Wednesday 4/8 chat

[bowies]

I think it’s Wednesday?

I had a panic attack in the middle of the night. I’m so overwhelmed and I don’t see any relief anytime soon.

[ohgillian]

Apr 8, 2020 8:01:45 GMT -5 bowies said:

I think it’s Wednesday?

I had a panic attack in the middle of the night. I’m so overwhelmed and I don’t see any relief anytime soon.

I'm sorry. Middle of the night panic attacks are awful.  

[rondonalddo]

I was able to order toilet paper through Dollar General's website. So that's my win for the day.

[ESF]

Yesterday was a bad day. Between what happened in Wisconsin and the abortion ban in Texas, and more and more data about how disproportionately hard this is hitting the black community in this country, I was not in a good place.

Today is a new day. It's going to suck, but we're alive, and we'll get through it again.

Sigh.

[Velar Fricative]

Yeah this sucks. I try and think every day how grateful we are to be healthy and employed but then I think about the fear I have of things getting back to normal even though I obviously want things to get back to normal someday.

[RoxMonster]

Today my favorite local coffee shop opened their drive-thru after being closed for the last few weeks. I had been looking forward to it all week and went and got their delicious coffee. I wore my mask, they were all wearing masks and gloves, they never touched my CC as you put it in the reader yourself, and I wiped my coffee cup down as soon as I got it (and of course washed my hands when I got home). I think the very very low risk was worth it for my sanity and happiness. Plus I want to support a good local business during this time. The coffee is SO GOOD.

[pugz]

my husband forgot his VPN password and had to go into the office to reset it. I really didn't want him to leave the house like, at all, for the duration of this. The 2 to 1 male to female death rate is freaking me the fuck out.

[Velar Fricative]

Apr 8, 2020 8:49:23 GMT -5 RoxMonster said:

Today my favorite local coffee shop opened their drive-thru after being closed for the last few weeks. I had been looking forward to it all week and went and got their delicious coffee. I wore my mask, they were all wearing masks and gloves, they never touched my CC as you put it in the reader yourself, and I wiped my coffee cup down as soon as I got it (and of course washed my hands when I got home). I think the very very low risk was worth it for my sanity and happiness. Plus I want to support a good local business during this time. The coffee is SO GOOD.

I really want to do this and I know if I take these same measures I'll be fine but still hard to bring myself to do it. Plus, I just ordered a new Ninja coffee/tea maker as an early birthday present for myself so now I feel like I need to just stay home and use it when I get it. But I am very happy your coffee is delicious! 

[moreace01]

Apr 8, 2020 8:01:45 GMT -5 bowies said:

I think it’s Wednesday?

I had a panic attack in the middle of the night. I’m so overwhelmed and I don’t see any relief anytime soon.

Ugh. I'm so sorry. That sucks. I had one about a week ago - had to get up and go sit in another room by myself for a bit. I think I was feeling trapped and like there is no way out, and nowhere to go to escape any of this. It took me a bit to calm down. This feeling of being out of control gets to me sometimes. 

And I'm pretty sure it's Wednesday. Although I thought that yesterday, so who knows really. 

[pixy0stix]

It's for sure Wednesday. I know because I had to double check since I have a meeting I'm running today. LOL!

[seeyalater52]

This week sucks. The sheltering in place is seriously wearing on me and work is insufferable lately.

[ohgillian]

I feel like I've been in this "Brace for impact! Brace for impact!" position for weeks. Covid is for now well-controlled in my area, and I'm grateful for that, but it also means that all of this is starting to feel like overkill even though I KNOW IT ISN'T! I believe in science and I absolutely understand that the social distancing is a big part of what's letting things be controlled here. I just mean that my mind is having a hard time with this extended phase of "it's about to be bad." I hope that makes sense and I want to be clear that I do not want things to be worse here, and also I know it's bad other places. I'm just trying to convey my emotional state.

[rubytue]

I went to cook breakfast and realized I only have 2 packs of the good ramen left. I am not doing well with this whole cook and feed yourself thing.

[bowies]

I have an interview tomorrow and everything in my being wants to cancel it. I know I don’t want the job and prepping for it is spiking my anxiety. I don’t want to burn bridges with the company though. It’s the timing and the team that is a poor fit for me. My current position is ok in the short term, but outlook is rocky. Advice?

[SusanBAnthony]

Apr 8, 2020 9:20:58 GMT -5 ohgillian said:

I feel like I've been in this "Brace for impact! Brace for impact!" position for weeks. Covid is for now well-controlled in my area, and I'm grateful for that, but it also means that all of this is starting to feel like overkill even though I KNOW IT ISN'T! I believe in science and I absolutely understand that the social distancing is a big part of what's letting things be controlled here. I just mean that my mind is having a hard time with this extended phase of "it's about to be bad." I hope that makes sense and I want to be clear that I do not want things to be worse here, and also I know it's bad other places. I'm just trying to convey my emotional state.

