hCG levels and bleeding (miscarriage) - Update

[littlelemondrop]

I guess I need to get this out, bear with me.

I got a bfp August 16. The 25th I started to bleed after my run. The next day I went in for bloodwork and my hCG came back at 4800. I continued to bleed and I was sure it was over. The 28th I went in for bloodwork again and my hCG came in at 9600. Perfect double, but so fing confusing. I've continued to bleed through the weekend to the point that I've had to use my postpartum pads. 
I go in today at 4 for an ultrasound. I just need an answer. Blighted ovum? Subchorionic hemorrhage? I can't live in limbo like this anymore. I'm prepared for it to be over, I guess I just need to know for sure.

This reads really depressing, but I don't do "hopeful" well. I'm better at anticipating and preparing for the worst, it's strangely comforting.

AND I'm guessing they'll do a vaginal ultrasound and I'm already pissed about that. 

Womp, womp.

Update: 
Thank you everyone so so much for your kind words and positive thoughts! 
Ultrasound showed a large subchorionic hemorrhage. The baby is correctly sized, but the heart rate is low. 70bpm. My dr thought it was likely that I'll miscarry this week, although there is a chance I may not. I had blood drawn and another ultrasound scheduled for next Wednesday. My limbo continues.

[muppetinma]

Fingers crossed!

And I prefer to call it the dildo-cam. It makes the ridiculousness a little easier to handle.

[sunshineluv]

I am sorry, I know the unknown is very hard. I hope you get some firm answers today, and I will be hopeful and optimistic for you. Best of luck to you.

[Deleted]

Big hugs to you. I will keep you in my thoughts. I will be hopeful for you for the best!

[charlielove]

I will be hoping that everything with the baby is okay. I am the same way about things like this so I completely understand your logic. Big hugs and fingers crossed. Update us when you can.

[lolaburns]

My mom bled with me like this. So I know you don't do hopeful well, but I'm just telling you because sometimes things end up ok.

Thinking of you and hoping time goes quickly this afternoon until your u/s. ((( huge hugs))))

[EnchantedSoul]

There are lots of us here who had heavy bleeding and SCH's. I had heavy bleeding with DSs 2&3.
Hope everything comes back well for you!

[laurack]

aw I'm sorry, I really hope it isn't a m/c but if it is we are here for you. Fingers crossed for good news at the ultrasound.

I HATE vaginal ultrasounds, I hope it is not too uncomfortable

[fryjack2]

I hope everything looks good.

Its already 4 here, so I'll be thinking of you this afternoon

[lynzee21]

Prayers and hope you get some answers very soon!


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[imimahoney]

I'm sorry. I hope the u/s goes well. Fingers crossed!

[Deleted]

I'm sorry. I hope the u/s goes well and you get some answers on the bleeding.

[carawestt]

I hope everything with the baby is okay! I've had friends that bled a lot in the beginning and everything ended up being just fine.

[skiesthelimit]

Thinking of you xox

[DaphneStrauss]

I'm sorry you're going through this. I would be the same way, thinking of you.

[laurensmomma]

Fingers crossed that the bleeding is nothing. You'll be in my thoughts.

[helicase]

Thinking of you.

[TrudyCampbell]

I hope you get good news.

[mabillon]

I'm sorry you're facing uncertainty but I hope you get a positive answer ASAP.

[rainbowchip]

FX for good news.

[playswithsquirrels]

Huge hugs. I really hope it's nothing to worry about.

[awick14]

I just saw this on the app and wanted to say that I hope the bleeding is nothing and you get answers soon. Bleeding after a BFP is terrifying. ((Hugs))

[AndyCohen]

Thinking of you. Hope everything is ok!

[Deleted]

I'm so sorry. I kept bleeding like that too and at my last appointment they found a tear in my placenta that is causing it, but the baby is okay. I know you must be so scared, I really hope you have good news!

[Deleted]

Fingers crossed lady. Hugs.

[artgal84]

I hope everything is ok, thinking of you!

[jenbelle]

Just saw this and I hope everything goes ok. Big hugs!!!!

[irishsara]

Fingers crossed that everything is ok!

[beelove]

Sending good thoughts.

[melmon0417]

Thinking of you!