When it's time to say goodbye.

[formerlysmo]

Well, this isn’t a fun post. This isn’t a happy post. This is a Molotov cocktail of shitty ass feelings post.

Yesterday, I received a package that was a tiny unassuming box. The box was sent to old information, but made its way to me. The box contained the feigned humor of gummy candy penises.

Someone violated me, my privacy, my humanity, and my presence and attachment to this community. They sent me a bag of dicks. They took the time to search my information out, pay the $19.99+tax to send me a very important message. Typing out these words and the reality that I received this package of course comes with the consequences of feeling embarrassment, shame, pain, rage, being completely creeped the fuck out, etc.

I don’t know who sent them. I know that they came after a largely public board post where I called out someone for being an obsessive and offensive poster. I will repeat, I do not know who sent them. I can make assumptions, I can do that all damn day. The box was sent anonymously. So, whomever did this can sit behind their screen with their fans and friends and snigger about the prank they pulled on Smo. I know everyone didn’t like me. That was never my goal. If you’re reading this, and you’ve taken even the smallest amount of joy from this severe violation of my privacy and my relationship with this community, you aren’t shit. Since you probably didn’t like me to begin with, my words here probably won’t matter much.

Nonetheless, I did feel a significant connection and have had some amazing experiences with the strong and confident and richly hearted women on this board. Despite the goodness in this community, there are posters of the opposite standard. The shallow, cruel, ignorant, foul, backstabbing, small, pathetic posters.

Whoever you are, you’re a trifling piece of shit who has no guts and no gauge of how to be a decent human being. I don’t wish this on anyone, not even the sender. If you’re this horrible as a person, my bag of gummy dicks is the least of your failings.

Many of you will probably have noticed that I’m scaling down my friend’s list on Facebook. Please do not take this personally, but as a consequence of all the feelings that go into having someone take this so far. I still appreciate many of you and care for many of you. I just am not here to feel unsafe in a place that I should find escape, friendship, and other positive reinforcements.
It’s been real.

At this point, too real. Thanks for the good memories.

[Aquatica]

I'm so sorry this has happened to you.

[zelda25]

Holy shit, smo; I don't even know what to say. I won't ask you to stay (even though I want to) because I understand and respect why you need to. But, fuck.

[imobviouslystaying]

Where the hell was this damned thing postmarked from?

[pedanticwench]

I wish you all the best, I would do the same. Thank you for even letting us know about this.

[MrsAxilla]

Jesus, smo, that is terrible. And scary, and violating and so so far over the line. The person who did that should be rooted out and tossed from our community. I love you and have always valued your contributions. Please know that you WILL be missed very much. I hope you still drop in from time to time. :::hugs:::

[niemand88f]

I'm so sorry and angry that someone did this, how horrible  . I've appreciated your contributions to CEP & makeup discussions even though I'm not around much.

[ESF]

Oh my goodness.

I am so sorry. Please take care of yourself. Your endlessly happy energy will be deeply missed.

[NitaX]

It's more than terrible and white hot mad for you.

Someone on GBCN ain't shit and is a fucking coward because they didn't have the gumption to air their issues with you privately vs. being a low down piece of Shit and sending something to you in person.

I would hope whoever did this would grow a set and fess up so you can be duly blasted in the appropriate manner.

All I can think is that whoever it is has a problem with folks not standing for their Shit and getting called to the carpet for asshole behavior.

But know this, I'm not standing for this Shit right here. Whoever it is - own your petty, mean ass behavior.

[pinkeggs]

Jesus Christ. I'm so sorry that happened. Fuck that person. I know we didn't directly interact much, but I have always enjoyed and appreciated your posts. You will be missed.

[gretchenindisguise]

I am so angry this happened to you. And just gobsmacked.

I have always respected you and I hope you do well.

[Deleted]

This is beyond disgusting. The person who did it is a shitbag.

I'm sorry this happened to you Smo. I would do the same in your situation.

[kevin arnold]

Jan 30, 2016 11:32:45 GMT -5 formerlysmo said:

Whoever you are, you’re a trifling piece of shit who has no guts and no gauge of how to be a decent human being
.

I agree with this.

I'm so sorry smo. You will be missed.

[sparrowsong]

What? I'm not really the most involved person on this board, far from it, but you've always seemed like one of the kindest and most admirable members. I would never have thought you'd be a target of bullying behavior like that! People really suck. I'm sorry you've been violated and hurt.

