Had my hysteroscopy today

[HoneySpider]

Bottom line: There is a large, calcified tissue mass on my uterus and I need to have surgery to remove it.

The commentary: There's a pretty good chance this is our problem. The doctor can't know for sure that it's the result of the D&E but that's the most likely explanation (the tissue will be sent to the lab when it's removed just in case it's something else). Originally she thought she could remove it today in the office but once she realized how hard it was, she said the surgery will have to be done in the main OR so I'll get a local anesthetic. I go for my pre-op appt next Friday and the surgery will likely be in 2-3 weeks (waiting to hear from the scheduling dept)

Good news it that it's outpatient surgery, recovery time in minimal (few days) and we can TTC again about 2 weeks after, so depending on when I have the surgery we may be able to try next cycle. The bad news is, this is really messing with me emotionally. While I'm glad we may have our answer, I'm also really upset thinking that we may have wasted the last 20 months - there's a possibility that we never stood a chance. I'm upset that 2 doctors examined me last year and neither saw any cause for concern or reason to explore further. I guess I should be thankful that I have better doctors now (better late than never, right?) I'm wondering if the doctor who did my D&E messed up or this is just the result of bad luck. 

The doctor and nurse were both amazed at how well I handled the pain, they said they've never seen anyone do so well. I'd be proud except I know the only reason I was ok was because I went through a lot worse with the pregnancy/D&E (I told them that up front, said I expected this to not be too terrible). 

I'll be glad when it's done so we can move on and hopefully have a better chance for success with TTC. It may not 100% be our solution but it's definitely going to help, so I'm going to try and be optimistic that it's going to be enough. 

 

[MrsMB]

First off...major hugs to you. I'm hurt and angry for you regarding this mass. I am so sorry...and I understand how emotional that could be. I AM very, very happy they feel this could improve things going forward. I'm VERY glad that you have better doctors!!! Club 2015 babies!!! Can you update us and let us know when the procedure is?

[awick14]

((Hugs)) I already posted on the GP one, but we are here if you need us.

[HoneySpider]

Jan 8, 2015 13:26:46 GMT -5 MrsMB said:

First off...major hugs to you. I'm hurt and angry for you regarding this mass. I am so sorry...and I understand how emotional that could be. I AM very, very happy they feel this could improve things going forward. I'm VERY glad that you have better doctors!!! Club 2015 babies!!! Can you update us and let us know when the procedure is?

Yes, I will!

[estrellita]

I'm sorry you have to have surgery, but I really hope this is your answer! So many *hugs* and I hope it goes well!

[spankswife]

Oh wow!! Lots of hugs!!

You know, it's like you said, sort of bittersweet. But we can't go backwards, and can only move forwards in life, so hoping this will be your answer.

Glad to hear it's not too invasive, and you'll have a quick recovery. FX for you guys!!

[MrsMB]

Jan 8, 2015 13:34:30 GMT -5 HoneySpider said:

Jan 8, 2015 13:26:46 GMT -5 MrsMB said:

First off...major hugs to you. I'm hurt and angry for you regarding this mass. I am so sorry...and I understand how emotional that could be. I AM very, very happy they feel this could improve things going forward. I'm VERY glad that you have better doctors!!! Club 2015 babies!!! Can you update us and let us know when the procedure is?

Yes, I will!

Thank you! I know I speak on behalf of many who want to send good thoughts and prayers your way that everything goes better than expected! Again....so many hugs. I hope you are able to take some downtime today to take care of YOU. 

[HoneySpider]

Jan 8, 2015 14:01:38 GMT -5 MrsMB said:

Jan 8, 2015 13:34:30 GMT -5 HoneySpider said:

Yes, I will!

Thank you! I known I speak on behalf of many who want to send good thoughts and prayers your way that everything goes better than expected! Again....so many hugs. I hope you are able to take some downtime today to take care of YOU. 

Well I've already changed into my PJs so yeah, think I'm going to be semi-lazy today

[rockinrobyn]

Sending lots of hugs to you! FX this is the answer and 2015 will be your year!

