First off, Buffalo is a lovely course. Im surprised its not more popular. Really pretty, fairly flat and gentle. Cool medal, which was given to me by a Buffalo Bill, lots of crowd support for a race of its size.
Second. Wtf is up with shitty fucking pacers?? If my goal pace is 8:47, why were we banging out 8:24s and 8:30s. Banking time is not good. Not good. I let them lose me after maybe 5 or 6 miles and i slowed down. I crossed the 13.1 marker at 1:55:13 or something, not bad pacing on my own for a 3:50 full. Even though my goal was really just to break 3:55 by as much as possible.
Then somewhere around mile 14, i mentally fell apart. Lifes been rough for al320 lately, and for some reason, i started to cry, couldnt breath and lost it. Ugly. And started to walk. I almost turned around and walked back to the half finish. I think that mile was like 11:28 or something. I dont even know. Some kid was giving out freezy ice pop things and i took one, ate it as i strolled through the park crying. Once i finished eating my green flavored icy thing, i decided to run. Which is hard when one is crying. But i tried. I decided id run, i didnt care how fast, and then at the next relay trnasition, id stop. Dnf. I didnt care.
So i ran slow, walked through the water stops, took a bunch of gatorade, some guy was giving out twizzlers. I ate 3 of those. At some point i decided i wanted the cool buffalo medal and that id finish. Plus, i didnt drive 6 fucking hours all the way to fucking buffalo to dnf. A shitty finish, sure, but not a dnf. That was around the time the 4 hour pacer passed me (note i started with the 350). I kept a pretty steady mid9s pace for a while. Walked when i had a small breakdown. At the end i just wanted to stop, so i tried to go faster, so i could be done faster. Mile 26 was the only mile in the second half of the race that was sub-9.
My time was like 4:04 or 4:03. I dnt even know or care.
I dont even hurt that much.
And with that, i might take a break frm running for a while.
Hugs to you on a tough race and congrats on sticking with it to the finish. That takes some amazing mental strength, and you showed that marathon who was boss today.
The fact that you kept going for 13 MILES after wanting to quit shows incredible strength. I know it wasn't the time you were hoping for, but take a few minutes to be proud of yourself for sticking it out.
Post by bostonmichelle on May 24, 2015 12:42:27 GMT -5
Hugs to you. I'm sorry it wasn't the race you wanted but you are amazing for pushing thru to the end. Congratulations on finishing! I hope you got yourself a good drink after. And I hope everything in your life works itself out soon.
Oh, A. *sigh* I feel you. I love your pragmatism. I love your determination. I think you're great, shitty race be damned. I hope you get back on track soon. *hugs*
Oh big hugs. Shitty races happen. Sorry life isn't good right now. There's always the next race. I mean you're doing like 10 marathons this year or something crazy like that
Post by fuckyourcouch on May 24, 2015 13:24:59 GMT -5
hugs. i'm so sorry it was rough for you, and i'm sorry for whatever life is throwing at you lately. truly though, you should be really proud of that time and for sticking it out when you were miserable for half the race. you did fantastic.
Post by pinkpeony6210 on May 24, 2015 13:27:11 GMT -5
Shitty races happen to the best of us...but you finished! And that's hard to do when you're not in it to win it mentally. You're awesome! Congrats and enjoy lots and lots of wine
Way to tough it out and finish al320. Racing is so mental, and when you're not in a good spot it can be downright impossible to find your rhythm. There will be more races to kick butt in, but sometimes a break is good too.
Last spring I had a disappointing marathon finish where I fell apart at the end, and I had to remind myself again that the marathon is a fickle beast. Sometimes she's got her claws out, but that also makes the strong marathons that much sweeter. Hugs; you know we love you.
ETA: Also -- that is still a very respectable marathon time. You are fast even on an off day!
Post by irene adler on May 24, 2015 14:08:40 GMT -5
Oh man, I've had races like that and it's terrible. You should be proud that you stuck it out and finished, even if you are't ready to be proud of that right now. Big hugs to you.
You ran 13 miles after you "quit." That is a huge testament to your toughness. Sounds like you are ready for a break. I hope your troubles are resolved soon.
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I feel you did amazing. You may have fallen apart, but it is SO easy to give up and say fuck it. You had your moment, you pushed yourself through it and banged out a time that was not too far off from your goal. Pat yourself on the back and give yourself the credit you deserve.
Post by archaeominx on May 24, 2015 18:09:13 GMT -5
I know it's not the outcome or time you wanted but to stick it out for 13 miles and still finish just a few minutes over 4 hours is badass. Be kind to yourself and I hope things get better!