Time to Intro

[montywho]

Hi! I'm mostly a lurker but have posted some on TTTC and GP. I would like to start posting more and finally have the nerve to intro.

I got pregnant with my 4 yr old on the first cycle of trying. I could not believe how quickly it happened. Last November we decided to TTC #2. I ignorantly thought it would happen super quick again. It did not. I saw a fertility specialist after 6 months of trying and went through some tests. Everything was great. My DH has slightly low motility (46%) and volume but the RE did not see that as a major cause for concern. Finally Cycle #12 we decided to go for IUI with Clomid and Ovidrel. Just before Thanksgiving we got a BFP.  I felt like the emotional roller coaster of 2014 was over and we can enjoy the good news and holidays.

Last Monday we found out we're having twins. I cried during the ultrasound. I could not believe it and just thought there is no way we can handle twins. I'm not going to lie, I was not happy. I cried for a week and had panic attacks. 7% chance with clomid, I know we took our chances and that it could happen. I had one mature follicle and a couple smaller ones. I thought we were good for a singleton as did the nurse.

I feel so deflated right now. I know once we truly grasp this we will be happy and no doubt love these little ones but right now we are scared shitless. We live in a small house and the thought of 3 in daycare is sickening. My new motto is 'it is what it is'. We will get through it and my little guy will have two little ones to play with and love. All I wanted was for him to have a sibling...now he'll have two.

I'm sorry this got long, but I feel like I've been holding back so much emotion the last week and a half. I feel sad and guilty for the feelings I've been having. Omg what did we do, we can't financially do this, our son will never get one on one attention again, etc.

Thanks for listening and I'm looking forward to being an active poster.

I'll be 8 weeks tomorrow.

[christy082]

Congrats on your pregnancy. I'm sorry you are struggling right now. It's perfectly okay to feel however you feel. Try not to be so hard on yourself. Pregnancy is full of all kinds of emotions, not just joy. ((Hugs)).

[Deleted]

Congratulations!

We have a few twin mamas floating around, and I'm sure you're not alone in your panic. You've got many months to plan and prepare and figure things out. *hugs*

[kellsbelles]

Welcome! It's a lot to wrap your head around and your feelings are normal. Take some time to let it sink in and then you can start planning out the logistics including a budget. There's a moms of multiples board which I am sure would be really helpful to run things by them since they've been where you are.

I've nannied for two twin families and have to say they are twice the work but twice the fun and blessings too. Welcome to the board

[achi]

Congrats! I am sure that is a lot to wrap your head around.

[sparkythelawyer]

Congratulations! Twins is a total mindfuck, I don't blame you one bit for being thrown for a loop! Hope all continues to go well :-)

[montywho]

Thanks! This will just take some time to process I guess.

[laurenh]

Hi and welcome!

I am 36 weeks along with twins and we had "planned" for just #2. These babies are the result of femara and an ovidrel trigger with just timed intercourse. I had one mature follicle and one that was about 13/14 so it miiight have matured but we took the chance. And then there were two.

I 100% understand your freak out and can assure you we had the same one for a few weeks. We were very thankful for the babies but it wasn't what we had planned and it raised a huge financial stress regarding daycare. After a few weeks the shock wore off and turned into nervous excitement and that's where I currently still am. Don't get me wrong, child care is going to be next to impossible for us to pay for but it has been amazing watching these babies grow and we love them so much. Balancing them plus a two year is probably going to make us insane but our motto has become something akin to we'll make it work.

I wish you the best of luck!

[estrellita]

That is a lot to take in! I would probably be panicking a bit too if we were having twins, haha. You will make it work. It will be tough at first on your son because it won't be easy to take care of 2 infants and him. But he will be just fine! Don't feel guilty for freaking out, it's totally understandable!

Anyways, congrats and welcome!

[dearprudence]

Twins would scare me too. I think that's a natural thing. But I bet once you get used to the idea it will become less scary. I also think you'll be better prepared for it as a second time mom.

[626]

Congratulations.

Your feelings are totally normal about twins. My cousin found out she was pregnant with twins with a 2 year old and I believe the words she used was "devastated". It just took some time for her to come to terms with it since she only wanted two kids in total. After a while she became very excited at the thought of twins, though was still scared about the amount of work.

Her twins came this summer and she's doing great. She and her husband are very happy. Of course it can be tough, but she's loving it.

So don't worry about having these feelings. It's totally normal.

I wish you the best of luck!

[mcfelix]

Congrats on the pregnancy! I can understand being shocked and upset by the discovery of twins. You've got a few months to wrap your head around the idea.