[wanderingenough]

Ok, so that has got to be a lot to process. I can understand why you are pissed. I would be too. I'm glad they were able to get things moving so quickly though. Like spankswife said, all you can do is move forward, so it's a nice you have a plan in place. Big hugs! We are all here for you.

[travelbug]

Huge hugs to you! I'm sorry you have to have surgery but am so very glad that you are moving forward with what seems to be incredible doctors. We are all here for you!

[Deleted]

((Hugs)) I'm sorry to hear about the mass but glad that you have some answers. Here's hoping the surgery solves the problem and 2015 is your year!

[D2M]

Wow, that's a lot to take in. I'm glad you have great doctors and you will be taking action soon. I'm sure you have a lot of emotions to deal with, though. I am hopeful for you. I truly wish the best for you and hope you get to take home a mini HS soon.

[pooh8402]

Wow, that's crazy! I'm sorry it was bad news, but hopefully this will provide the fix, you know?

[ewall]

I'm sorry that they found something that likely could have been caught much earlier. The fact that it may have prolonged TTC for you majorly sucks. I hope the procedure goes well and leads to a 2015 BFP (and baby! there's still plenty of time to work one into 2015!) for you.

[bk1]

HUGE ((hugs)). I'm so sorry that you have to have surgery. I really hope this makes all the difference for you and you and your H are able to get pg asap. I can't imagine the emotional roller coaster this has to be for you. Soooo glad you have better doctors now and were able to find out what was going on. 2015 is gonna be your year! Keep us updated for sure!

[melsamoony]

((hugs)). I can totally see why you are emotional about all that. I do hope this provides a solution and you get your BFP super soon. When you do please entitle the post BAM FUCKING PREGNANT.

[HoneySpider]

Jan 8, 2015 18:38:00 GMT -5 melsamoony said:

((hugs)). I can totally see why you are emotional about all that. I do hope this provides a solution and you get your BFP super soon. When you do please entitle the post BAM FUCKING PREGNANT.

I totally will, just for you

[irene adler]

Oh man, big hugs to you. I'm so sorry this happened, but am glad you have answers and hope you get your bfp soon.

And I want to nut punch your former doctors.

[HoneySpider]

Thanks guys for all your support and hugs and kind thoughts. It means a lot to me to be able to come here and talk to you all about it.

[mac08]

I can imagine how frustrated you must feel, having not known this for the last 20 months and going through so much stress/frustration/disappointment because of something your previous doctors should have found.  However, I really hope this is the solution that works for you! Good luck with the surgery, and I hope your BFP is soon to follow!

[krystee]

That must be such a mixed bag of emotions. I would be so frustrated too. But I am so glad for you that it was found and sounds relatively easily fixable! It is such a relief to feel like you have a good doctor and a plan.

[katespade]

I am so glad to see that they've finally figured out what's going on! I'm sorry that it has taken them so long and that you'll have to have surgery to repair it, but I hope they're able to get you scheduled quickly and it leads to a BFP as soon as possible!!!

[MrsAggie]

((Hugs)) I'm praying this is the answer for you and your DH. Just know we're all here rooting for you and let me know if there's anything I can do for you/anything that you need.

[mrssandro]

Man HS...nice to have answers but that sucks that the other doctors didn't see it.

I hope you have a super fast recovery and you get knocked up asap.

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[zarapipe]

So glad you may have found you answer. And yay for good doctors! Wishing the best as always.

[luv2rn4fun]

So many ((hugs)) friend. I'm furious for all that you have been through and especially knowing that this could have and should have been caught earlier.

Praying your surgery and recovery go perfectly smooth and that your BFP is just around the corner! You are such an amazing and inspirational woman- your strength throughout this entire journey is remarkable! Words cannot express how much I anticipate the day when I come on here and see your BFP post! Looking forward to great news from you in the upcoming weeks/months!

[Deleted]

I'm so glad you got some answers. ((Hugs))

[ginkgoleaf]

I'm sorry you have to have surgery, but I'm really hoping that this is the problem and once fixed, you'll be KU in no time!