Post by rightawaynow on Sept 29, 2016 8:02:58 GMT -5
Has been in hospice for 26 days, I can't remember the last time I've eaten or slept and I've lost 13lbs. I am barely functioning, but trying really hard to keep it together for him and my mom and my son. My father is the only male role model my son has and they adore each other. It's killing me that my son probably won't remember him. My dad had my mom call me last night and tell me I needed to bring my son today to carve pumpkins. It was something we always did the day before Halloween, but I've taken the day off work and we are going. I have a feeling he is saying his goodbyes, but no matter how badly I want his suffering to end I'm not ready to lose my dad, I'm never going to be ready. Pray for me today please, strength for me, peace for him and that in the back of his mind my son remembers something of this amazing man.
Post by caddywompus on Sept 29, 2016 8:10:08 GMT -5
I'm so sorry. {{hugs}} Please take all the time you can to spend with your dad, and don't feel guilty about it. I lost my dad very suddenly a few years ago, and I would give anything to have some more time with him.
Post by pegasuskat on Sept 29, 2016 8:10:40 GMT -5
I'm so sorry. Praying for you to have a peaceful happy day with him today. Your son will remember him because you will talk about him, show pictures and do things to keep his memory alive. My kids love to watch old videos with my dad in them, if you can take one today.
Oh rightawaynow , I am so sorry. Losing a parent is so difficult. I know you don't want to leave his side and I don't blame you. Im not trying to pry, I, just wondering if he is in the hospital and if you can ask one of the nurses for possibly a grief therapist or someone in that field you can talk to? I am sure taking care of yourself is the last thing on your mind with taking care of your son also. I am so very sorry you are going through this.
We are doing in home hospice and they are amazing people. I have so many friends that are helping, I don't lack support, but no one else can carry the pain for me.
Post by CrazyLucky on Sept 29, 2016 8:41:02 GMT -5
I'm sorry for what you are going through and I've said a prayer for you and your entire family. How old is your DS? Sometimes kids are amazing in what they remember.