This is where I am at. We have cases here but it's fine. Two weeks ago I thought it would be bad by now but it isn't. Our growth isn't exponential, we are getting 50 new cases a day in the state and have been for 2+ weeks.

So...... We just wait and keep wondering if in another week or will be the same or be out of control.

[lust2hart]

bowies, I would probably cancel. I understand not wanting to burn bridges, but if you know you don't want the job, then you're going to have to say "no" at some point. (Or, I guess, intentionally flub the interview so you don't get an offer.) May as well do it now, especially if prepping for the interview is giving you anxiety.

[smock]

bowies, I'd say do it. It's good practice and it's actually low-stakes since you don't want the job. Especially considering that you might want a position with them down the line, make a good impression now to bank some goodwill. (But I totally understand wanting to cancel; I've want to cancel every single interview I've ever done because I also get anxious.)

[ESF]

Apr 8, 2020 9:41:30 GMT -5 smock said:

bowies , I'd say do it. It's good practice and it's actually low-stakes since you don't want the job. Especially considering that you might want a position with them down the line, make a good impression now to bank some goodwill. (But I totally understand wanting to cancel; I've want to cancel every single interview I've ever done because I also get anxious.)

I'd go with this approach. Then wait a day and send them note thanking them for their time, and saying that you are withdrawing because after further reflection, you feel your skills are better suited for a role that has more X or less of Y are looking for a role. Thank them profusely for their time and say you don't want to waste any more of it, but hope they'll keep you in mind for future opportunities that might be a better match.

[ohgillian]

If you're at home with adequate food supplies, how are you not eating All.The.Food? All I want to do is boredom snack and emotional eat.

[StrawberryBlondie]

Apr 8, 2020 9:20:58 GMT -5 ohgillian said:

I feel like I've been in this "Brace for impact! Brace for impact!" position for weeks. Covid is for now well-controlled in my area, and I'm grateful for that, but it also means that all of this is starting to feel like overkill even though I KNOW IT ISN'T! I believe in science and I absolutely understand that the social distancing is a big part of what's letting things be controlled here. I just mean that my mind is having a hard time with this extended phase of "it's about to be bad." I hope that makes sense and I want to be clear that I do not want things to be worse here, and also I know it's bad other places. I'm just trying to convey my emotional state.

I'm not sure if "well-controlled" describes my area (MN) but a big takeaway from our governor's presser yesterday is that, generally, we are killing it at this social distancing thing and our rate of infection is low and we don't have exponential growth.

He's apparently going to extend our stay-at-home order but with some modifications... I'm really curious what those are going to be since schools and restaurants and places like the zoo are already closed through May 1.

[Saudade]

Apr 8, 2020 10:02:47 GMT -5 StrawberryBlondie said:

Apr 8, 2020 9:20:58 GMT -5 ohgillian said:

I feel like I've been in this "Brace for impact! Brace for impact!" position for weeks. Covid is for now well-controlled in my area, and I'm grateful for that, but it also means that all of this is starting to feel like overkill even though I KNOW IT ISN'T! I believe in science and I absolutely understand that the social distancing is a big part of what's letting things be controlled here. I just mean that my mind is having a hard time with this extended phase of "it's about to be bad." I hope that makes sense and I want to be clear that I do not want things to be worse here, and also I know it's bad other places. I'm just trying to convey my emotional state.

I'm not sure if "well-controlled" describes my area (MN) but a big takeaway from our governor's presser yesterday is that, generally, we are killing it at this social distancing thing and our rate of infection is low and we don't have exponential growth.

He's apparently going to extend our stay-at-home order but with some modifications... I'm really curious what those are going to be since schools and restaurants and places like the zoo are already closed through May 1.

I truly think this is one area where MN nice has helped us!

I really wish they'd just call school for the year. My district is still saying we're going back in May, but what's the point for 3 weeks? They sent everything home so I'm sure part of them is preparing to stay home. 

[meganew]

Apr 8, 2020 10:07:00 GMT -5 Saudade said:

Apr 8, 2020 10:02:47 GMT -5 StrawberryBlondie said:

I'm not sure if "well-controlled" describes my area (MN) but a big takeaway from our governor's presser yesterday is that, generally, we are killing it at this social distancing thing and our rate of infection is low and we don't have exponential growth.

He's apparently going to extend our stay-at-home order but with some modifications... I'm really curious what those are going to be since schools and restaurants and places like the zoo are already closed through May 1.

I truly think this is one area where MN nice has helped us!

I really wish they'd just call school for the year. My district is still saying we're going back in May, but what's the point for 3 weeks? They sent everything home so I'm sure part of them is preparing to stay home. 

