scan my tech kept saying how perfect everything looked and how she was going to use my scans for her recertification bc it was exactly what a good NT scan should look like. I was sort if like wow this is good news I couldn't believe it! I can enjoy this moment- which we all know is so few and far between when your PGAL. It took so long to get to this point ... I'm just letting myself enjoy this moment. I have 5 weeks till my next appointment so I'm sure I will find time to get crazy anxious again.

[Blue Moon]

shekels1222 hang in there! I was miserable until my spotting stopped around 10 weeks pregnant and know how badly the constant worry stinks. I was on modified bed rest as well and I had my feet up as much as possible during the spotting. I think it did help my spotting stop sooner. Are you having any more u/s for reassurance before the NT?

I'm doing good...19 weeks tomorrow. My H has ramped up preparation and came home with lists of boy and girl names and a list of nursery ideas. He is really starting to get excited, which is making me more excited to see him so happy. My biggest complaint at the moment is still the acne that is spreading all over my face. But, I've felt the baby moving from the outside now a few times and I'm just in disbelief. It's the best feeling in the world.

[shekels1222]

Blue Moon I'm having another ultrasound on the 21st. I'll be 9 weeks. I'm hoping to be off bed rest after that. Fingers crossed. I haven't spotted at all today and today was the first full day I've been on bedrest ls it has helped it seems.

[Odonata]

shekels1222 good to hear that the bedrest is helping. I hope bed rest ends soon and you can get back to doing things. My friend bled on and off a ton early in her pregnancy and she was a nervous wreck. Hang in there!

I'm doing so much better at this point. I'll be 13 weeks this Friday and had my NT scan Monday. While they kid would not (no matter what they did) get into a position to get the scan, I did get to see himher for the first time looking like a human and not some gray blob on the screen. Heshe was moving all over the place and I got to see herhis little arms moving up and down and the face (which is creepy at this point!) I've finally accepted that I'm having a baby. And, I think I've finally "bonded" with himher. I'm not sure what that means but I feel like mommy at the moment. I know it's so little and I can't feel it move but I keep having those images of watching himher on the screen moving around and just LIVING in my abdomen in my mind so I feel that this is for real.

[mrspost08]

I am 17 weeks. It doesn't feel real. Other than my boobs exploding nothing else had changed. I can't feel the baby move, my stomach looks no different. I told everyone at work....2 lovely comments today...Oh I noticed you had gained some weight. REALLY I gained 6 pounds. Another person said oh your hips look bigger. WTF is up with these WOMEN of all people.

[toutsuite]

Can I join you gals even if it is for a brief moment? Hugs to all of you - especially you dear shekels1222! I hate that we are all here and have to worry about this given our previous losses!



I hope to be around you ladies for a while and so that I can finally bring home my take-home baby. I had a mm/c of twins at the end of January at around 12 weeks and subsequently had a d&c. I never got AF after the d&c. When I went to my doctor to follow-up on wtf was going on since AF never showed up, it came to light I still had hcg in my system and my doctor had me come back the next week where the level of hcg had increased.



I still can't utter the word because I don't believe it.  I am absolutely scared to death and if this turns out to be some sort of fluke where I got my hopes up and then it was nothing, I will be devastated. My doctor thinks I am early - so I will need a few more weeks for anything to show up on an ultrasound. I have no symptoms which is freaking me out even more and I actually thought I was getting AF at one point due to AF like cramping.  Again, I'm not totally convinced because DH and I were pretty good about using BC, except for on St. Patty's Day.    

Hope you ladies will have me for the time being, and I hope I can stick around!

[luv2rn4fun]

Apr 9, 2014 22:45:05 GMT -5 toutsuite said:

Can I join you gals even if it is for a brief moment? Hugs to all of you - especially you dear shekels1222! I hate that we are all here and have to worry about this given our previous losses!



I hope to be around you ladies for a while and so that I can finally bring home my take-home baby. I had a mm/c of twins at the end of January at around 12 weeks and subsequently had a d&c. I never got AF after the d&c. When I went to my doctor to follow-up on wtf was going on since AF never showed up, it came to light I still had hcg in my system and my doctor had me come back the next week where the level of hcg had increased.



I still can't utter the word because I don't believe it.  I am absolutely scared to death and if this turns out to be some sort of fluke where I got my hopes up and then it was nothing, I will be devastated. My doctor thinks I am early - so I will need a few more weeks for anything to show up on an ultrasound. I have no symptoms which is freaking me out even more and I actually thought I was getting AF at one point due to AF like cramping.  Again, I'm not totally convinced because DH and I were pretty good about using BC, except for on St. Patty's Day.    

Hope you ladies will have me for the time being, and I hope I can stick around!

