TTC related randoms/musings

[melsamoony]

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My body wakes me up at 6:30 every day no mater what. On weekends sometimes I can get back to sleep but sometimes I can't. To help make getting back to sleep easier but still take my temp at the same time I decided to take my temperature but not look at it and use the memory function on the thermometer and record my temp when I was up for the day.

I did this for several days without thinking or analyzing or even looking at my chart because I am only on cd 6. Um well I finally noticed I kept entering the same temp. Yea.....my thermometer either doesnt have a memory function or that function isnt working. Whoops.

I also have not been checking my CM. I feel like I am less motivated/deligent TTC #2 although it is really too early to call myself breezy.

[sarapocalypse]

Aug 19, 2017 7:52:30 GMT -5 melsamoony said:

I did this for several days without thinking or analyzing or even looking at my chart because I am only on cd 6. Um well I finally noticed I kept entering the same temp. Yea.....my thermometer either doesnt have a memory function or that function isnt working. Whoops.

I did the exact same thing when I first started temping! I could have sworn that mine had a memory function, but it does not.

I feel so thrown off not temping this cycle. We were on vacation at the start of this cycle and I don't see any point to jumping back into at this point this cycle. It's been nice to not have to think about it, but my brain is still like "eyes opened, where is the thermometer?"

[compassrose]

sarapocalypse, I might temp anyway if I were in your shoes. Only because if your temp starts going down, you might be less tempted to test.

[compassrose]

My EWCM still came early and has switched back to creamy before I have ovulated, so I'm feeling like Femara is a bust.

[grover]

compassrose, when I took Femara it was in conjunction with a trigger shot. Would that be an option in the future?


I really disklike my hormonal migraines. Every month I get at least one during the week of my period. I thought I would be migraine free since my period started last Sunday and I'm only spotting now, but nope.

[sarapocalypse]

Aug 19, 2017 18:15:14 GMT -5 compassrose said:

sarapocalypse , I might temp anyway if I were in your shoes. Only because if your temp starts going down, you might be less tempted to test.

Good point!

[Jalapeñomel]

Some days I wonder if I'm more interested in being pregnant than I am in raising another child.

[compassrose]

grover--there are a lot of options if this doesn't work, but they want me to try it for 3-6 months first. I'm willing to do three.

[househunter]

I need to stop testing because the BFNs are upsetting, but I can't help myself

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So I finally started temping this month, and I keep my thermometer on my nightstand. I went to take my temp after DH woke me up this morning (he wakes me up to say goodbye before he leaves for work), and I couldn't find the thermometer. Damn cats apparently decided it looked like a fun thing to play with and I located it under my nightstand, back against the wall. Freaking cats...

[seeyalater52]

Aug 19, 2017 19:26:00 GMT -5 Jalapeñomel said:

Some days I wonder if I'm more interested in being pregnant than I am in raising another child.

I don't have any kids yet, but this is me right now. Getting pregnant as a same-sex couple is so much TALKING and THINKING and DOCTORS and it just all feels so deliberate and goal-focused... on pregnancy. Sometimes I wish we could have just gone into this without so much deliberation because I'm an overanalyzer and I'm so stuck in the process that the end goal seems incredibly abstract. 

[seeyalater52]

Also I was FREEZING cold last night (took the quilt off the bed a few nights ago because we don't have AC) and my temp was absurdly low this morning. My spike from yesterday from not getting enough sleep compared with this morning's temp is pissing me off. My chart is a damn mess.

[katespade]

Aug 19, 2017 19:26:00 GMT -5 Jalapeñomel said:

Some days I wonder if I'm more interested in being pregnant than I am in raising another child.

I feel like the opposite. I'm so focused on getting pregnant, but I'd really like to just skip that whole part and just have a baby to raise. 

[Jalapeñomel]

Aug 24, 2017 8:42:52 GMT -5 seeyalater52 said:

Aug 19, 2017 19:26:00 GMT -5 Jalapeñomel said:

Some days I wonder if I'm more interested in being pregnant than I am in raising another child.

I don't have any kids yet, but this is me right now. Getting pregnant as a same-sex couple is so much TALKING and THINKING and DOCTORS and it just all feels so deliberate and goal-focused... on pregnancy. Sometimes I wish we could have just gone into this without so much deliberation because I'm an overanalyzer and I'm so stuck in the process that the end goal seems incredibly abstract. 

I'm incredibly jealous of people who just get pregnant.

[seeyalater52]

Aug 24, 2017 16:39:48 GMT -5 Jalapeñomel said:

Aug 24, 2017 8:42:52 GMT -5 seeyalater52 said:

I don't have any kids yet, but this is me right now. Getting pregnant as a same-sex couple is so much TALKING and THINKING and DOCTORS and it just all feels so deliberate and goal-focused... on pregnancy. Sometimes I wish we could have just gone into this without so much deliberation because I'm an overanalyzer and I'm so stuck in the process that the end goal seems incredibly abstract. 

I'm incredibly jealous of people who just get pregnant.

Me too. Sometimes it makes me spontaneously burst into tears. And then I feel guilty because my main issue is the gay thing and my biological fertility stuff is fairly minor and I feel like I'm not allowed to be sad because it's basically my own fault. Ugh. Hugs.

[Jalapeñomel]

Aug 24, 2017 17:10:46 GMT -5 seeyalater52 said:

Aug 24, 2017 16:39:48 GMT -5 Jalapeñomel said:

I'm incredibly jealous of people who just get pregnant.

