Why, body...why?!

[oneslybookworm]

Finally, at CD 15, I got a + OPK. Never, in 24 cycles, have I gotten a +OPK this late in the cycle, and now DH will be gone tonight (Skiing), and I'll be gone all weekend.  We tried so hard to have good timing this month (for those who remember, I cancelled my RE appointment for this month, because I promised DH that we'd try a few more months naturally).  According to our timing, we now have one sort of viable day...O-4.  We would have had better timing, but of course I was sick yesterday, so that pitched that day down the tubes.

I've just become so jaded by this whole thing.  24 cycles...now it looks like 25.  I feel like we're never going to get pregnant, and even though I have no reason to think this, I've pretty much lost hope with medical intervention as well.  I just feel so incredibly dejected right now...

[ouokie]

I'm sorry sweetie! That is the worst. Lots of hugs to you!

[mandiespharm]

<<hugs>> I'm right there with you.

[MrsMB]

So many hugs right now!

[kellikans]

So many hugs. I hate how frustrating this process is.

[vanillahip]

So many hugs!!

[bcv513]

((hugs)) I'm so sorry.

[Deleted]

I'm sorry. That is so frustrating.

[EllenGriswold]

(( HUGS )) 

And I think I understand how you feel. There's this idea that trying for a baby and everything that goes with it should be this exciting, enjoyable time for couples, and instead this process has become so mentally and emotionally draining and I know I'm never going to actually enjoy TTC or being pregnant. Instead of being exciting, it's just this dreadful slog through the months.

My suggestion for the weekend - get really drunk and try not to think about it.

[awick14]

((Hugs))

[shauni27]

Oh dear. I am SO sorry and sending you SO many hugs.

I am sorry about the terrible timing, that just sucks.

I completely understand how you feel, dejected, depressed, scared and hopeless. Is there a reason you think IF treatments wont work? I have fear that they wont sometimes, but I also feel really hopeful about them as well. I go back and forth.

It is just so, so frustrating to continue to do everything right and nothing works for so long. And to be surrounded by people who are so easily pregnant. Each time I get my period or see another baby announcement I spiral into this depression.

I am doing a whole 30 challenge right now which I am finding is really helping me just focus on something else that I can actually control. Can you sign up for a half marathon or a challenge like this that might just help redirect some of your energy elsewhere?

HUGE hugs your way.

[raangoli]

I am so frustrated for you.  (hug2)

[callmehales]

ugh, i'm so so sorry. i know that hopeless feeling all too well, like if it hasn't come anywhere near working in so long naturally, why would some meds and more monitoring help at all? i SO wish i could just wave a wand and get you (and so many of us) a baby right away.

[Koala]

Hugs. I'm so sorry.

[Mushe]

So many hugs, OSB. It's really frustrating that only a few certain days each month even matter for TTC! It's really hard to be able to live your life, when you're working around this moving bullseye.

[belle55]

I'm sorry! What a mind fuck. I was in a similar situation this month where I got a positive OPK 3-4 days early and it really threw me for a loop too. That has never happened to me before, I've always been pretty consistent. TTC really is such a chore and there is nothing romantic or fun about it.

[oneslybookworm]

Thanks ladies...it just really sucks because we made SUCH a freaking effort to be on top of it this month (short...on top of it...teeheehee). And now, we're basically out this month, and it just sucks.

shauni27, I really have no reason to think that IF treatments won't work, other than the fact that there's no reason why we can't get pregnant without help. So if there's no reason for that to not work, why would this work? I don't know...it makes sense in my head...sigh.

[tiptoetulips]

I'm so sorry sometimes I wish I could have a dialogue with my ovaries and uterus c'mon guys get in the game!

[shauni27]

Jan 22, 2015 15:40:48 GMT -5 oneslybookworm said:

shauni27, I really have no reason to think that IF treatments won't work, other than the fact that there's no reason why we can't get pregnant without help. So if there's no reason for that to not work, why would this work? I don't know...it makes sense in my head...sigh.

No, I totally understand.  I feel the same way and have those same fears.  100%.  Like, we SHOULD be able to get pregnant naturally, there is nothing wrong, yet it's not working.  It is hard to think we will have any different luck with treatments.

I am trying to remain positive about all the stories I hear from people who were told "nothing is wrong" and they tried for years and then BAM! one round of clomid and they were pregnant, or one round of IVF and they were pregnant, etc.  I have heard a lot of these stories lately and they really help lift me up.

Hugs, huge hugs.

[aprilsails]

I'm sorry your timing got screwed up - I had two cycles with nasty head colds right before I O'd and both times it pushed back my O day.

However, those were the two cycles where I did get pregnant. Probably had something to do with all the cough medicine I was guzzling. I'm crossing my fingers for you.

[HoneySpider]

((oneslybookworm))

[mac08]

Hugs, that is SO frustrating!

[patches31709]

I hope no one minds me posting here, but I wanted to say that the cycle we got pregnant, I must have missed my +OPK. My prior cycle was 2 days longer than normal, but I guess I still ovulated when I would have if the cycle was a normal length. Anyway, my guess is I would have had a +OPK on a Friday....we had sex Sunday, Tuesday, and Thursday and after 12 cycles of trying, something finally worked.

Good luck!