I am quite frankly just waiting for this pregnancy to fail like the last one. I am reading into every little symptom far too much.
No symptoms when we found out we were pregnant. Betas looked great and I am now nearly 7 weeks.
Between beta and today I have hold mild queasiness, serious headaches, and some breast tenderness. I still don't feel great but my breast pain has totally gone away. I mean, since Friday I think I could legit use my boobs as a punching bag and no pain.
I am just so sad already. I hate this feeling, this waiting game. My Rae knows how anxious I am and knows I have experienced a loss before, but won't do another blood test or move up the ultrasound. My next appointment is the 15th. I hate thinking that the baby stopped growing and I have two weeks of waiting to confirm.
Also I'm admittedly nuts after our loss, but we made an appointment at an elective ultrasound place to calm us down. Is that an option for you? Might be too early, but worth a shot if you can find one.
Also I'm admittedly nuts after our loss, but we made an appointment at an elective ultrasound place to calm us down. Is that an option for you? Might be too early, but worth a shot if you can find one.
Too rural around here for that. It is the hospital or nothing :/
Hugs. The only advice is don't do what I did- I saved my last digital for when I was feeling similar, and got an invalid response. H and I are too cheap (ie financially tight) right now, and couldn't justify the cost of more, so I was in even worse limbo to my appointment.
I might also consider looking into weather your OB is more willing to squeeze in anxious patients. I was lucky that my RE's standard was a u/s middle of week 5, then again at week 6 and week 7 (week 7 she gave me the choice of going or not, which I gladly accepted). While my OB wouldn't give me the 8-10 week u/s they normally do (because "normal" patients haven't already had 3 u/s by that point) they do let me call up and say, "hey, I'm anxious today, please squeeze me in for a doppler". I have done that once, and I know I can do it again if needed. I considered calling tomorrow for it, because while I'm feeling baby occasionally it feels like not as often as it was the week before last, but my next appointment is a week from tomorrow, and then I'll have 4-5 weeks til the next appointment after, and that seems even longer to me.
I'm sorry Shauni. First tri is its own mind game without the loss history, so I can only imagine how you are feeling. The longest part of my entire pregnancy was the 3 weeks between my last beta and my first u/s. I hope you can find some things to focus on and pass the time faster these next 2 weeks. ((Hugs friend))
Post by cherryvalance on Dec 4, 2016 13:46:23 GMT -5
shauni27, I'm so sorry you have to wait so long. I agree that it's really cruel making you wait when they know your history.
I hear you on the symptoms. I'm pretty convinced that I'm imagining any queasiness I feel and the couple of times I've thrown up is psychosomatic. I'm literally dreading tomorrow, especially since I have parent-teacher conferences from 1:30-9, so I'll either be relieved or bursting into tears during meetings.
I'm really sorry, Shauni. PGAL 1st tri a terrible time. My boob pain came and went, too, but I was "lucky" in that I had debilitating morning sickness, plus a history of ectopic meant I got a scan at 5 and 7 weeks. Is there an early pregnancy assessment unit attached to your hospital? I wouldn't normally advocate bending the truth, but if you went in and said you'd had bleeding or pain, they would have to do a transvaginal u/s. Although I don't know if you have to pay for that sort of thing in the US.
I wish I could promise you that everything will be okay, but I will say that every pregnancy truly is different and I'm hoping with all my heart that yours is different in a good way.
Post by thoseareradishes on Dec 4, 2016 14:16:46 GMT -5
I'm still a nervous wreck and I'll be 12 weeks tomorrow, so I'm no help there. I also haven't had many symptoms - no morning sickness, boobs don't hurt much, tired but not completely exhausted most nights- but baby is growing right on track so far.
I hope the next two weeks go quickly for you ((hugs)).
Hugs, Shauni. I hate that they're making you wait so long
My boob tenderness also came and went, and I had no other symptoms in 1st tri aside from being tired. I hope the 15th comes quickly, and that there are 1-2 healthy little babies ready to reassure you <3
I didn't have any symptoms until 7-8 weeks I think? And then it was just the nausea (no vomiting).
