Post by hisno1girl on Jul 14, 2017 16:48:50 GMT -5
I don't know how else to put it.
Finished chemo/radiation June 2.
First hospitalization: June 12-15. Appointments in between, second hospitalization, June 25. More appointments, more testing, third hospitalization, July 2-4.
I've been on antibiotics for most of June. I have a growth on my bladder and I'm being sent to the University of Michigan for a biopsy.
I haven been well at all. I still have the pain when I urinate. I have pain in my abdomen and shoulder/collar bone area constantly. Coughing, deep breaths, sneezing, etc., feels like I'm getting stabbed with a hot knife, oh, and of course, with all of the coughing you know what happens when you cough too much, so now I have to wear Poise pads.
I sleep anywhere from 8 to 16 hours a day. I haven't smoked much because the smoking sets off a coughing fit. I've lost another 10-12 lbs or so since the beginning of June. I don't eat much. I just move from bed to couch to bed.
I feel...spent. Just walking from one end of the house to the other leaves me winded.
I'm jealous of all the fun stuff I see people doing and I'm mad that I just don't have the energy to do anything.
There's a concert series we always went to and now, just walking from the car to our "spot" gives me jelly legs.
The worst part is that I had a coughing fit that really hurt and I was crying out and I scared the baby. She got this really worried look on her face and crawled over to me and laid her head on my shoulder
Post by dizzycooks on Jul 14, 2017 17:05:41 GMT -5
I'm sorry summer has been so tough for you. The fact you even try to go to the concerts is amazing to me. Do what you need. lots of hair pats even though I'm a small part of the community.
Post by miniroller on Jul 14, 2017 17:25:55 GMT -5
Oh dear His ❤️ Sending so many vicarious hugs. I pray for you almost daily (definitely will be daily now!). I wish I could hug you, dear friend. You deserve a pity party more than any one single person I know!!! I wish I could offer you better, but you are loved, thought of, & prayed for daily.
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