Bad dream ***loss mentioned***

[jenbelle]

So i always have bad dreams/nightmares, but last night sucked, and I just really need to write this out to try and get rid of it.  I'm sure it has to do with the patient we lost yesterday at work. Warning:  it's kind of creepy, sad, and loss mentioned.



so there was a family staying at my parents house, and there was not enough room for everyone to sleep, so the two baby girls were sleeping in the bathroom in their car seats.  One of the babies (probably about 6 months) was sleeping with a cpap machine.  I turned on the light, forgetting they were in there, and I startled her so badly that she choked and started to pass away very quickly.  So I get her in my arms and scoop out whatever I can from her mouth and start CPR while yelling for help.  
For whatever reason, I knew we had canisters of oxygen in the house, so I'm yelling at my brother to get them, and where they are.  I still work on the baby as 911 shows up and pronounces her dead. 



DH woke me up because I was yelling so loudly about where the oxygen was. The whole day all I can feel is her little body in my arms as she died, and I can't stop crying.  
Thanks for reading, you all deserve this. :drink:

[lolaburns]

I'm so, so sorry you experienced that loss at work. Even in this dream your ability to care for people and perform under pressure shows through. You are an amazing person and I just want to give you a big hug.

[katfco]

I'm sorry. I've had vividly scary dreams that still feel real, even years later.

[racheliz]

I hate vivid dreams. I often have them and they are no fun. I'm sorry about your loss at work. it's been a while since I've had to deal with that directly, but a patient death would shake me up for a few days.
I hope you have pleasant dreams tonight!

[careyalis]

Those types of dreams are the worst. It's terrible when you can't really tell the difference between dream and reality. Hugs!

[lauranicole91]

I am so sorry! Bad dreams can really get to you when they are so vivid and detailed like that.

[imimahoney]

Ugh, I hate sad and realistic dreams. I'm sorry.

[christidee]

I'm so sorry. Dreams like that are frightening and can rattle you for days.

[carapol]

I'm so sorry about your loss at work.

Bad dreams suck. Hopefully you have a more restful night tonight. ((Hugs))

[kdrake8]

I'm so so sorry I hope you are able to shake this and your day turns around

[melmon0417]

Oh gosh. I am so, so sorry you had such an awful dream

[laurensmomma]

These are the worst. I think it shows how much you truly care about your patients, which makes you an amazing employee. I'm so sorry it happened, though. Both the dream, and the actual loss.