Today is my last appointment with my RE and I'm sad. I've been with them for 3 years and they've been so great to me. I'll never have another doctor or nurse give me such personalized service. I have an hour there because I'm doing my last infusion (which worries me too) but I'll be released from them this afternoon.
We are going shopping while we are there since I don't have to work today. I plan on looking at bras because mine is killing me. Did you go up a band size? Cup size? I guess I'll look at nursing bras. Any type you liked best?
We still haven't told many people and I'm almost 14 weeks. My mom and dad, brother and SIL, and my favorite cousin. That's it! My stomach is getting to look like a bit of a beer gut, nothing major just a little pouch, but I'm going to have to tell people soon. I'm hoping to wait until my cell free DNA testing comes back at the end of this week.
King26 You're graduating, congrats!! I understand being sad though, it was weird moving on from the intensity of the RE office to being a regular pregnant person. My boobs got huuuge, like I went from a B cup to DD. Towards the end I only wore stretchy nursing bras lol.
As for this week, I made our consult with the RE for mid-March to discuss a FET in the summer. I'm excited! I am hoping for a girl this time around, but they said the only way to find out the sex is to partially thaw the embryos to take a sample and then re-freeze them. I was like noooo nevermind! I don't care that much, seems like a risky move. We will just transfer the healthiest graded one of the 6.
King26, I understand all of those feelings; you are excited to be pregnant enough to be a "normal" pregnant person seen by a "normal" clinic, but you will miss the extra attention and care from the people who got you pregnant in the first place! And I also understand your fear with telling people. At 14 weeks we had our panorama results back and went from telling just our parents/my sister to our closest friends. Every time I told them I would get excited and then terrified that now that people knew, something would go wrong. We are waiting for our anatomy scan to tell the rest of our families and even then I am all "should we wait until viability week?!" I'm a nut.
Had a quick weekend trip to visit a friend and her new baby which was nice and relaxing. I have a heartbeat check today and I *think I have been feeling little man kicking a bit?? But I am still anxious that as soon as I get used to the feeling of being pregnant it is going to just be taken away from me again. My bloat is occasionally looking more like a bump in certain clothes/angles but other than that I just look extra chubby in my belly. 18 weeks today.
Post by oneslybookworm on Feb 20, 2017 9:31:37 GMT -5
Not much going on here...tomorrow is viability day for our EM! I haven't heard from her in nearly a week, though...I texted last Friday and she didn't respond, and hasn't responded since. I hope things are ok...I'm trying not to look into it too much, but of course the first thought that popped into my head was "well, she changed her mind...this isn't going to happen." I'm trying not to venture down that rabbit hole, but it's SUPER hard.
Yay King26! The mixed feelings are totally normal.
I wore stretchy bras while pregnant. And since I just weaned last month, I've only just now started wearing normal bras for the first time in 2.5 years.
King26 totally normal. I remember "graduating" from the RE last time and it's hard. You see these people on practically a weekly basis for years and then it's just "ok, bye". It's exciting though, it's just a new chapter in your journey.
shauni27 I feel you on the announcement stuff. I don't even want to tell work until well almost never and I definitely don't think we will do any sort of public announcement. My mom and best friend know but that's it. We will wait to tell close family around 20 weeks after anatomy scan.
oneslybookworm it's so much easier said than done to not let your mind wander to the "what ifs...". I'm sure the process is very emotionally taxing for the birth mom as well and maybe she just wants some time to herself. I'm not saying that's fair because I would be getting anxious as well but it's not always worst case scenario. Hugs, you're doing great with all of this.
Exciting about getting the process going again daisyfay25!
We had a nice weekend. Hung out with friends, H got to work on his race bike and I got some naps in which is always a plus. Because I had 2 appointments last week my weekly appointments got moved to Thursdays instead of Mondays. Womp womp.
oneslybookworm it's so much easier said than done to not let your mind wander to the "what ifs...". I'm sure the process is very emotionally taxing for the birth mom as well and maybe she just wants some time to herself. I'm not saying that's fair because I would be getting anxious as well but it's not always worst case scenario. Hugs, you're doing great with all of this.
No, you're right. I know it's not about me right now...and I'm trying not to bug her or anything. I don't want to discount the emotions she's going through, which I'm sure are insane...I just feel very unsure/scared, and it's not like i can go anywhere for reassurance. I obviously wouldn't go to her for it...that would be cruel. And it's not like I can just call up a doctor and be told things are fine at the moment. Ugh...it's hard to explain, and I'm probably not doing a great job...I fully admit to being sleeping and not well caffeinated at the moment, LOL.
King26- I bought some cheaper stretchy nursing bras they are amazing. (I'm not sure what size they are in bra sizes as they are an XL, but I'm s DD in other nursing bras right now.)
((oneslybookworm)) I can't imagine what it's like to go through adoption like that.
@shauni- we told close immediate family and very close friends right away. I told coworkers at 13 weeks as I had been out of work on medical leave from 8-13 weeks. So rumors about it were already going around.
