I am in the bathroom.. Totally blindsided. My mom (and sisters) knew we have been trying for two fucking years. And I k ow its not important but I am the oldest and I had wanted to have the first grand child and great grandchild.
Post by wanderingenough on May 20, 2015 19:15:57 GMT -5
I'm so sorry, grover. Take some time for yourself in private to process. Maybe declare you have to "run to the store" or something so you can take some deep breaths.
I'm upstairs. I excused myself while they were putting g dishes on the table. Went downstairs to eat AF we I had a few minutes to walk downstairs. Of course my Mom then goes "are you ok?". No mom I'm not ok.
I of course she asked after I put food in my mouth and almost choked. I'm now back upstairs in my old bedroom with a box of Kleenex while they all eat. Its my dads birthday so I'm not gonna cut out until he finishes. I'll go down when he's done and say my goodbye.
If I wasn't completely blindsided I could have been ok tonight. Or not come at all. But I didn't get the choice.
Post by luv2rn4fun on May 20, 2015 21:50:52 GMT -5
I'm so sorry grover. My heart is heavy for you right now and wish I could give you a ((hug)). That's very unfair and insensitive of your sister- she should have warned you or told you in private so you could process. Huge ((hugs)) and lots of prayers that you get your BFP soon.
She did tell me that she was more worried about telling me than my mom, which telling my mom anything is fucking scary. But if she thought that she should have fucking given me a heads up or had mom give me a heads up. I'm actually surprised my mom didn't BC she (usually) can't keep a fucking secret if her life depended on it.
And she's due just after Christmas... The last two fucking Christmases were god awful enough waiting for announcements from others and there were no surprise announcements. This is going to be worse if I'm not knocked up by then, isn't it?
I'm so sorry grover. My brother got married in Dec and every time I see him/his wife I am terrified that they will announce a pregnancy. They have been huge support for both DH and I so I hope if they are going to announce before we have a baby that they would do it in private. ((Hugs))
I am so so sorry. They should have been more considerate of your feelings.I hope you get a BFP super soon so that you can be pregnant with your sister instead of it being sad for you.
Oh grover that sucks... I know how upset you must be. She really should have told you before the dinner so you had time to process. And I totally understand the feelings of hurt and disappointment when someone else gets pregnant who you thought definitely wouldn't until after you did... I've Been there. Hugs!