Having the sadz

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I might delete, not sure. I'm very depressed, but today I'm feeling extra sad. 

Decided to delete.

[belovedbride07]

Oh, honey... I don't usually post on this board but I mis-clicked and I didn't want to not respond.

First, I want to make sure that you are safe. Are you thinking of harming yourself? If so, please get some help: the number for the Suicide Prevention a Hotline is 1-800-273-8255.

Second, please know that you are not alone in your experience, and that it won't always be this way. I recognize myself a few years ago in a lot of what you are saying.

Third, are you being treated for your depression? Therapy or medications will not make all of your problems go away, but trust me when I tell you they can make a difference. Depression is a chemical imbalance in the brain and I know fixing that won't change your circumstances (health, family, friends), but getting that balance back in check will give you the strength to feel like you can deal with it all. And a good therapist can give you tools for working through your problems.

Big hugs. I'm so sorry you are having a down day. 

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Thanks for your reply. I have a master's in social work so I know all about counseling and therapy haha. I don't have a therapist now, but I know I should look into it. Going out in the cold/driving is not the best for me to do, but maybe phone counseling would help.

I'm not suicidal right now, no need to be alarmed.

[estrellita]

I'm so sorry you are feeling this way. If it helps, I could have written a lot of that. I only have a few people I consider good friends and none of them live that close (BFF is 4ish hours away). I feel lonely a lot, and it was especially bad when I worked part time because I'd be home alone with nothing to do most of the time. Have you thought about getting a full time job? I get stressed and frustrated at work sometimes, but at least it gets me out of the house and interacting with people every day. Or maybe get involved with something? Volunteering, a work out class, something on your calendar you can commit to and get some social interaction?

Have you tried counseling or medication for the depression? I know for me medication really helped. I haven't personally been to counseling, but I know it can be extremely effective.

And please don't feel bad for feeling this way. I know how physically painful the emotional pain can be. It's horrible. Yes, life could always be worse, but that doesn't mean we always have to pretend to be happy when we're not. I hope you can find something that helps you! *hugs*

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I feel bad for even reaching out here. I don't want to burden you ladies .

[estrellita]

That's a tough one. I know my worst days are the ones where I spend all day at home alone. Is there a hobby you'd be interested in taking up? Maybe something crafty? That could fill your time with something relaxing. I like to crochet and occasionally scrapbook and sew. It's nice to relax and also feel productive by making something!

[katespade]

Nov 15, 2014 15:17:27 GMT -5 @moonbeam said:

I feel bad for even reaching out here. I don't want to burden you ladies .

Don't feel bad at all for reaching out. You are in no way a burden.
I honestly could have written almost the same post about myself. If you are in the market for an online pseudo-friend, or just someone to talk to, please don't hesitate to send me a PM anytime.

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That's a good idea...I'll need to look into it. It would feel good to make something.

It makes me sad that I can't say to my sister "Listen, I want you to come for Christmas, but you'll have to be okay with staying home some days." She won't be understanding. She will say it's too boring and not worth it. Ugh. And no, it's not worth a try to bring it up, because I have in the past, and she doesn't GAF.

I'm going to delete my original post, it's a lot of personal info .

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Thanks katespade...I appreciate it. Also estrellita for your kind words and concern.

[mac08]

((Hugs)) @moonbeam... I don't have any advice, but I just wanted to show my support.  Please feel free to post about this here as much as you need to.

[travelbug]

I missed your post, but I'm sorry you are feeling down and depressed The other ladies have given great suggestions. Taking up a hobby you like I think could be a huge benefit. Something crafty like scrapbooking, sewing, baking, stamping, making cards just as ideas. Another idea might be to volunteer one or two days a week to get out of the house for a few hours (again I don't know what you posted earlier if this has anything to do with it) just to get interaction with some other people! Never, Never feel like a burden, you definitely are not You can always vent. ((Big hugs!!!))

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mac08, travelbug, jjwritergirl Thanks for your support! I don't think I live near any of the WC girls...I'm in SE MI.

[ewall]

I missed your post, but don't ever feel bad about posting here! Major hugs. 

[bk1]

I missed your post, just want to give you big hugs and let you know I'm thinking of ya!

[awick14]

I miss your post but I wanted to let you know that we are here for you. If you ever need anything pm me. ((Hugs))

[ginkgoleaf]

I missed your post but I'm sorry that you're going through a rough time. Be kind to yourself.

[Deleted]

Thanks guys...you're all a very sweet bunch <3.

[wanderingenough]

I'm sorry you are feeling down. I didn't see the original post, but definitely don't feel bad about sharing here!

[MrsMB]

I didn't see the op, but it sounds like the ladies have some great advice. Just sending some ((hugs))

[HoneySpider]

((@moonbeam)) Definitely reach out to us here! I'm sorry you're struggling.