I may be dealing with the same GI issues that have afflicted my younger children this week. May. I have been unsettled all week though. I hope not because I am planning on going out tomorrow night and I have a bridal shower for the lady from work on Saturday morning.
I hope it all subsides before the weekend, whatever is going on.
Also cuddlyevil I'm thankful for you too. You really helped yesterday.
I had a moment lat night that scared me when I got in my car. I went to dinner with M and we were back at his place. I could see him suddenly switch into work mode and he walked me to my car. He gave me a kiss and I wanted another and he was joking but said geez (or something like that). My response was "oh, it's so terrible I like physical contact with you" and then after I got in the car it hit me that I said that to stbx while we were separated. Up until that, the night was good, but now I'm uncertain.
I got a lot of errands ran this morning. I ran out for black tights for tonight only to get home and realize I bought the wrong color. I hate when I do that, packaging should reflect whats inside.
Yesterday my boss gave me a gift card for a sushi place. H and I went out for some awesome sushi. It was nice to go out just he and I.
neonpink thank you. And that was nice of your boss!
I realized that up until M got distracted by work, he was being affectionate and attentive. So I'm still uncertain, but I'm not upset like I was last night. I think I've been looking for a flaw (or more than one) in every guy I've dated so far. Something to talk about with my therapist!
partiallysunny I didn't tell him it upset me, the "it's terrible" comment was from me. I don't know that I want to get into it with him because I think my reaction was really more about stbx and me than it was about M. That's why my therapist will get to hear it. Dating again/starting anew is complicated!
tiramisu My dear, it is really not supposed to be this complicated right now. You should be having fun without it being this heavy. And if you can't do that, I think maybe you aren't ready to be dating. I'm sorry if this sounds harsh. I just hate to see you struggling when you should be enjoying yourself.
partiallysunny I didn't tell him it upset me, the "it's terrible" comment was from me. I don't know that I want to get into it with him because I think my reaction was really more about stbx and me than it was about M. That's why my therapist will get to hear it. Dating again/starting anew is complicated!
You did the right thing there.
I agree with motzie. It's not suppose to be this complicated. Maybe you need a break from dating until you sort out some of those insecurities from your marriage?
I hope you feel better asap cuddlyevil. No one should be sick on a long weekend!
I'm in a really foul mood today, and I can't shake it. I really wish I could spend this weekend at home, just me and H. On the plus side, friends of ours are coming over tonight for dinner, and they might be bringing their new puppy with them.
I had another date with dude last night. I woke up in his bed this morning. Really, really early this morning. His alarm goes off at 4:45 am.
I need more caffeine and I guess I need to come up with a nickname for dude.
Oooh! ::eyebrow waggle:: Tell us more!
We went out to a bar where his BFF is the bouncer and hung out there for awhile. Went back to his place, had some awesome sex and woke up a few hours later when his alarm went off.
I can imagine the size coffee he stopped for this morning. He needs to be alert for his job, so he probably got the big gulp size. I'll have to pick on him about the port-a-potty coffee poop later on.
I've had 3 iced teas so far. I'm finally starting to wake up.
I came up with a nickname for him... Bear. It's the last half of his IRL nickname (first half has his name, so I'll leave that part out).
We have been talking an awful lot on here about David Bowie and his Labyrinth codpiece. Chef guy and his friends and I have also been discussing it. So I'm putting it all together by bringing Labyrinth to his house tonight. It's in my purse right now.
I may not be ready after all. I thought I was, and then these little things happen that turn into big things in my brain. I don't even know what will trigger something until after its happened.
Post by starrieskies on Apr 17, 2014 10:28:44 GMT -5
I've been getting my ass handed to me at work this week. It's been ridiculous. I'm all kinds of stressed out this week.
I'm also wondering if I should contact my lawyer about the final paperwork. I half expected he would contact me, but I haven't heard anything. I know he switched firms, a couple of weeks ago, so I understand that he's probably trying to get his bearings, but my 90 days will be up on Monday and I really just want to get this done. If I don't hear from him by 10, I'll call.
:: hugs:: tiramisu everything is still fresh. These things take time.
Thank you. I think the biggest lesson for me to learn is that I need to stop dating someone who keeps triggering my insecurities and that's a good enough reason on its own.
He was messing around when we were laying in bed and he benchpressed me. Doods, I weigh 175 lbs. I'm not petite or anything. I was up in the air and he didn't grunt or anything. He's really muscular, but still has a little belly.
His job is construction for a pipeline company. For now. He's actually a chef, but he put that mostly on the backburner to bring in more money (he has primary custody of his kids). He has a catering company that he does on the side. When his kids are grown, he wants to open a small restaurant.
The guy who kept walking past my office and smiling/waving last week came by again. I talked to him a bit, got a big smile but then when he passed me in the hall he looked down at his shoes while smiling/laughing. #badatthispartyofone