I told him

[montereybride]

Oh man, where do I start...

Sunday I went to Oktoberfest with his mom and one of her friends. He was there pouring beer. He offered me a free beer and I declined and he joked that I must have drank too much at Ren Faire on Saturday. I told him "No, I actually didn't drink yesterday either." He asked if I was ok and if something was wrong and I told him - brightly - that everything was fine. He looked at me like I had two heads. He came over to our table a little later and asked again if I wanted something and again I declined. He basically called bullshit on me not drinking anything at Oktoberfest because, really, who does that? Plus, he knows me.

I told him I was ok and he said "No, tell me. Something's going on. What's wrong." I asked him if he really wanted to know and he gave me that "DUH!!" look, so I pulled him close and whispered in his ear that I took a test on Friday morning and it came back positive and then I took another a couple hours later and that one also came back positive. I was on the verge of tears and he just smiled and asked if I was ok. He mouthed the words "you're freaking out" as I was telling him that I was freaking out. I asked him if he was ok and he smiled and said he was ok. He had to go back to work at that point so he kissed me and gave me a squeeze.

A little later we had a chance to talk and he asked me what I wanted to do. I told him I hadn't had a chance to fully process it yet but that I was strongly considering keeping the baby and that I didn't expect anything from him and that I didn't want him to feel trapped. He got a little injured and said that I didn't know him at all if that's really what I was thinking. I told him that I never expected to be in this position. He said that there are some things that can't be planned because if you try to plan for them, it'll never happen. He said he wanted me to make the decision that was going to make me happy and that he would support my decision. He told me he's not going to run and that he will be involved in everything.

I reminded him of a conversation we've been having over the last couple weeks about commitment and told him that I don't expect a commitment from him. He had told me that he loved me but that he couldn't 100% commit to me until I'm through everything with the divorce and the dust settles. I didn't begrudge him that and appreciated his honesty and understood that he needed to protect his heart. Last night he told me that those conversations don't exist anymore because everything has changed.

So, we're having a baby. Fuck. I need a ticker or something.


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TL/DR - Told the boy. He's 100% supportive of whatever decision I make and will be there for me and our child during and after. I'm really doing this. OMFG someone hold me.

[thebuddhagouda]

He sounds great. Congratulations!

[lightbulbsun]

He sounds like a great guy. Congrats!

[demelza]

Aww.

[meggers5]

I'm so glad it went well.

[W.T.Faulkner]

You're gonna be fine!! ((hugs))

[shell24]

Congratulations!

[Deleted]

He sounds amazing. Congrats!!

[TC]

Now we can all go with congratulations! You are going to be a good mom, and he sounds like a good guy

[pantsparty]

I'm glad it went well! Congrats to you!

[nahoku]

This is a good update, mb. It sounds like you guys are on the same page. Congrats

[chchchia]

Oh, congrats, what a sweet story. Here's to a happy and healthy nine months and beyond!

[keyslover]

I love all of this I am glad you are with a great guy and I am glad you are happy.

Congrats!

[ZoeHart]

You couldn't have hoped for a better response from him, he sounds great.

[So_Fetch]

Thats a wonderful update. Congratulations.

[Deleted]

Aww congrats!! YOURE HAVING A BABY!!!

[revolution]

oh - yay!! Sounds like you've got a great guy. And soon to be great baby.

[ginap]

I'm so glad that you have made a decision that you are happy with and that you are getting lots of support from him.  Sorry that sounds weirdly formal and cold and it's certainly not intended to be.  Many many congratulations to you and I wish you great happiness and much love.

[ooglie26]

Congrats, MB! Many internet stranger hugs to you.

[luckyval]

Oh, sweetie, I am so happy for you guys! I know this wasn't expected, but it sounds like he's going to be an amazing partner.

H&H 9 months!!!

[Deleted]

He seems like a good guy MB. I am so happy for you.


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[steph196]

That's great news! I'm glad that he is being so supportive! Congratulations!

[VeryViolet]

What a great update! Congratulations!

[coribelle26]

That sounds like a great conversation and you both seem to have your shit together way more than you are giving yourself credit for. Congratulations!!

[pinkeggs]

Sounds like you've got a hell of a guy there. Congratulations!!

[zoomzoom]

I'm so glad that he took it well and that he's supportive of whatever you decide to do. That's great!

[sharknado]

Wait, wait, wait, let me get this straight...the two of you have amazing sex, he knows you inside and out and he LOVES you and wants to have babies with you?
CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!

[madringal]

Sounds like you have a pretty great guy there. Congratulations!

[flex]

He sounds great and I KNOW you will do a great job. I think this was meant to be. (((hugs)))

ETA:  And I'm.so.glad you told him!!!

[Yankees21]

Congratulations!! He sounds wonderful. So happy to see this update.