And it's Monday again. After a week of spring break, we are back to elearning. I tried to get a lot of work done last week since DH was off and minding the kids, so I don't feel super motivated to do too much work this week. Hi ho hi ho, it's back to work we go.
Landscapers are here right outside our elearning window- so loud. I am glad there is someone who can work during all this, and we don't have to interact with them at all. I'm afraid to look at the news today (this week) although I will. It's going to be rough.
Today we start e-learning through the school district. Ds's device hasn't shown up (it was supposed to get here Thursday in the mail). His teacher said not to start until it gets here....he has an IPAD, but the district is requiring laptops. So, the district is mailing his designated one from his class. This is all going to be bad this week, and I have a ton of work stuff to do.
Post by librarychica on Apr 6, 2020 9:40:24 GMT -5
I just went jogging around the neighborhood looking for the kids when they didn’t return from their “one more” lap around the neighborhood. I found them setting traps for a cat they saw. “Daddy says if we catch her, we can keep her!”
It's busy here today. DH is trying to work, the countertop guy came to measure everything (complete with mask, gloves, we stood 6 feet away and opened all the windows and skylights).
Kids are back to their e-learning. DD1 already had one zoom call and has another one shortly.
DH has committed to giving me an hour off each day to work/walk/whatever needs to be done without interruption.
Because of my episode/panic attack at the grocery store the other day, I forgot a few key staples like eggs and milk. I hate to do it, but I think I'm going to have to use Instacart. I can't face going back into a store right now.
I feel very much like I'm failing at keeping everything together. My work is moving along very slowly, and is at a standstill right now because the client won't do what he needs to do. Part of my responsibility is keeping us stocked with essentials, and I fell down on that task last week. The house is a wreck, I can't remember the last time I washed the sheets in anyone's room.
I imagine I'm not alone with these feelings. I've been trying to cut myself some slack, but I fell apart this weekend. So I'm trying to pick myself up and dust myself off and move along.
I am trying to be exceptionally productive today for work since I don't have the kids around. In between reports and projects, I'm also frantically trying to figure out where to get groceries from and refreshing options on Instacart. There are no deliveries or pick up times available. I don't think I can bring myself to go to the store in person. Our local chain is chaotic and stressful on a good day. I barely ever go to a grocery store in person even before all this. Considering giving beau a list and some money. I think he's going to try to go today or tomorrow.
Had to lecture ExH via text today about talking about the news in front of the kids and demand that he not bring them out in public. He took them to the store with him over the weekend, apparently. They wore masks, but WTF dude. You don't have them for half the week and there are two "adults" in your house. There's literally no reason why you needed to take two kids out in public. Co-parenting with him during this just keeps turning into more of a nightmare every day.
mae0111, we are all there. Try to grant yourself some grace. None of this is normal circumstances. We're all just in survival mode.
Kids are back at e learning, so hopefully all is smooth.
SOS. Yesterday Dh ran to the store . 3 hours later not home. He stopped at a friends house (outside) . When he got home,I said a heads up txt would be nice. His response was you have a phone, you can call. That is his go to. Any small criticism, he turns it around on someone else. I was so mad. He can't realize why I was mad. I dont care where he went, I care that he doesn't hear me and cant just say my bad, I didn't think about it.
It is times like this, I can't believe this is who I have to spend quarantine with.
Post by covergirl82 on Apr 6, 2020 10:29:15 GMT -5
It's "spring break" here, so no e-learning this week. I just need to make it through Wednesday, and then DH and I took Thursday and Friday off to go to our family "cottage" to spend a few days. We'll do some hiking and exploring on our land and hopefully find some cool things with the metal detector.
It's been hard to be productive and to focus on working while everything is not normal and not ok. Thankfully work has been kind of slow anyways right now.
I hope the leaves start coming out on the trees before the temp drops below normal for about 7-10 days starting Thursday. Seeing more signs of Spring would help my mood.
We start elearning today. All the work is... work we've already covered. So that's going to go over well.
I will have to continue to deal with the Payroll Protection Program fallout. Because... no banks are doing it at this point, and clients can't understand why we wouldn't. And apparently we may not have government guidance until 4/20. So that should be fun.
Crap k3am, I just suggested the payroll protection loan deal to one of my clients when he was going why are my payroll taxes so high.
DD and I are already at it. I thought she had a cut by her nose. Well it has been there for a couple weeks so I started looking closer and it is a huge pod of zits. She is 8. I'm pushing her to wash her face more and she is fighting me on it but the zits are now spreading across her nose. Now she is fighting me on breakfast choices. The only she isn't fighting me on is the school stuff we put together last night. We are supposed to start distance learning next week and I'm dreading it because DD and I have figured out the magic amount of "mommy school".
Our office phone is ringing off the hook all the questions are about stimulus stuff.
On Saturday, we went to my parents' house to check on them and take my mom to Sam's Club for supplies. Then my parents watched the boys while DH, DD, and I went geocaching near an old military radar site from the 1960s. It was good to get outside where there were no other people. Also, the geocaches that we looked for had cryptexes that you had to solve in order to find clues to the next one. We had so much fun and DH is planning our next geocache adventure for next weekend.
Yesterday I was in a foul mood because I just can't escape my family. When I had to go to the office, I could relax and focus better. At home, I'm always on. And I had to do some prep work for my class and do some other work to catch up on some stuff. Then DH thought I was avoiding the family. No dude, I have work to do! It's difficult to work at home when four people are trying to get my attention for various things.
My anxiety has been riding high so I am starting an exercise program this evening. I signed up for a Fitness Blender 8-week program that should help keep me accountable.
186momx, he should still apply. If his bank is accepting applications. Or he can find another way to apply. Honestly, just no one know what's going on or who's going to do what. The loan applications have been overwhelming.
