I hate being an emotional girl

[isabel]

I am so fucking irritated with myself. Thank God my boss works out of state because I definitely would have cried in front of him if we had been talking in person instead of on the phone.

I'm working on resumes for a bunch of people and none of them fucking know when they worked on certain projects, nor are they providing me with the information I need, despite asking for it directly. It's just really fucking frustrating to me that we don't have any sort of database to keep track of this information. It's trending in the right direction, but we're nowhere near there yet.

So, I'm already so frustrated about this stuff and working on a deadline despite not having any of the information I need and my boss calls me to talk about something unrelated, but equally frustrating. Yet another thing where we ought to have a database of projects and relevant information/photos and we just don't. I have to go to a minimum of four different places to find all the information I need on one damn project. And he's telling me I can keep doing it the way I've been doing it, but that he doesn't recommend it. I finally got through to him that I don't want to do it my way just because. I'm doing it that way so that I have all the information in one place when I need it 5 years from now.

I was getting all fucking choked up on the phone because I feel like crying because I am so fucking frustrated with how much effort it takes to do the simplest damn things! WHY DO WOMEN CRY ABOUT STUPID SHIT!?!?! Seriously, I wish I was a guy sometimes so that I could moderate my emotions better. I didn't actually cry and my boss was very complimentary of everything I'm doing. He also told me to 'chin up and smile' before we hung up. I know he gets it. I just wish I wasn't such an emotional mess about all of this and I really hate feeling weak by showing that side of me.

Ok. I'm done. Sorry all of that is semi-vague. I just needed to get it out.

[1confused1]

Hugs! I cried at work not too long ago, I was mortified, but I couldn't stop it.

[jigsy]

Ok.

Crying isn't a bad thing.

I can't say more without sounding like an ass.

[isabel]

Feb 24, 2016 16:35:25 GMT -5 jenny1980 said:

Feb 24, 2016 16:33:01 GMT -5 isabel said:

I am so fucking irritated with myself. Thank God my boss works out of state because I definitely would have cried in front of him if we had been talking in person instead of on the phone.

I'm working on resumes for a bunch of people and none of them fucking know when they worked on certain projects, nor are they providing me with the information I need, despite asking for it directly. It's just really fucking frustrating to me that we don't have any sort of database to keep track of this information. It's trending in the right direction, but we're nowhere near there yet.

So, I'm already so frustrated about this stuff and working on a deadline despite not having any of the information I need and my boss calls me to talk about something unrelated, but equally frustrating. Yet another thing where we ought to have a database of projects and relevant information/photos and we just don't. I have to go to a minimum of four different places to find all the information I need on one damn project. And he's telling me I can keep doing it the way I've been doing it, but that he doesn't recommend it. I finally got through to him that I don't want to do it my way just because. I'm doing it that way so that I have all the information in one place when I need it 5 years from now.

I was getting all fucking choked up on the phone because I feel like crying because I am so fucking frustrated with how much effort it takes to do the simplest damn things! WHY DO WOMEN CRY ABOUT STUPID SHIT!?!?! Seriously, I wish I was a guy sometimes so that I could moderate my emotions better. I didn't actually cry and my boss was very complimentary of everything I'm doing. He also told me to 'chin up and smile' before we hung up. I know he gets it. I just wish I wasn't such an emotional mess about all of this and I really hate feeling weak by showing that side of me.

Ok. I'm done. Sorry all of that is semi-vague. I just needed to get it out.

Fine. Sorry. Why do I cry about stupid shit. I assume that's the part you're gif'ing me about.

[isabel]

Feb 24, 2016 16:35:50 GMT -5 jigsy said:

Ok.

Crying isn't a bad thing.

I can't say more without sounding like an ass.

You may as well go ahead. Sounds like I need to hear it.

[anlo]

Feb 24, 2016 16:38:43 GMT -5 mp said:

I cry as a reaction to almost any emotion. Mad, sad, hurt, frustrated, happy.

I don't think the answer is to wish I was a man, but rather that society comes to understand that women's emotions are not a weakness just because they're different from a man's. Fuck the patriarchy, man.

Yes. I cry as a result of all emotions.

I'm sorry you had a bad day.

[BaliHai]

This is not a woman thing, it's an overwhelmed thing. I'm sorry you're feeling this way.

[atlas]

My stress manifests as crying. It sucks soooooo much at the workplace. And otherwise I come across as a very non-crying type person, so when I cry the first time around people they act like I just killed someone.

Sorry that you're stressed and frustrated.

[isabel]

Feb 24, 2016 16:38:43 GMT -5 mp said:

I cry as a reaction to almost any emotion. Mad, sad, hurt, frustrated, happy.

I don't think the answer is to wish I was a man, but rather that society comes to understand that women's emotions are not a weakness just because they're different from a man's. Fuck the patriarchy, man.

You're right. But I work in a very male-dominated field and it's really hard to find that place. I don't want to be judged for being emotional and I try very hard not to let things get to me when I'm at work. It all just kind of came to a head today.

I'm sorry for any implication I made. I know women are not weak and that crying doesn't make us so.

[aussiecrush]

I'm sorry you're having a tough day but being emotional isn't a negative. It takes all kinds of people to make the world go 'round.

[jinkies]

I'm sorry. I'm a crier and I hate it. My boss was a huge ass to me a few weeks ago. I handled myself fine in the moment. But then the next day she tried to be nice to me and apologized and I just started sobbing and couldn't stop. It was completely out of proportion to the situation and I was mortified. I am trying to block the experience from my memory because I want to crawl in a hole when I think about it.

[cbwm1]

I cried last week at work when my boss was being an epic dick. Whatever. I am an emotional person and I wear my heart on my sleeve. It's who I am and I give no shits.

[Tacocat]

I think it's ok to cry sometimes. Earlier this week, I was venting to my boss in her office and started crying. I trust her, and she understood why I was so frustrated. I actually felt better afterwards. 

[berbles]

[isabel]

I'm sorry, jinkies. It's such a sucky feeling.

berbles, thanks for the laugh!

[frkls]

"chin up and smile" makes me want to cry now. i'm sorry you're stressed out. it sounds like you're the first one who has had your position who is smart enough to plan for the next time you have to do this project!