I'll admit, this week has been tougher than others. And I just broke down last night. DH came home to find me crying in bed. I told him I was scared. Today I'm 14dpo, supposed to start my period, and terrified that I'm going to. I know some of you ladies have been trying for a LOT longer than me, but I honestly don't know how much more heartache I can take, month after month. I don't want to spend a second consecutive Christmas without a baby when I should have had one.
Yesterday was the one year anniversary of my D&C. I work with young children and got the third degree from a 5 year old about why I didn't have kids. He couldn't comprehend that I didn't have kids, insisted that I can't have friends if I'm not a mom, and then proceeded to ask me, "You don't even have one in your stomach yet??" I know he was five and didn't know any better, but it was awful.
I took a test today. BFN. I'm not sure how much hope there is for this cycle. I just needed to get this out.
Thanks, everyone. Sometimes it can be overwhelming, but I also don't want to stop trying, y'know? I just never dreamed DH and I would have so much trouble...
callmehales, thanks. Ugh, I'm sorry, it really does suck, doesn't it? Especially when you see other people getting pregnant and having their babies during the time it's taken you to try. Especially when they're not even trying.
callmehales, thanks. Ugh, I'm sorry, it really does suck, doesn't it? Especially when you see other people getting pregnant and having their babies during the time it's taken you to try. Especially when they're not even trying.
callmehales, thanks. Ugh, I'm sorry, it really does suck, doesn't it? Especially when you see other people getting pregnant and having their babies during the time it's taken you to try. Especially when they're not even trying.
OR the ones who tried for like....3-4 months and think they know what IF is like.
Love of my life baby boy born 11/11. One and done not by choice; 3 years of TTC yielded 4 MMC and 2 CPs, through 4 IUIs and 2 IVFs. Focusing on making the world a better place instead...and running.
I am so, so sorry. I have been there, and was crying about it yesterday as well. Nothing helps 100%, but I found going to therapy has been great as has being put on antidepressants. I have been trying longer than you, but since last summer I was diagnosed with moderate depression because of my IF. In no way do I think this is for everyone, but I suggest it to anyone who feels sad more than they feel happy, it has made a huge difference for me. Instead of crying every day, I only cry about it once a month or so.
Huge hugs, I wish I could take aware the hopeless feelings.
Thanks, everyone. AF came around later last night so I'm out. No baby this year for me. Another Christmas with no baby when this should've been my baby's second Christmas. I hate pretending like everything's okay when I talk to people when really, it's not.
And to PP, I started therapy in October. It's helped, but it's still hard. People still are critical and tell me I have tons of time so not to stress about it which is so upsetting. I just don't feel very supported during this process, except by DH. I'm just really stressed.
Hugs mrsbunny. I have found mindfulness and meditation to be really helpful when I find myself thinking too much about the future. Hope you can find something that helps.
I am so sorry you are having a rough time. It is okay to be sad. Last weekend was hard on me and I cried a lot. Until that moment, I don't think I would have gotten so sad about it. One thing that has helped me has been running because I have control over it and can have a sense of accomplishment.