Post by thedahliharpa on Oct 3, 2016 23:51:12 GMT -5
We're here, all the time, when you need to talk. I think the "after" feelings you have described sound completely reasonable. I hope the media stuff fizzles out soon and that going back to work can help give you a few hours of distraction each day. Please continue to lean on your support resources. ((Hugs))
We are always here for you! I hope you can find your groove quickly and that the media stuff goes away. I'm sorry you had to deal with that and the photos in the middle of mourning. We love you!
I have been thinking about you a lot. I had a friend widowed when she had a three week old. I was always amazed at her strength in the time that followed, and it seems like you are on the same path. Which doesn't mean it's not ok to cry, of course it is. I pray for your strength and peace.
I have been wondering how the past few days have been for you since the service on Saturday. I'm glad to hear you're still surrounded by family and I'm sure it was truly moving to see just how many people came to pay their respects. I admire you for putting one foot in front of the other. Your grace through all this is uncanny, but I hope you continue to take your time and feel all the feelings on your terms- take your gosh darned sweet time. And more than anything, I hope you continue to come here to share/ vent/ whatever you need at any given moment. Whatever you need, say the word. Sending you and your boys all the love in the world.
Post by onehitwonder on Oct 4, 2016 3:38:37 GMT -5
I am glad that the hurricane has spared you after you have endured so much over the last 2 weeks. You have been so strong through all of this and you can cry, vent and scream as much as you need to and this community will continue to listen and send you light, love and strength.
Keep talking. Talk as much as you need! You are making it through day by day and your boys are right there with you. And we are right there with you too.
I wanted to ask how about how you were doing with your eyes. Were you able to finish the treatment?
Emerson Kate, born 38w5d on 4/6/12 at 6:02 p.m., 5 lbs 13 oz and 18 3/4 inches. Lucas Matthew, born 39w5d on 4/11/14 at 8:20 a.m., 7 lbs 4 oz and 20 inches.
Please talk. We're here for you at any hour, every day. You're doing such an amazing job helping the boys process this. Please allow yourself the space to do the same, and lean on us whenever you can.
I'm so glad your eyes are improving and hope today's checkup goes well. So many hugs.
Post by TrudyCampbell on Oct 4, 2016 7:01:41 GMT -5
I'm so glad the hurricane didn't hit your area, I was just reading it's a pretty bad hurricane and was worrying about you.
Please, lean on us and talk to us, we are here with you every step of the way. You're being so strong and amazing for those two beautiful sons, but you don't need to be strong for us, we are here to listen.
Thank you for checking in with us. I've been thinking about you a lot. I'm glad the storm passed you guys, but I can totally understand wanting the rain, feeling like the world should be crying with you. I'll echo everyone else that we're here for you along ever step of this oh so shitty process.
Talk all you want to. There are so many of us here that someone is always around to listen.
Every one else's life is starting to go back to normal and yours is still missing Paul. That is a hard lonely place to be. I'm so sorry and wish I could spare you this pain. Please lean on all of us as much as you need to.
I'm happy to hear that your optic neuritis has almost cleared up. I hope the side effects of steroids haven't been too bad. I'll send extra positive thoughts that today's follow up is good.
Can you get a massage or facial or something that allows you a little bit of quiet time before going back to work?
I'm glad you didn't get hit by the hurricane, that's the last thing you need right now.
It makes sense that once all the "stuff" was over with, the emptiness would hit. Because now is the time where others will begin to go back to their lives and sort of "forget" and you can't forget because this IS your life, it isn't just something on the edges competing with the rest of your life things. Everybody else can return to normal but you have to adjust to a whole new normal, a life that has been turned upside down.
Anyway, I just want to say that I wish so much that this hadn't happened to you. I hope the coming days, weeks, months are kind to you, as kind as they can be given the circumstances. And as always reach out if you need anything. So much love to you.
Keep talking. Talk as much as you need! You are making it through day by day and your boys are right there with you. And we are right there with you too.
I wanted to ask how about how you were doing with your eyes. Were you able to finish the treatment?
I went back for the last two IVs after this happened so those are now done. I'm still in steroids and am due for my final check up today. It feels like it is about 95% now - colours are still a bit off but otherwise it's ok.
I'm glad the IV treatment is complete and hope you get good news at the final checkup today. 95% is good! I hope color goes back to normal for you soon. That must be odd. Please keep us updated.
Post by browneyedhunni85 on Oct 4, 2016 8:36:11 GMT -5
I think of you often. We are here for you and love you and the boys so much. I hope work can be a distraction for you. I'm amazed at your strength and grace.
Please lean on us. This is completely not the same, so I don't want you to feel like I'm saying it is, but when we lost Austin, I just wanted to leave the hospital, be able to stop making difficult decisions, etc, but when I finally did get home - it was worse. Because it was lonely, quiet, and not how it should be. I get it. You think after all the decisions, services, etc, it will be better but it's not because he's still gone.
Keep putting one foot in front of the other. You are doing amazing. You will help the boys get through this, and they will help you get through this. I'm glad you are trying to shelter them from the media and you have every right to go off on someone if they don't listen to your wishes. We are here to listen anytime you need to talk, scream, cry, whatever you need - we are here. We love you and the boys so much!