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I would love to go back even if it's just for a week! I want to be able to close the school year out with my kids, even if it has nothing to do with academics it will be good for the kids emotional state. There's a lot of unease and upheaval that can have kids rattled right now, and seeing their teachers and friends in a familiar setting might help them feel a little more secure. This is, of course, if the spread is under control and it's a safe option. 

[breezy8407]

Apr 8, 2020 10:07:00 GMT -5 Saudade said:

Apr 8, 2020 10:02:47 GMT -5 StrawberryBlondie said:

I'm not sure if "well-controlled" describes my area (MN) but a big takeaway from our governor's presser yesterday is that, generally, we are killing it at this social distancing thing and our rate of infection is low and we don't have exponential growth.

He's apparently going to extend our stay-at-home order but with some modifications... I'm really curious what those are going to be since schools and restaurants and places like the zoo are already closed through May 1.

I truly think this is one area where MN nice has helped us!

I really wish they'd just call school for the year. My district is still saying we're going back in May, but what's the point for 3 weeks? They sent everything home so I'm sure part of them is preparing to stay home. 

I keep wondering this, too. I wish they would just say it. As hard as it would be, I can't see how opening things up will keep our spread "contained" as it is currently. 

[Velar Fricative]

DH's job security is ironclad but I'm starting to get a little bit worried about my own job. I make more than DH (although he makes a very good salary too). My employer is fully funded through 6/30 and we are on solid financial footing in general, but then our new fiscal year begins and de Blasio just shared his prelim city budget and obviously we (and pretty much every other city-funded agency or institution) are going to see some cuts. Our buildings will still exist (and I manage the services in some of those buildings) so I think I should be okay (plus, we become more used during bad economic times), but there's obviously a lot of fear. Our hourly workers (mostly part-time student workers) will stop getting paid later this month until we reopen so that rattled people.

[ohgillian]

Apr 8, 2020 10:17:13 GMT -5 breezy8407 said:

Apr 8, 2020 10:07:00 GMT -5 Saudade said:

I truly think this is one area where MN nice has helped us!

I really wish they'd just call school for the year. My district is still saying we're going back in May, but what's the point for 3 weeks? They sent everything home so I'm sure part of them is preparing to stay home. 

I keep wondering this, too. I wish they would just say it. As hard as it would be, I can't see how opening things up will keep our spread "contained" as it is currently. 

Same. I can't imagine we'll really go back May 15 when the school year was scheduled to end early June. Although I can imagine that we'll go back May 15 and maybe go thru the summer? All the uncertainty of these days is challenging. 

[TBM]

Apr 8, 2020 9:50:00 GMT -5 ohgillian said:

If you're at home with adequate food supplies, how are you not eating All.The.Food? All I want to do is boredom snack and emotional eat.

My anxiety related stomach knot has kind of messed with my appetite. Between that and the concern that we will run of of food, I just haven't been snacking much. .

I think my tea consumption is up, and that's one of those things that cuts back my appetite too.

I also don't have kids around, and DH's snacking usually doesn't make me want anything, because we have very different snacking styles

[StrawberryBlondie]

Apr 8, 2020 10:07:00 GMT -5 Saudade said:

Apr 8, 2020 10:02:47 GMT -5 StrawberryBlondie said:

I'm not sure if "well-controlled" describes my area (MN) but a big takeaway from our governor's presser yesterday is that, generally, we are killing it at this social distancing thing and our rate of infection is low and we don't have exponential growth.

He's apparently going to extend our stay-at-home order but with some modifications... I'm really curious what those are going to be since schools and restaurants and places like the zoo are already closed through May 1.

I truly think this is one area where MN nice has helped us!

I really wish they'd just call school for the year. My district is still saying we're going back in May, but what's the point for 3 weeks? They sent everything home so I'm sure part of them is preparing to stay home. 

The running joke I've heard is "6 feet? That's a little close.."

[madDawg228]

My company's IT dept had some issues with our server yesterday, so it was more like a half-day work day. I used it as a mental health break, and it was so nice.
The quarantine taking place between the longest time between paid time-off holidays of the year (Presidents Day to Memorial Day), really sucks. M-F has become so bleak and monotonous, with no "break" until the end of May.

[Saudade]

Apr 8, 2020 10:32:57 GMT -5 StrawberryBlondie said:

Apr 8, 2020 10:07:00 GMT -5 Saudade said:

I truly think this is one area where MN nice has helped us!

I really wish they'd just call school for the year. My district is still saying we're going back in May, but what's the point for 3 weeks? They sent everything home so I'm sure part of them is preparing to stay home. 

The running joke I've heard is "6 feet? That's a little close.."

hah I love it!

[rubytue]

Coworker sent out one of those “just laugh” and “be positive” emails. I went all cancer patient and gave a short talk on toxic positivity and how it’s OK to be not OK.

Clearly this day is going well. Ugh