[NitaX]

Jan 30, 2016 11:47:10 GMT -5 @bunnybean said:

That is truly awful. I'm so sorry, and you don't deserve that. It's really disgusting to learn that so many people don't ever mature or grow out of bullshit childishness. FOr an adult to do this is truly disturbing.

It's no Damn adult. It's a feebleminded simpleton. It's a petty ass bitch. That's who it is.

[NitaX]

And if y'all can't tell, yes I'm pissed clean the Fuck off because I don't take kindly to people messing with my FRIENDS. Smo is my friend and I am non-too-pleased that she has been hurt like this.

[meshaliuknits]

OMG! I'm sorry someone did that. I understand why you've gotta do what you've gotta do. I hope the person who did this is eventually outed and shunned because this behavior should not be condoned or tolerated.

I'll miss you.

[mominatrix]

Shit. That's terrible.
I'm pissed because I like you so much and want you to stay.

[y4m]

I am so sorry that this happened and if there's any way we can be of assistance in finding out who did this, we will be.

Can the gummy company sender provide an IP address for the person making the order that we can use for matching? With police involvement that might be possible...?

We will not tolerate people taking things from this board into people's real world (jobs, addresses, names, etc) without their consent. It's rule number 1 of GBCN.

I'm appalled.

[mominatrix]

Jan 30, 2016 11:54:00 GMT -5 @koko said:

If I ever find out who did this is will make it my personal mission to get them shunned the fuck off these boards forever and ever amen. Motherfuckers want to talk about crazy, you have seen nothing to the crazy I can bring. I am so fucking pissed. We are losing an invaluable member of this community because somebody ain't fucking shit.

I'd join you in the shunning. And personal mission.

[NitaX]

Jan 30, 2016 11:54:00 GMT -5 @koko said:

If I ever find out who did this is will make it my personal mission to get them shunned the fuck off these boards forever and ever amen. Motherfuckers want to talk about crazy, you have seen nothing to the crazy I can bring. I am so fucking pissed. We are losing an invaluable member of this community because somebody ain't fucking shit.

I am here.

[EnchantedSoul]

That was absolutely reprehensible behavior. I'm sorry that you were violated in such a manner. I'm sorry to see you go but completely understand. And I'm with NitaX whoever did it ain't shit.

[laurenpetro]

Smo, I am so sorry. That fucking poster can go fuck right off.

[MrsAxilla]

Jan 30, 2016 11:55:22 GMT -5 y4m said:

I am so sorry that this happened and if there's any way we can be of assistance in finding out who did this, we will be.

Can the gummy company sender provide an IP address for the person making the order that we can use for matching? With police involvement that might be possible...?

We will not tolerate people taking things from this board into people's real world (jobs, addresses, names, etc) without their consent. It's rule number 1 of GBCN.

I'm appalled.

Thank you for this.  I hope formerlysmo has info that will help track this person. 

[ECB]

Wow. I'm sorry. While we joke that this isn't a safe place (because it isn't), this is just going way too far and such a spotlight on the fact that this REALLY isn't a safe place.

I'm sorry to see you go.

[sfy]

Jan 30, 2016 11:55:22 GMT -5 y4m said:

I am so sorry that this happened and if there's any way we can be of assistance in finding out who did this, we will be.

Can the gummy company sender provide an IP address for the person making the order that we can use for matching? With police involvement that might be possible...?

We will not tolerate people taking things from this board into people's real world (jobs, addresses, names, etc) without their consent. It's rule number 1 of GBCN.

I'm appalled.

This would be excellent. I hope that you will ask smo and that they will provide it, so this person can be banned and then you will stay with us.

[bimbi284]

What the fuck??? Like I seriously have nothing else to say other than that person is a child who needs to seriously evaluate their life.

Sorry Smo, you don't deserve such bullshit

ETA: ok I lied, I could say a whole lot more cuz the expletives floating around my head right now are numerous. Basically ditto all PPs.

[earlgreyhot]

I'm really sorry. That's amazingly childish and stupid and...yeah, all of it.

[eclaires]

This honestly is so fucking horrible. I'm angry and I want to cry that this happened to someone who is one of the nicest, most genuine and truly helpful posters here. You're a wonderful person who contributes so much to this forum, and I am both furious and devastated this happened.

Fuck the asshole who did this.

[heyjude]

WTF?!

Who would do this to you?! You are like the nicest person here!

Can you report this to the police as harassment?