I have been hit with a sudden wave of doubt about my move/going back to school. I think it really centers around having a completely foggy view of what it means for my life in 2 years. I feel like all I do know is that I will have not been working for a year, will have depleted all of my savings, and will be in a different country. I am sure that throughout the year I will make connections and things will firm up as I go, but right now, I am just filled with doubt and it feels like I am making a bad call.
I don't like this.
Right before we moved to California (when we had similar nerves/doubts about the upheaval), my H read an article that said something along the lines of, “Not many people are willing to give up a great life for the chance at any extraordinary life.”
What you’re feeling is so, so normal. It’s a risk — but it’s also the chance to do something most people only dream about. You would always wonder “what if” if you backed out now.
Post by amandakisser on Feb 7, 2020 15:22:13 GMT -5
We're having crazy wind here - my lights have been flickering and all of my trash buckets are scattered around the yard. My car was actually moving from the wind while I was out running errands. I can hear the storage containers crashing into the side of the deck outside. This is intense! I have to get DD1 off of the bus in 30 minutes and I really don't want to lol.
I have a mani/pedi scheduled for tomorrow. We're going to meet up with friends in the evening for pizza and to plan out a Disney trip we have set for April. We're going for a 4-day weekend, so we're going to figure out what attractions/rides we definitely want to do, as well as dinners. Choosing restaurants for dinner will be somewhat of a challenge. Two of us are very adventurous, while the other two don't usually like to try new things. I'm sure we'll find a happy medium. We're each going to pick one night.
Sunday I need to meal plan and grocery shop. Nothing else is really happening, so I'll probably get in a weight session.
I have really not gotten anywhere near the amount of schoolwork done today I should have. I'm sure I'll regret it later. The problem is that it was all research and practice problems with no real end point and I have trouble self-motivating on that kind of stuff.
I have been hit with a sudden wave of doubt about my move/going back to school. I think it really centers around having a completely foggy view of what it means for my life in 2 years. I feel like all I do know is that I will have not been working for a year, will have depleted all of my savings, and will be in a different country. I am sure that throughout the year I will make connections and things will firm up as I go, but right now, I am just filled with doubt and it feels like I am making a bad call.
I don't like this.
I've been reading your posts about your move and I'm just so incredibly envious. It's the exact thing I'd dream of doing if I were child-free and untethered. I get that big things like this can create doubt, though. I'd just say "fuck it" and embrace the adventure! And also remember all of the reasons why you wanted to do it in the first place.
Post by Leeham Rimes on Feb 7, 2020 16:30:53 GMT -5
I got no work done today. I’ve got to finish this weekend or I’m gonna fall so far behind. Moving has really effed me up and I’m so tired.
I decided to send my laundry out to the wash and fold. I just can’t keep up with everything appropriately and H doesn’t trust cleaners in the house since the last issue so at least one thing can be off my plate.
I need ham like water Like breath, like rain I need ham like mercy From Heaven's gate Sometimes ham salad or casserole or ham that’s free range, all natural I need ham
I had a meeting in the morning and otherwise only have (heaps of) grading. It has been snowing all day. Quite a bit of accumulation! So I am under a blanket reading essays. If I did not have a headache it would have been pleasant.
I have been hit with a sudden wave of doubt about my move/going back to school. I think it really centers around having a completely foggy view of what it means for my life in 2 years. I feel like all I do know is that I will have not been working for a year, will have depleted all of my savings, and will be in a different country. I am sure that throughout the year I will make connections and things will firm up as I go, but right now, I am just filled with doubt and it feels like I am making a bad call.
I don't like this.
Right before we moved to California (when we had similar nerves/doubts about the upheaval), my H read an article that said something along the lines of, “Not many people are willing to give up a great life for the chance at any extraordinary life.”
What you’re feeling is so, so normal. It’s a risk — but it’s also the chance to do something most people only dream about. You would always wonder “what if” if you backed out now.
Umm...this is going to be my mantra now. Thank you.
Right before we moved to California (when we had similar nerves/doubts about the upheaval), my H read an article that said something along the lines of, “Not many people are willing to give up a great life for the chance at any extraordinary life.”
What you’re feeling is so, so normal. It’s a risk — but it’s also the chance to do something most people only dream about. You would always wonder “what if” if you backed out now.
Umm...this is going to be my mantra now. Thank you.
I know! It’s exactly what I needed to read! I know that I’ve acted pretty miserable lately about my move, but deep down, I’m happy that I did it. I hope that you follow through and I can’t wait to hear all your updates!
We've had tons of rain this week and lots of flooding in my area. Then last night my friend and her family were driving and a tree came down on the car. Thankfully everyone is fine, but the car is definitely totaled. Very scary! Today was errands and I was supposed to have dinner with my mom, but she's taking a friend to the ER so I'm waiting for news on that. Here's hoping the rest of the weekend is uneventful!
Yes! And I am actually getting paid over $100 to do this. So I am, in fact, living the dream LOL
How'd you get to do this??
My husband actually found the company. It's a research and development company and they have a location near us and another in FL. We both signed up for their mailing list and whenever they have a taste test coming up they send out a survey to see if you qualify. I finally qualified and hit the jackpot