Me too. Sometimes it makes me spontaneously burst into tears. And then I feel guilty because my main issue is the gay thing and my biological fertility stuff is fairly minor and I feel like I'm not allowed to be sad because it's basically my own fault. Ugh. Hugs.

It's not your fault! Don't say that!

You deserve a child just as much as any straight couple.

[seeyalater52]

Aug 24, 2017 17:37:42 GMT -5 Jalapeñomel said:

Aug 24, 2017 17:10:46 GMT -5 seeyalater52 said:

Me too. Sometimes it makes me spontaneously burst into tears. And then I feel guilty because my main issue is the gay thing and my biological fertility stuff is fairly minor and I feel like I'm not allowed to be sad because it's basically my own fault. Ugh. Hugs.

It's not your fault! Don't say that!

You deserve a child just as much as any straight couple.

I know that's true intellectually but something about the way this process is unfolding and the way the insurance company is treating us (full pay because we are a ssex couple in a state where fertility coverage is 100% covered for straight couples) is kind of making me feel like it IS our fault somehow. I realize that is completely irrational, which is apparently the nature of this whole process which has turned me into an insane person.

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Aug 24, 2017 19:16:49 GMT -5 seeyalater52 said:

Aug 24, 2017 17:37:42 GMT -5 Jalapeñomel said:

It's not your fault! Don't say that!

You deserve a child just as much as any straight couple.

I know that's true intellectually but something about the way this process is unfolding and the way the insurance company is treating us (full pay because we are a ssex couple in a state where fertility coverage is 100% covered for straight couples) is kind of making me feel like it IS our fault somehow. I realize that is completely irrational, which is apparently the nature of this whole process which has turned me into an insane person.

That sucks so much that your insurance company won't fully cover your fertility treatments just because you're not straight! That's ridiculous. I second what was said previously...it's not your fault. You love who you love. These feelings are your insurance company's fault for judging you differently than other couples.

[seeyalater52]

You guys are so sweet. Thanks for the pick me up. I don't know why I'm so down and emotional today but I really feel like I'm losing it. <3

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Aug 24, 2017 19:44:59 GMT -5 seeyalater52 said:

You guys are so sweet. Thanks for the pick me up. I don't know why I'm so down and emotional today but I really feel like I'm losing it. <3

Anytime!  That's what we're here for!  When someone's having a tough time with this madness-inducing process, it's nice because the other people on the board are there to pick them back up. 

[Jalapeñomel]

Aug 24, 2017 19:44:59 GMT -5 seeyalater52 said:

You guys are so sweet. Thanks for the pick me up. I don't know why I'm so down and emotional today but I really feel like I'm losing it. <3

Because everything about this whole process is a mindfuck, and when you throw in obstacles from health insurance for situations out of your control, it escalates it to a rage worth level.

[somersault72]

Aug 24, 2017 16:39:48 GMT -5 Jalapeñomel said:

Aug 24, 2017 8:42:52 GMT -5 seeyalater52 said:

I don't have any kids yet, but this is me right now. Getting pregnant as a same-sex couple is so much TALKING and THINKING and DOCTORS and it just all feels so deliberate and goal-focused... on pregnancy. Sometimes I wish we could have just gone into this without so much deliberation because I'm an overanalyzer and I'm so stuck in the process that the end goal seems incredibly abstract. 

I'm incredibly jealous of people who just get pregnant.

Me too. And I used to be one of them.

[somersault72]

I'm sure I sound like a broken record (sorry), but everything has gone just how it should this cycle so I'm going to be even more disappointed if this doesn't work. Also every month I say I'm not going to freak out and act crazy during the 2ww, but here we are again. Jalapeñomel have you tested yet??? Aren't you officially late? Give me something else to focus on.

[larzhope]

somersault72 - it's crazy how much I try to not ramp up the hope/expectations in the 2ww but without fail, totally crazy over here too!

Jalapeñomel - I'm also wondering if you've tested yet. I know you said you normally wait until you're a week late, so that would be... tuesday?

[Jalapeñomel]

@lazhope BFN which is not really surprising but still a bummer. And where the f is my period??

And because I've lost my mind, I google the odds of getting a negative and a positive later on.

[melsamoony]

Aug 27, 2017 7:08:48 GMT -5 Jalapeñomel said:

@lazhope BFN which is not really surprising but still a bummer. And where the f is my period??

And because I've lost my mind, I google the odds of getting a negative and a positive later on.

Omg I do the same thing .

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Aug 27, 2017 7:18:15 GMT -5 melsamoony said:

Aug 27, 2017 7:08:48 GMT -5 Jalapeñomel said:

@lazhope BFN which is not really surprising but still a bummer. And where the f is my period??

And because I've lost my mind, I google the odds of getting a negative and a positive later on.

Omg I do the same thing .

Me too!  In fact, I spend a shameful amount of time on Google looking up random TTC/early pregnancy/etc questions.  I'm surprised I haven't started getting ads or emails geared in that direction.

[larzhope]

ugh I'm sorry Jalapeñomel

[melsamoony]

Aug 27, 2017 11:02:44 GMT -5 @writererin said:

Aug 27, 2017 7:18:15 GMT -5 melsamoony said:

Omg I do the same thing .

Me too!  In fact, I spend a shameful amount of time on Google looking up random TTC/early pregnancy/etc questions.  I'm surprised I haven't started getting ads or emails geared in that direction.

Samesies. It is ridiculous.