This sounds bad, but I am glad other people are having anxiety issues. As someone who doesn't really suffer from anxiety I have been having panic attacks. First one scared me so bad and I am still not sure if it is a true panic attack or stress, but seeing that other people are struggling let's me know that I am not alone and that helps in a way that nothing else has.
This is the first time in my life that I have had a problem and there is no way to fix it. Nothing I can do to make it better and I have no idea how to process this.
Add me to the list of normally not being anxious but all the unknowns making me anxious. I’m a major planner and it’s a tough time to try to do that.
Our kids are on their second week of spring break, so I have another week before trying to juggle school stuff, too. DD (2nd grade) is normally a great student and really self-motivated, but had done almost none of the optional schoolwork during the two weeks they were home before break. I came downstairs a little before 7 am and she had all of her optional assignments laid out and was working on them. Hopefully that’s a good sign for when we ‘go back.’
It’s supposed to be a really rainy week here in San Diego - which is not good for our moods.
We start elearning today. All the work is... work we've already covered. So that's going to go over well.
I will have to continue to deal with the Payroll Protection Program fallout. Because... no banks are doing it at this point, and clients can't understand why we wouldn't. And apparently we may not have government guidance until 4/20. So that should be fun.
Yep. I worked almost 70 hours last week thanks to another tax reform and advising clients on it. Most are submitting applications Friday and today. Apparently some of the big banks have already given out all of their funds and most are only giving them to existing clients, not new ones. It’s insane right now. Hurry up and make huge decisions with 75% of the information.
Home schooling is off to a horrible start today. It hasn’t started and the iPad and switch have been taken away. I believe ds went back to bed and will hopefully get up on the other side of his bed this time.
xctsclrx, I know what you mean. It's a little comforting to know that others are experiencing similar feelings.
I honestly thought I was handling things really well. DH has been panicking a bit, and I've kind of been the cooler head (which is a huge change for us). The panic seemed to come out of nowhere and hit me like a truck. I've been leaning on my CBD oil supply a bit more than usual for the past few days...
Post by erinshelley21 on Apr 6, 2020 12:39:15 GMT -5
Another workday of DH beginning the day by asking "how long you gonna be working today?" If he asks again this week, I'm going to have to tell him to quit. I already feel enough pressure to work and school the kids, I dont need a timer on it.
We turned DS's work in today. Realized as DH and him were leaving that there were 4 pages not done. How? How did we not get all of the freaking work done in 3 weeks? I'm not feeling great about the next 7 weeks.
I am not watching the news or reading the news. Like, at all. And that’s helped my anxiety more than anything else. I read some news last night, and I was back to being anxious again.
Also, no where around here has toilet paper. Again. Wtf. I read something last night that said the problem is that toilet paper makers do home toilet paper and commercial toilet paper. Everyone is using a lot more home toilet paper because they aren’t using office and restaurant and other commercial toilet paper. The article said it was just too hard to switch from one kind to the other. I call bullshit. I turned my quilting supplies into a mask making factory. Ford is turning a truck plant into a ventilator factory. I’m pretty sure a toilet paper factory can be turned into... a toilet paper factory. It’s not exactly a huge leap.
Post by traveltheworld on Apr 6, 2020 13:05:05 GMT -5
mae0111, don't be hard on yourself. DH, who is the most chill person I know, forgot half a dozen items when he went grocery shopping on the weekend. He said it was so tense in there that he just started feeling a bit panicked, and left without referring to the grocery list in its entirety. So it totally happens.
Our nanny, who voluntarily took unpaid vacation when this all started, just texted me to ask if she can come back starting next Monday. That's giving me anxiety. I've been trying not to think about having to pay that extra money when we don't need it, and frankly I've been kind of enjoying being by ourselves. Ok, maybe "enjoying" is not the right word - but I certainly feel a lot more comfortable about displaying my anxiety / bad moods when she's not around. I know it's unfair though...so I don't know what to do.
traveltheworld, could you either just terminate her and pay her severance, or pay her some reduced rate to stay on your payroll/remain available, but not come?
mommyatty, I'm having trouble finding it as well, so I just ordered it from WB Mason - the office supply place. They have regular residential TP - not all brands, but I got Cottonelle. They charge a ton for shipping, but it was worth it. My parents were running out of TP and paper towels, so I ordered both. Should be here in 4-6 days.
My kids are quarantined at their dad's for the foreseeable future. DD1 spiked a really high fever today. No other major symptoms right now, just fever, exhaustion, lack of appetite. The on call doc said it's probably not Covid-19 but they need to stay put just in case. No switching households, follow CDC guidelines on self-quarantine timing and symptoms. So not sure when I will get them back. This sucks.
mommyatty not without a major battle. He's adamant that we play it safe and they don't leave and infect my "household." He's got the doctor and his parents in his corner too, so I doubt I'd win. As he was telling me this plan he was citing his sources on what we should do to take precautions. Rules don't apply to him until they do. And then they very much do. CDC says 7 days after first symptom and 72 hours fever free with no meds is when you can end self-quarantine so that's the timeline we are working with.
Post by erinshelley21 on Apr 7, 2020 17:08:46 GMT -5
twinmomma that really stinks. I hope he isn't an asshat about it and actually acts like an adult. Maybe he will get tired of being a responsible dad and end up bringing them to you.
erinshelley21, Thanks, so far... asshat. He has been averaging a 4-6 hour response time on my "how is she, what's her fever" text messages. He also wouldn't clarify if fever numbers were with meds or without when I asked. You can't say she's "fine" and "fever is down to 100" if that's because you're dosing her with Motrin and Tylenol all day. The context around that matters. So honestly, I have no idea how she is at this point. I have no solid information.