I don't like to ask for help. I've struggled off and on with depression for my whole life. It's been really bad since I had G. I had every intention of talking to my doctor about it but once I was in the office I did what I always do and said "I'm doing fine."
Truthfully my mom has been over 4-5 times a week helping. She has been doing my dishes, laundry, watching G, and just being there. DH has done anything and everything to help. I've had an amazing support system and couldn't ask for more. I'm so incredibly lucky. I have no idea how I would have survived the past 5 weeks without all the help.
Point of this post, today I just feel like me. I've been home alone with G and we have had a great day. I haven't been overwhelmed. I've been doing housework off and on all day and spent the past 3 hours in the kitchen which I LOVE. It feels so good to have my head above water.
Basically I just needed to get this out. I am always trying to hide this part of me and I just want to acknowledge having such a good day.
Post by estrellita on Mar 10, 2015 16:23:42 GMT -5
So many hugs! I know exactly how you feel. I've dealt with depression my whole life and things are pretty rough with a newborn. It's so tough when things don't go the way you expected, when baby is crying and you don't know why, when you haven't had a solid block of sleep in forever, when strangers judge your parenting, etc. I always knew it wasn't easy but I didn't expect things to be as hard as they are.
I'm glad you're feeling better today! Please don't hesitate to get help if it gets bad again. I do the exact same thing with playing it off as nothing. I cried to the pedi yesterday and probably should have asked while I was there, but didn't because I'm totally fine of course. No one should have to feel like this and I hope this is the start of many good days to come for you!
Hugs bk1. I've dealt with depression for years as well. It's definitely tough sometimes. I'm really glad you had a good day and that you have a strong support system! Mentioning how you feel to your doctor is intimidating, but so many people have depression that I'm sure he would be helpful and understanding, and it might be a relief to get that weight off your shoulders.
I'm sorry your going through this, but I'm glad today is a better day.
I've also struggled with depression in the last 2-3 years, it sucks. I know it's hard to ask for help when you need it, at the very least we are here if you need us.
I'm glad you're feeling better today and I really hope you call your doctor if you start having that crazy overwhelmed feeling again. Calling my doctor was the best decision I've ever made and I literally cried from the joy of feeling "normal" again. Huge ((hugs)). I'm here if you need to talk. I know you probably feel like a bad mom something but I promise you're not and its not something you have any control over.
Post by ginkgoleaf on Mar 10, 2015 18:13:34 GMT -5
Huge hugs, bk1. I've dealt with depression in the past and have been feeling it a bit lately too. Don't be scared to ask for help, the doctor or a therapist can help you feel better. I'm glad you had a good day and hope it's the beginning of an upward trend for you.
((Hugs)) I've dealt with depression for a long time. I finally talked to my doctor about it a few weeks ago and she put me on an antidepressant. It seems to help me some. Don't be embarrassed to talk to your doctor about it. They may be able to point you in a direction that will help you.
If you keep feeling depressed, though, please talk to your doctor. I've struggled with depression my whole life, and since Milo was born, it's been a lot worse. I kept thinking it would go away once he wasn't a newborn anymore, or once he started sleeping (which he still hasn't), or once we got into a routine...
Anyway, my point is that I keep putting it off, and now it's been almost 8 months and it's still awful. Don't be like me and waste months of your life feeling depressed when you can go to the doctor now!
Post by Skyesthelimit1212 on Mar 11, 2015 8:26:36 GMT -5
Out of all the words in any language, Help is the most difficult to say, I'm glad you were finally able to say it. We wouldn't be able to pick each other out in a crowd LOL, but I'm so happy you are on your way to feeling better and getting back to being yourself. Lots of good vibes and thoughts coming your way.....
I am glad you had a good day and are feeling more like yourself bk1. Please do talk to your doctor about it though if you don't continue to see an improvement! Depression is so common, and it sounds like there are quite a few people on this board who have experienced it as well, big hugs to all of you!