We didn't tell other family until after our a/s at 19 weeks.
huge hugs, oneslybookworm. I cannot imagine the stress and fear and anxiety of what you are going through. I would personally give it a few more days and then if you do not hear from her check in with the agency? It might just help ease your mind. Another thought is too see if there are any adoption support boards like this. See how common this is and how often others experience something similar while they are waiting?
huge hugs, oneslybookworm . I cannot imagine the stress and fear and anxiety of what you are going through. I would personally give it a few more days and then if you do not hear from her check in with the agency? It might just help ease your mind. Another thought is too see if there are any adoption support boards like this. See how common this is and how often others experience something similar while they are waiting?
Oh, it's TOTALLY normal. Logically, I know that. I'm just a basket case in the best of circumstances, so this is bringing out my anxiety. It'll get better, I'm just being whiney.
huge hugs, oneslybookworm . I cannot imagine the stress and fear and anxiety of what you are going through. I would personally give it a few more days and then if you do not hear from her check in with the agency? It might just help ease your mind. Another thought is too see if there are any adoption support boards like this. See how common this is and how often others experience something similar while they are waiting?
Oh, it's TOTALLY normal. Logically, I know that. I'm just a basket case in the best of circumstances, so this is bringing out my anxiety. It'll get better, I'm just being whiney.
you have every right to be! I would be freaking the fuck out, honestly. You and I are two peas in a pod, sister-friend.
Last week I posted that I was worried about A's socialization. Yesterday I took her to a birthday party for a little boy about her age and there were 5 other toddlers there. All crawling/wobbling/cruising around and making far more noise than she thought civilized. She was really hesitant at first, but I knew that if I pushed her into playing before she was ready, she'd spend the whole party melting down. Instead, I sat on the floor with her while she clung to me. Eventually, she turned around, then put one leg on the floor. Finally she got on the floor herself and started playing with the toys. By the end, she was hamming it up with the adults and even going up to the other kids to take their toys (and to tell them they were naughty, lol). I am thrilled!
oneslybookworm, I'm sorry you're facing constant worry. It must be so draining even if it's normal with the process.
We still haven't really done anything to get ready for this kid. Maybe in March - it's been nice having a low spend month this month after spending a lot in January.
Post by starryfish on Feb 20, 2017 17:19:48 GMT -5
King26 I went up in band and cup size while pg. I bought some cheap wireless bras on Amazon while pg bc i couldn't do the underwire. In third tri I bought nursing bras that still work today.
S is 10 weeks old which means I only have 4 weeks left of ML with her.
My parents bought a house 30min away from us and are going to move next year to be here and help! Can't wait as they are currently 19 hours away.
S is really talking lately and is so cute! We are going to Vegas next week as my DH is going there for work. I'm excited!
Post by thoseareradishes on Feb 20, 2017 17:21:29 GMT -5
Oh, and when does the baby in the Glow app stop having a huge head? Shouldn't she be more in proportion by now?! And, last week Ovia said she was the size of corn, and this week Glow says she's the size of corn. These produce comparisons drive me bonkers!
Oh, and when does the baby in the Glow app stop having a huge head? Shouldn't she be more in proportion by now?! And, last week Ovia said she was the size of corn, and this week Glow says she's the size of corn. These produce comparisons drive me bonkers!
Which app do you prefer? I've been trying to figure out which ones to try.
I like both. Glow has more "articles", and Ovia is more like little interesting facts about baby, with a nice weekly summary about what baby is doing and how you might be feeling.
Also, it took me a long time to start to relax and feel good about my pregnancy. I don't worry about her much now, but I do worry about my body holding out, since my uterus has been through quite a bit. Just try to take it one day at a time!
Oh, and when does the baby in the Glow app stop having a huge head? Shouldn't she be more in proportion by now?! And, last week Ovia said she was the size of corn, and this week Glow says she's the size of corn. These produce comparisons drive me bonkers!
They always drove me nuts, too. No way did my newborn weigh as much as a watermelon. Maybe they're going for length?
Oh, and when does the baby in the Glow app stop having a huge head? Shouldn't she be more in proportion by now?! And, last week Ovia said she was the size of corn, and this week Glow says she's the size of corn. These produce comparisons drive me bonkers!
They always drove me nuts, too. No way did my newborn weigh as much as a watermelon. Maybe they're going for length?
I think it is length, but it's so inconsistent. On Ovia this week, she's the size of a bunch of grapes, or a barbie, or a chinchilla. I feel like a barbie is way longer than a bunch of grapes!
oneslybookworm- I would also be a ball of anxiety! My anxiety was the worst part of my pregnancy.
Baby wick is doing amazing. I can't believe she is going to be 2 months old on Friday. She has her 2 month appointment tomorrow, and I have my last OB appointment. I'm kinda sad because I really like my OB.
Post by catscatscats on Feb 21, 2017 1:14:05 GMT -5
Hang in there oneslybookworm. I'm sure I would be just as anxious and I think it's great that you are giving her space.
