I can't believe I'm writing this. My other pup is gone.

[nicbreeful]

Yesterday, my Lila started throwing up.  She had gotten into the trash and when she threw up there was plastic pieces.  Thinking, oh shit, what if she has a blockage? took her into the e-vet.

She did have a blockage but it wasn't the plastic.  It was cancer.  But the throwing up was unrelated to the cancer or the plastic.  She was in a diabetic crisis.  She showed signs of kidney and liver damage that they were about 50/50 sure if it had to do with the diabetes or another disease which they thought might be possible.

I could admit her for 5 days to stabilize her to hope to get her levels back to normal but it wasn't a guarantee.  And then if she was stabilized, we could address the long term care.  After that, biopsies for the mass in her abdomen.  But her calcium levels were so high that they were positive it was malignant and spreading.  

I don't get it.  She was in for her check up like 6 months ago.  The vet said that sometimes this happens.  They don't act or look sick at all and then it just hits suddenly.  

Even if we talked long term care, she was 12.  And I hate that this was a factor, the vet said it could easily hit 10-15k.  The 5 day care to stabilize was estimated at $5300 alone.  

I spent about an hour with her just talking with her and telling her I loved her so much and to look out for her little brother up there and I'd see her someday soon.  Then the vet came and I held her and she fell asleep for the last time.

I can't believe this is happening.  Everything is too quiet now.

[nachos]

I'm so sorry. It's never an easy thing.

[Deleted]

Oh my God. You poor thing. I am so unbelievably sorry for the loss of your two pup’s. I can’t imagine the pain you are dealing with. Hugs to you.

[Gato]

Oh no, Nic. I am so sorry!

[nsl]

Oh Nic, I am so incredibly sorry. I’ve also lost pets in quick and unexpected succession, and it’s a total mindfuck. Hugs and love to you.

[ssmjlm]

I’m so sorry.

[dianecourt]

Nic, no one deserves this. I am so sorry. Like I hate everyone and everything for you sorry.

[suzubell]

Oh Nic, that’s unbelievable. I’m so so sorry for your loss and that you’ve been hit so hard.

[Beagle]

Oh Nic, I am so sorry.

[OrangeBanana]

Oh no. I couldn't read this and not type anything. I'm really so sorry that this has happened.

[rosiebear]

Oh my god, Nic. I’m so sorry.

[AutumnRose25]

I’m so sorry

[pinkyp]

God how awful! I'm so sorry for both of your losses.

[sofamonkey]

Nic, my heart absolutely breaks for you. I’m so very sorry. Hugest hugs to you. ❤️

[Crystal]

Oh my goodness. This is terrible. I’m so sorry!

[eb777888]

Oh, Nic. I am so, so sorry. Ugh.

[noodle]

I am so sorry.

[MrsAxilla]

Oh man. I'm so, so sorry.

[mrsd2006]

How heartbreaking for you. I can't imagine what you feel like right now. Sending you big hugs.

[Aquatica]

I'm so sorry for your loss

[lostrn]

I'm so sorry. I know how hard it is to make that call when there's a "maybe we can get them stable but then we have to deal with x,y and z" thrown at you. Our last dog was in a similar situation and it was gut wrenching. Hugs to you!

[livinitup]

What a lucky dog to have lived a life with someone who loved her so much.

Very lucky, loved dog, indeed.

[joy]

Oh hun. This is too much loss for one heart in a short time.

::hugs::

[snipsnsnails]

I'm so sorry.

[kayl84]

I’m so so so so sorry. I can’t even imagine how your heart must be broken.

[patches31709]

Oh my gosh, I'm so very sorry.

[shopgirl07]

This is awful, I’m sorry.

[zaneyzoo]

I’m so sorry that so hard.

[nextbigthing]

I'm so sorry

[greenlight]

Oh no. I'm so, so sorry.