Post by starrieskies on Jan 31, 2015 13:33:59 GMT -5
I'm still in bed. I should get up, but my bed is warm and cozy... I had one car load of people home from the bar last night by 10:30 and had to go back for one more. She, however, didn't want to leave. So we ended up staying until the bar closed.
I got < 3 hours sleep last night. This baby is crazy. She's lucky she's so sweet. She wakes up around 3am to eat and most nights will only go back to sleep next to me. The minute I try to put her in her bed she's wide awake.
In short, almost time for more coffee.
H is playing lacrosse all afternoon and was feeling guilty so he took A1 to the grocery store then cleaned the entire kitchen and folded a bunch of laundry. I got a ton done today so the apartment is looking nice.
We got tons of snacks for a football party tomorrow. Just us, and lots of cheese, and taco dip.
I had a moment yesterday evening that was a total flashback to trust issues with stbxh. Unfortunately I took it out on the Canadian, who I had no business bothering anyway because we're not dating. I know I offended him, I apologized, and now I'm using all that to focus on how to help heal myself. And hoping that it didn't completely kill the potential to try again in the future once we're both in healthier places. But mostly focusing on healing myself.
I had a moment yesterday evening that was a total flashback to trust issues with stbxh. Unfortunately I took it out on the Canadian, who I had no business bothering anyway because we're not dating. I know I offended him, I apologized, and now I'm using all that to focus on how to help heal myself. And hoping that it didn't completely kill the potential to try again in the future once we're both in healthier places. But mostly focusing on healing myself.
I had a moment yesterday evening that was a total flashback to trust issues with stbxh. Unfortunately I took it out on the Canadian, who I had no business bothering anyway because we're not dating. I know I offended him, I apologized, and now I'm using all that to focus on how to help heal myself. And hoping that it didn't completely kill the potential to try again in the future once we're both in healthier places. But mostly focusing on healing myself.
We've all been there. Go easy on yourself.
Thanks. I cried a little about it this morning and now I'm focusing on other things. Including books that can help and crochet projects because I need to make something other than a scarf, damnit.
I'm glad to "hear" you say this. How are you doing? How are you feeling?
I have been doing a lot of that type of "healing" this week. Even though it feels more like struggling to me!
And you still keep going. I'm sorry you've been having a rough week. Even the struggles help heal us in the end, huh? Thank you for reaching out to me when you're going through all of that still. I'm really impressed by you and how in touch with your feelings you are.
I have been doing a lot of that type of "healing" this week. Even though it feels more like struggling to me!
And you still keep going. I'm sorry you've been having a rough week. Even the struggles help heal us in the end, huh? Thank you for reaching out to me when you're going through all of that still. I'm really impressed by you and how in touch with your feelings you are.
I think so, at least that's what I try to cling to. I am sure I am making my share of mistakes!
And you still keep going. I'm sorry you've been having a rough week. Even the struggles help heal us in the end, huh? Thank you for reaching out to me when you're going through all of that still. I'm really impressed by you and how in touch with your feelings you are.
I think so, at least that's what I try to cling to. I am sure I am making my share of mistakes!
Aren't we all? You're doing your best. Love you lady!
That's right tiramisu. I'm glad you're feeling better about the situation.
Thanks. I'm feeling a little better, but still licking my wounds. I realized the real work is in trusting myself, not others. The trusting others will come from that I think.