Not much to report here. I had my hair colored and spent the whole appointment googling and freaking out that it could harm the baby. Not so fun. Next drs appointment in two weeks for the cell free DNA blood draw and ultrasound. My husband travels a lot for work but is determined not to miss an ultrasound since he wasn't there when I found out about my missed miscarriage several years ago. It's a good reminder for me that I'm not the only one with emotions around all this.
Adora Belle Dearheart, totally normal. All of us felt this way after dealing with IF. I am almost 20 weeks and I still really cannot enjoy this pregnancy because I am so worried something else will happen.
ugh, got a call around 11:45 yesterday that H was in an ambulance with a broken ankle. Rushed over to meet him at the hospital where we promptly sat and waited for 9 hours before getting casted up and discharged. H is in SO much pain, so frustrated (he had a ski trip to Austria planned next month!) and is just feeling upset. He slept on the couch because it was the easiest place for him to sleep last night, poor guy.
I feel terrible for him and hate that I already need to take time off from my new job to take care of him (but of course want to make sure he is ok--I just feel flakey, you know?)
He said thank god we heard a healthy heartbeat yesterday so at least the day wasn't complete shit :/
I have 2 more appointments today - OB and hospital NST. I have a new book to read, so that's something to look forward to, lol.
oneslybookworm, I kind of suck at responding to text messages. If I don't say something right when it comes in, I will often times forget to do it later. I bet your EM is similar, and there's no deeper meaning here. Hugs, though.
loira, my son still does the same thing. It takes him a long time to warm up in a crowd, and he can be very clingy to me (and he's almost 4!). But if I let him just observe and join in when his curiosity gets the best of him, then he eventually he'll go for it. I'm glad you guys had a good time at the party.
starryfish, does this mean you guys are staying where you are? I thought you had talked about moving at one point? I was hoping we could be neighbors eventually!
Adora Belle Dearheart, we had a handful of people we told early each time too. Even when I did miscarry, I really needed to know that other people knew that this life existed, even if just for such a short time. That's not to say that I didn't internally freak out every time I told, like I had just jinxed it or something. Of course, everything in first tri made me freak out. The anxiety is rough, all I can wish for you is that the time passes quickly.
Post by cherryvalance on Feb 21, 2017 11:35:09 GMT -5
King26, yay for graduation! I cried at my first OB appointment because they weren't going to do a scan and I couldn't imagine going two weeks without seeing that baby was okay. It's hard to trust a new doctor/staff.
oneslybookworm, I'm sorry for all of your worry and anxiety. I know it must be so freaking difficult to want answers and information, but want to balance that with your relationship with the birth mom. Lots of hugs.
Adora Belle Dearheart, I ended up telling a few people at work at 6 weeks because I was in the ER with bleeding and needed days off, help at work, etc. We told my family at Christmas, which was 8 or 9 weeks. I DO get terrified every time we share with a new group of people (shared online at about 15 weeks, with students at about 16 weeks), but I know that, for me, what mpc said is true. He's "here" and real right now, so if the unimaginable happens, I want people to know that, in my eyes, this is my child and he should be acknowledged. That's not true for everyone, so it's certainly something to decide for yourself.
AFM, just waiting for movement. I sometimes feel something random and wonder if it's him, but who knows? My anatomy scan isn't until 21 weeks because they're closed the week before, so I'm dying over here.
Post by oneslybookworm on Feb 21, 2017 11:47:26 GMT -5
WOOHOO!!! Got an update from the agency, they spoke with expecting mom over the weekend. My worry is now over. Thanks for all the virtual hugs and well wishes!
Post by dollyllama on Feb 21, 2017 12:49:52 GMT -5
My baby turned 1 on Saturday! It was such a fun party, we ended up with about 50 adults and a dozen kids so it was so crazy but everyone had lots of fun. I went total pinterst mom planning it which I never plan to do again lol. The best thing I did was hiring an amateur photographer who came and took pictures at the party. It was the best $50 I ever spent and I haven't even seen the pictures yet.
Our NT for #2 is in a couple hours & I have to get my form signed by my midwife okaying us to go on the cruise. I have really been struggling with it because of the zika concerns but it was what my parents got us, my siblings, & my grandparents for Christmas and the only way to get refunded was for everyone to cancel their trip. I ordered some linen pants and long sleeved shirts that just got delivered and we've decided to just stay on the boat at a couple stops that have a higher concentration of zika. So hopefully that and all the bug spray I can handle will keep all of us healthy.
OMG my husband went to my parents today to pick up some stuff and my dad grilled him about IVF. My parents, who have no confirmation on our infertility treatments, now know a lot. My husband is like I thought they didn't know. Uh they didn't until you just confirmed everything. I don't really care but I think it sucks they grilled him while I wasn't there. They wouldn't have asked me about it but my dad asked him about shots, IVF, how much it cost, etc.
So glad you heard from the agency oneslybookworm, shauni27, I'm sorry to hear about your husband...that sucks