I had a crazy weekend. I had a PPD breakdown and let it all out for my mom to see. She didn't know I was struggling so much. I felt relief from telling her.
So today DH put in for a vacation day and we are going to the zoo! We have free zoo passes to use before the end of the year. DH is worried about me so he wants to stay home an extra day and the zoo is something we both have been wanting to do. It's been a couple years since we went. So looking forward to a family day.
Sorry you are struggling bk1. I hope you feel better soon.
I had a pretty busy weekend, but I have a clerical day at school today so I have time to catch up on work. I am 99% sure we are booking a spring break trip to Harry Potter world this evening. I am so excited. We really should save the money, but I really need something to look forward to.
I don't work today so whyyyyyy am I up SO early. Dumb body....
Today I'm hoping to hear back from the job I interviewed for. I hope they call so I can get the ball moving on paperwork. I have loads of cleaning to do today as well. But I see a nap in my future
Hugs bk1 ppd Sucks. After my first one I had an absolute shit fit about toast. Like a legit breakdown tears and yelling about toast. I can look back and laugh now but seriously ppd is nothing to fuck with. I'm glad that you got your feelings out. Have fun at the zoo with your family.
*Hugs* bk1! I hope your day at the zoo helps you feel better!
I'm off today which is probably good because this drippy nose turned into a painful cough blah. Hopefully some rest will help!
Last night my anxiety was out of control. On our way back from the ILs (stopped there on our way back from my parents), we saw the aftermath of a pretty bad accident. We could see the flashing lights pretty far away because they were county roads, not a main highway, so it was dark. My guess is that someone didn't stop at the 4 way stop, but I have no idea. It was hard to tell what happened. Both cars were in the ditch but luckily didn't look completely smashed up. I've been looking for info to see if everyone was ok after that I kept thinking if we had left a little earlier, that could have been us and who knows what could have happened. Ugh!
suzv I am totally jealous of your HP trip. I've been to the first one but haven't been back since they put the expansion on. That's our next trip too, we just don't have concrete dates
suzv I am so jealous of your upcoming trip! I have been to the Harry potter park at islands of adventure, but that was before they opened up the other section and I so want to go back!!
i am home today and slept until 10, omg it was amazing. I want to relax a bit and catch up on my DVR, but then I have to do some laundry, cleaning, and grocery shopping.
Last week was ROUGH in our household, but we both ended up getting good news on job-related things so that was a nice boost. And I'm finally at peace with our daycare decision so I can move on and stop crying about it.
We raked leaves, cut grass, trimmed weeds over the weekend so our house no longer looks shabby. I cleaned and organized the entire 1st floor on Friday. I have a contractor coming to look at the garage and basement this morning.
I need to do some shopping. I have nothing to wear to SIL's wedding next weekend. I'm also out of foundation and blush.
Thank you for asking! The first day, I cried all day long. Ugh, it was horrible. The second day, I cried just in the morning. I think I would have been fine, except E woke up right before I left, so he was awake to see me leave him. I cried because I was thinking, "what if he thinks I'm not coming back?" But the nanny was giving me good updates, so that helped. And DH had a good Saturday with E, but yesterday not so much.
suzv we went last year. It was awesome. I even got to be "chosen by a wand" in Ollivanders wand shop.
DH and I got up semi early to do laundry. Then went to get a few groceries. He has to work tonight so I plan on a workout later then finishing the bottle of wine from last night. There's only maybe a glass and a half left so I don't feel bad drinking it on a work night.
Post by luv2rn4fun on Oct 12, 2015 15:46:25 GMT -5
((hugs)) bk1. PPD/PPA sucks. I hope you are having a great day at the zoo and things start looking up soon! I'm glad you were able to open up to your mom (regardless of how it came about)...hopefully she'll be a source of help as you navigate through this.
((estrellita)) That would be really scary to witness. Hope you conquer your cold soon too!
ewall- I'm impressed with how much you got done this weekend! Way to go!
pooh8402- I'm glad things are starting to get easier as you transition back to work! Prayers that things continue to go smooth with E and nanny/DH!
Not much going on here today. It's the hottest day of the week...went for a couple walks so far, played with C, finally took a shower, dinner is in the crockpot...now we are just in wait for DH to get home mode and will enjoy dinner together and relaxing after C is in bed.
Another house update...emailed my uncle about being uncomfortable using him moving forward (after having two conversations about this already). He just doesn't get it and won't back down/take "no" for an answer. It's so annoying and is causing me way more stress (I hate confrontation and am such a people pleaser). He wants DH and I to take a break these next couple days and we'll talk on Weds...apparently there's a lot to talk about (according to him...we really don't have anything else to say). Ugh...this is why business and family is never a good idea (I didn't want to do this but DH wanted to give him a chance)!
Post by estrellita on Oct 12, 2015 16:13:59 GMT -5
bk1 I can absolutely understand your fear of meds after that. It's so scary how medication that's supposed to help you can make things even worse. I stopped taking my meds because my panic attacks started increasing, although they are still there without the meds now. I've had a hard time reaching out for help again because I feel like doctors don't care enough to really help, they just throw a new med at you and shove you out the door. I don't have the money/time for counseling and I do have an EAP through my work, but talking on the phone gives me anxiety so I haven't called to get more info and there isn't much info online. Anyways, my point in saying all of this is that it's not easy but you are very much not alone. It sucks to feel horrible when you "should" be happy. Is there another counselor at the same office you could see and maybe "screen" beforehand to make sure there is no conflict?
Post by estrellita on Oct 12, 2015 17:12:21 GMT -5
I found an article about the accident. Sounds like everyone is ok, one person "seriously" injured but alive. So happy to hear that. There was a 1 year old in the car though. So scary and doesn't help my anxiety about it, but I'm very happy they were all ok. I was also right, someone ran the stop sign. A good reminder to be super careful, especially on roads like that. The guy that ran it isn't from around here so it was probably an unfamiliar road, plus it was dark. It kinda makes me wonder if we should move E's car seat to the middle of the car. I know that's the safest place but it's a bit of a pain to get the car seat in there. But if it means he's safer, it's worth it.
I don't want to go back to work tomorrow. The four day weekend was both busy and relaxing at the same time. The next "long" break isn't until the last week of November which feels forever away.