jjwritergirl Booo on the counters. Sorry for the delay I think I can picture what you are desceibing.
My manager will call me and go "Oops, I forgot something." If she even thinks I've messed up on something, she always assumes I've made an error rather than ask. Often, I'll show her where that email/file/whatever was sent and who it's sent to and she goes, "OHH, ok. Cool." I've proven myself to you more than enough times to get the benefit of the doubt. She does this with our coming and goings as well. She'll tke a two hour lunch to return something to a retail store but give me "the look" when I had to leave 30 minutes early to get my car repaired. Ridiculous, considering how I usually get here early and leave late. AND instead of getting things ready for a meeting like she was supposed to, she's out getting her windows tinted..frantically calling me to cover. I can't.
((@moonbeam)) You are none of those awful things that your ex made you think you were. And re: your H carrying the burden, sometimes we take more from the marriage than we can give at that moment - no shame in that. I know we are not IRL friends, but we are here for you as best we can be. I'm sorry you are struggling.
@moonbeam SO many hugs and prayers your way. You are so special...I promise that! We're here for you when you need to talk. I know you said your DH is stressed....would he have a few minutes to just chat with you about how you feel this weekend? You are your feelings are VERY important.
jjwritergirl I'll have to look into phone counseling, I have no idea if my insurance or anyone in the network offers it. Having someone come to my house would only make my anxiety skyrocket. Having to clean? No thanks lol.
Post by Skyesthelimit1212 on Jan 15, 2015 13:38:36 GMT -5
Normally I wouldn't comment on personal posts because I don't know you all well enough, but I just have to say @stargazer, you are NOT any of those things that your ex said. He's a loser and you were strong enough to get away and you are a strong woman. I don't know your in-law situation, but if that's how they feel then that's their issue. Your relationship with your husband is what counts and how he makes you feel is what you need to focus on. I'm sending you hugs and good vibes your way.
Post by HoneySpider on Jan 15, 2015 13:55:23 GMT -5
((@moonbeam)) I'm so sorry you're struggling so much, I hope you find an outlet. We are always here if you need us and if you don't want to post personal things/thoughts on the board juts send a PM.
Ooh I have a silly FWP. My mom keeps buying us milk and dropping it off. Apparently she doesn't think almond milk is suitable nutrition. I love cow's milk and don't want it to go to waste so I use it on my cereal. But it makes my jawline break out so bad. Quit giving me acne, mom!
Post by estrellita on Jan 15, 2015 14:15:20 GMT -5
ewall lol, that's kinda funny that she doesn't think almond milk is sufficient. I drink soy milk all the time now (to avoid the sugars in regular milk) and in many ways it's actually healthier!
Post by Skyesthelimit1212 on Jan 15, 2015 14:29:00 GMT -5
Mine is a silly frustration. I hate that FB has changed what people can view on your page if they aren't on your friends list. I have everything set to private, but you can still see the pics I posted if they are in the FB Profile or Cover albums. Now I'm going through all of my public albums and deleting the pics. I know it stupid, but I'm feeling overly dramatic today.
Post by ginkgoleaf on Jan 15, 2015 14:29:32 GMT -5
@moonbeam, I'm so sorry you feel that way, but please know that you are none of those awful things your shithead ex called you. I think therapy would probably really help you get past some of the self-hate and move on to see that you're a great person.
my headache won't go away. DH turned off the server night before last so I can't watch Homeland. (total FWP) I signed up for a carseat tech course in February. I have to be approved by the instructor in order to register, and they haven't gotten back to me in almost 3 weeks since I sent my request! I just emailed again today.
Post by estrellita on Jan 15, 2015 15:44:43 GMT -5
I can't focus. The end of the day is so boring at work. I have things I can do, but it's so boring. I'm exhausted and have to keep finding excuses to get up and move so I don't fall asleep. I'm waiting for them to ask why I keep getting up, lol.
Post by HoneySpider on Jan 15, 2015 16:30:17 GMT -5
I drank too much soda at lunch/dinner. I went to the bathroom half an hour ago, sat down and set up my laptop, and now I have to go again. Which means packing up my laptop. (I am in a public space so can't just leave it)
I have a good one. So my mother saw a picture my brother posted on Facebook of he and his family eating somewhere at 12 noon on Sunday. She sent him a message with something to the effect of "it's apparent you didn't go to church today otherwise...you would have just gotten out!" (As a church goer myself, I wouldn't ever say something to anyone like this...) So being the brother that I know very well, he calls and chews her out. He then proceeds to tell her he's an Athiest now and goes on and on about it. I know him well enough to know he says things for shock value, but of course, she doesn't. So now, she's sending us all these Facebook memes on the importance of raising your kids in church. I'm not posting this to start a religious debate....I just wish she would not include me until DH and I are successful in our TTC efforts. Not only is it salt in wound...it's salt combined with a lime zest of family drama.
@stargazer I read your post earlier. You are definitely not any of those mean, cruel things they said. I'm sorry you are feeling down... But you can always come here and talk to us here. I like JJ's idea of an online/phone therapist. I hope your insurance has some of that coverage. I know your H loves you very much and would never consider you a burden! Huge hugs!!!!!!!!
Post by estrellita on Jan 15, 2015 18:12:13 GMT -5
MrsMB That's so annoying. I really dislike when people try to raise other people's kids. I mean, I could take a random comment or some "advice" here and there, but pushing it like that is ridiculous! She needs to let your brother raise his kids his way and same for you when you get there!
Post by estrellita on Jan 15, 2015 18:46:26 GMT -5
I'm not only frustrated that I feel like I can't eat anything, but also that it's obviously bothering H. He was going to make a pizza but I figured out the amount of carbs, and I can only have 2 slices. Although I don't usually eat the crusts on frozen pizzas, so maybe 3. Or just the 2 with something on the side (but what??). Anyways, he's getting all pissy and insisting he go to the store. I want to plan meals, not just go to the store when we "don't have food". His crabby attitude about it is really not helping the fact that I'm already completely frustrated that I feel like I can't eat anything. He has a tendency to get upset when I'm upset and it just spirals out of control. Ugh!!!
ETA: I just kinda blew up at H because he's not getting it. I'm so overwhelmed with frustrations right now and I'm hitting rock bottom. A lot of it is @ related, so I won't get into everything.. but I do have a history of depression and anxiety and it's all starting to come back. It scares me
My frustration: I was about to crawl out of my skin in frustration today at work. At lunch, everyone was just talking about their kids non-stop, as usual, but it seemed even worse today, or maybe I was just in a sensitive mood. I tried to steer the conversation away by bringing up the Oscar nomination lists, but of course that just was a cue for everyone to say that they have not seen a single non-children's movie since having their first child 7 years ago. Ugh, I really do care about these friends' kids and am happy to hear about them normally, but not necessarily about every trivial thing like what different kinds of yogurts they like best. I just want to have conversations about something else occasionally!
Post by wanderingenough on Jan 15, 2015 20:06:44 GMT -5
@moonbeam - I didn't see your post, but I'm sorry you are having a rough day. In regards to jj's post about online psychs, I was just at a conference and there was a booth for a company that did that. I saw two similar companies so I can't remember which it was, but it was either Doctor on Demand or MD Live. They gave me their whole diatribe about how their newest concept was psychology and psychiatry appointments via Skype. I think it was about $75 out of pocket, but that might be an option.
My frustration: CD1. I suppose I can't complain too much, since it's actually here finally.