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!  I'm so glad to see you here! I didn't want to push to much to get your hopes up in the TTCAL check in last week but I just had a feeling that you were pregnant based on your MIA AF and HCG still in your system.  Praying that this is your take home baby!!!

[Alwaysabridesmaidf]

I am doing pretty well. Some of the nausea has let up. I still don't feel great but much better in comparison to the last 9 weeks.
People's excitement was really starting to give me anxiety. I kept thinking how disappointed people would be if something happened. So I went out an bought a doppler. I used it once, found the heartbeat pretty quickly and then put it away. I think I will like havnig it for small moments of panic I get.
So glad to see everyone's good updates! Happy spring!

[shekels1222]

OMG OMG OMG toutsuite !!!!!

I'm so very excited for you. What a crazy rollercoaster you've been on! Vibes this is an uneventful and uncomplicated pregnancy and you'll be holding your rainbow baby soon!

OMG!

[shekels1222]

Apr 10, 2014 7:33:47 GMT -5 Alwaysabridesmaidf said:

I am doing pretty well. Some of the nausea has let up. I still don't feel great but much better in comparison to the last 9 weeks.
People's excitement was really starting to give me anxiety. I kept thinking how disappointed people would be if something happened. So I went out an bought a doppler. I used it once, found the heartbeat pretty quickly and then put it away. I think I will like havnig it for small moments of panic I get.
So glad to see everyone's good updates! Happy spring!

I so get the anxiety over other people's excitement. My big mouth mother has basically told the world and I am always getting congrats and excited faces from people I didn't know knew I was pregnant. It's the worst. It's like I have tons of pressure to keep the baby when I actually have little to control that.

[toutsuite]

Apr 10, 2014 7:25:09 GMT -5 luv2rn4fun said:

Apr 9, 2014 22:45:05 GMT -5 toutsuite said:

Can I join you gals even if it is for a brief moment? Hugs to all of you - especially you dear shekels1222! I hate that we are all here and have to worry about this given our previous losses!



I hope to be around you ladies for a while and so that I can finally bring home my take-home baby. I had a mm/c of twins at the end of January at around 12 weeks and subsequently had a d&c. I never got AF after the d&c. When I went to my doctor to follow-up on wtf was going on since AF never showed up, it came to light I still had hcg in my system and my doctor had me come back the next week where the level of hcg had increased.



I still can't utter the word because I don't believe it.  I am absolutely scared to death and if this turns out to be some sort of fluke where I got my hopes up and then it was nothing, I will be devastated. My doctor thinks I am early - so I will need a few more weeks for anything to show up on an ultrasound. I have no symptoms which is freaking me out even more and I actually thought I was getting AF at one point due to AF like cramping.  Again, I'm not totally convinced because DH and I were pretty good about using BC, except for on St. Patty's Day.    

Hope you ladies will have me for the time being, and I hope I can stick around!

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!  I'm so glad to see you here! I didn't want to push to much to get your hopes up in the TTCAL check in last week but I just had a feeling that you were pregnant based on your MIA AF and HCG still in your system.  Praying that this is your take home baby!!!

Thanks lady!  I actually thought the reason why the test was positive was because the D&C hadn't removed everything....As a matter of fact I was convinced of this, was pissed, and was throwing myself a one man pity party.  I feel silly even saying that but since we were relatively good at using BC, I figured there was no way.  I'm pissed at myself a little bit because I stopped charting the week before St. Patty's Day because I was getting annoyed with my Rocky Mountain FF chart that showed no ovulation with one really long cycle.  Now I wish I had kept it up just one more week and I probably would know the whereabouts of where I O'ed, EDD, etc.  The past week, PGAL brain has really gotten to me - don't get me wrong I am thrilled, but just so scared  something will happen especially given the no symptoms, etc.  That said, today I am XX and I will embrace it.  

shekels1222 - has the spotting stopped?  FX things for you will be more calm and uncomplicated going forward.  Huge hugs coming your way!

Thanks for letting me join you ladies (albeit in the club that no one wants to be in)!  Wishing you all happy and healthy pregnancies!

[shekels1222]

toutsuite yes the spotting has stopped. As long as I'm not doing too much and follow the modified bed rest plan I'm fine...guess I should slow down for awhile huh?!

Thanks for asking!

Unfortunately PGAL brain never really goes away as I've learned from experience and from these amazing ladies who are also ahead of us on this road. I thought once I saw bean's hb I'd feel better...and I did for a bit. Each milestone is a big step but I think ultimately we always are fighting PGAL brain ya know.

This little one is here today and is such a blessing. How wild a ride it took you to get here but you are and today you are pregnant! (I'll say it for you)