GL, We all understand how hard 1st tri is. Each week or day that went by I would just tell myself that TODAY I am pregnant and am farther along than I was before.
ugh. All symptoms totally gone today, but I have really severe cramping that I have not had for the last 3 weeks. I called the clinic and they said they could move us up to an Ultrasound on Monday next week. They told me not to read into symptoms yet, and if I start spotting to let them know ASAP. Otherwise they are not "as concerned." I, of course, want them to say they are not concerned at all.
I have a cold that walloped me in the ass today and I am so tired. I think since I did most of my crying over the weekend and I am just under the assumption that we are miscarrying so I am focusing on the cold for now :/
Checking in with another anecdote as I had no morning sickness, boobs hurt at the beginning then subsided and I wasn't insanely tired. It totaly messes with you when you expect to have reassurance from the typical pregnancy symptoms and then you don't. I hope the days pass quickly for you until your U/S.
((shauni27)) 1st tri so hard after a loss and tttc. I'm glad they moved your appointment up for you. I know next Monday is still far away but not as far as before.
I know it's hard but try not to focus on the lack of symptoms right now. I have multiple friends have kids and not have any symptoms at all. My boobs hurt only on my losses, I've had no boob pain at all this pregnancy. Each one has been so different.
Post by cactuscookie on Dec 5, 2016 23:33:34 GMT -5
Ugh, Monday is still so long to wait. So many hugs.
I could add my own anecdote about symptoms, but you already know, intellectually, that symptoms or the lack of them don't mean anything. I know it's still hard to convince your heart.
Remember that if you need somewhere to talk and vent and get more hair pats, everyone here understands and will support you.
I've been thinking about you. I hope the cramping is easing up. You said you are really tired, and exhaustion was really my biggest/only symptom. Early pregnancy is so hard. I have no idea why some of my pregnancies ended and some didn't. It's like there's no rhyme or reason. I don't know how to get through those first weeks/months except by brute force. There was certainly none of that joy you hear about. H and I didn't talk about it, it's like we were trying to pretend it didn't exist. It was just live one day at a time and eventually ultrasound day will be here. I hope you're doing ok today. Hugs.
I was thinking of you a lot today shauni27 , hope you're hanging in there.
Nothing to report on. Zero PG symptoms, maybe a little breast tenderness but that's it. Just going with the assumption that the baby stopped growing until proven otherwise (and yet treating my body like it is still PG, which is a pain in the ass when this depressed and also sick. The cold has struck our home and I want dayquil haha)
I was thinking of you a lot today shauni27 , hope you're hanging in there.
Nothing to report on. Zero PG symptoms, maybe a little breast tenderness but that's it. Just going with the assumption that the baby stopped growing until proven otherwise (and yet treating my body like it is still PG, which is a pain in the ass when this depressed and also sick. The cold has struck our home and I want dayquil haha)
I'll stay positive for you. Because I know telling you to do it is dumb because it's impossible when PGAL. But I'll do it doubly for you. I'll keep sending good vibes your way and hope Monday comes quickly. Hopefully it's like many of the rest of us with off and on symptoms. Hang in there.
No business posting on the grad board but I miss you shauni27 so here I am. Like knx9211 , I'm staying positive for you even though I know its hard for you to. You protect your heart, but we can carry the hope for you.
I never had any PG symptoms during my pregnancy with my son.
Also can you PM me your RE's address so I can go light something on fire? WTF at all this waiting for someone PGAL and TTTC.
Seriously, it's crazy! My RE brought me in for my first u/s at like 5 weeks. And then another a week - 10 days later. This seems really cruel, not only because of your history but because you're having trouble and are worried. SaveSaveSave
I just don't feel pregnant. I go from feeling so depressed and sure we don't have a viable pregnancy bc the symptoms totally disappeared to feeling hopeful because I read things that say this is normal. I am trying to stay in the mindset that we are miscarrying so I am prepared for the worst on Monday.
Since Monday I have had occasional cramps and twinges but that is it. Blah.