I have lost 33 lbs since Jan. 1. I still have 27 to go to get back into a healthy weight ranges, but I can already feel the differences really happy with my progress.
I had a minor panic attack this morning while still in bed. No idea what triggered it and luckily I was able to remember to breathe and it passed super quickly. I'm extremely lucky my dog was right there because she was a helpful calming presence while bathing me with kisses. DH had already left and DD was still asleep as it was at 6:30 right before my alarm would go off. Yesterday was a hard day. So far today is going better.
DD learned new math on her own yesterday. 20x4 but was stuck when it went to 24x5. She had a social zoom school class scheduled this morning. Last night I messaged her teacher asking if someone could give her a 10 minute lesson. Her teacher who was so excited to get to teach a person she did a 1 on 1 with DD this morning and DD got it super fast.
I'm debating a "social distance playdate" with beau and his son. The weather is supposed to be sunny and beautiful this weekend. His family has a private beach we can go to and keep the kids super spaced out - way more than 6 feet - and draw lines in the sand to make it easy for them to stay apart and have them all wear masks. The only reason I'm kind considering it is because beau and I see each other weekly, so if we were carriers of anything, the kids would be exposed because of that already. I would never consider it with a school friend or someone else that we're not already in contact with. But I'm still feeling really torn about it. Which doesn't make sense to me, because this won't change anything anymore than what we're already doing. I think logically I know that this doesn't change our current quarantine/exposure situation, but I still feel like I'm doing something wrong by getting them together. So, it'll be a game time decision.
twinmomma- logically you’re right but I probably still wouldn’t since his ex has already been pretty weird and yours is a jerk. I’m sure it’s perfectly safe, but the politics of it would be bad.
mommyatty, Ya, I think that's part of my hesitation. I don't want his ex to lose her mind - although she got so sick of him "invading her space" she told him he's allowed to take his son back to his house now instead of forcing beau to stay in her guest room to see him. Apparently her fears of contamination disappeared once it became personally inconvenient... *insert eyeroll* And while my ex has been particularly nasty and unreliable lately, this is one thing I actually don't think he'd care that much about. But it would mean interacting with him to tell him.
Plus, I'm a super rule follower and this feels like breaking the rule about staying home.
Post by librarychica on Apr 23, 2020 16:59:32 GMT -5
I had a minor meltdown about uncertainty today. I have been holding off on booking camps for most of the summer since schools closed. The place we usually spend half the summer is booked full. One week I hear I am potentially expected back in the office on June 1, the next I hear make a plan with your departments to telecommute all summer. It’s been over 5 weeks and my patience for uncertainty is worn thin! I need a crystal ball to tell me — do I book summer camps or not?!?!?!
Current stance: going to book for very late June through the end of August and just wing early/mid June.
Post by covergirl82 on Apr 23, 2020 19:34:56 GMT -5
It's hard to get up in the mornings with all the days being the same. I feel like there is nothing to look forward to. The cold weather and not going outside much to get sunshine is probably making things worse. (And I'm not at risk of hurting myself, but I am feeling depressed.)
We just did a car parade for DD’s teacher and it was so NICE to see people, even from afar.
We did a birthday parade for a classmate and SAME. I almost cried!
And also...one of our cats has disappeared! The indoor one that NEVER goes out and if he does stays right by the back door. I'm wondering if he got sick of us and left.... the kids scootered around the neighborhood asking everyone about him. DD made a crayon drawing poster of him : (
It's hard to get up in the mornings with all the days being the same. I feel like there is nothing to look forward to. The cold weather and not going outside much to get sunshine is probably making things worse. (And I'm not at risk of hurting myself, but I am feeling depressed.)
I'm with you. I just feel... Dread? Getting up a lot of mornings. I know the day will be long and hard and more if the same. Sorry you're feeling the same way. Sunny days definitely help compared to clouds and rain and snow.
Do you have access to telehealth counseling? I'm going to start seeing my therapist again via video calls next week.
covergirl82, twinmomma - add me to that list. I find myself sleeping later and later, staying up later and later. I’m trying to be a little active, but the weather forecast shows cold and rain for most of the next week. Kids go back to distance learning next week, and the fighting will ramp up. DH will continue his crazy hours, I will continue my scramble. The kids need more and more of us since school got canceled, and DH is worn out most days, so it’s all on me.
I’m trying so hard to stay organized, but now we are having the floors done, so we moved all of the furniture out of the family room / kitchen area and into... anywhere we could fit it. I’m surrounded by stuff. I can’t stand it!!
Sounds like we are all in the same boat emotionaly. This is part of the reason why I don't think long term social distancing will work. More and more people falling into depression. I don't think as a human race we do well with this kind of lifestyle. We thrive being part of a community.
I am struggling myself and I've mentioned before that I am not prone to anxiety and depression and yet I am finding each day harder than previous. For the people who do struggle I imagine that this is awful. I hope that this opens the eyes of people like me to the struggles of people who suffer depression and anxiety on a regular basis. It's not really something someone can understand until they have been in it.
My dad and grandmother suffered from very deep depression, so I am hyper aware. I've handled this pretty well so far. However, Dh is working this weekend and the weather is supposed to be terrible, so I am concerned getting through. So far I've been able to stay busy with cooking, cleaning, yardwork, bonfires. If I'm busy, I'm good.
My dad and grandmother suffered from very deep depression, so I am hyper aware. I've handled this pretty well so far. However, Dh is working this weekend and the weather is supposed to be terrible, so I am concerned getting through. So far I've been able to stay busy with cooking, cleaning, yardwork, bonfires. If I'm busy, I'm good.
My problem is I am too busy and there is nothing I can do about it. I am great on time management, but right now I feel everything spiraling out of control and I am barely staying afloat.
I really need daycare. I cannot be a good mother and a good employee at the same time. With H out town for the next few months I never get a reprieve.
My dad and grandmother suffered from very deep depression, so I am hyper aware. I've handled this pretty well so far. However, Dh is working this weekend and the weather is supposed to be terrible, so I am concerned getting through. So far I've been able to stay busy with cooking, cleaning, yardwork, bonfires. If I'm busy, I'm good.
My problem is I am too busy and there is nothing I can do about it. I am great on time management, but right now I feel everything spiraling out of control and I am barely staying afloat.
I really need daycare. I cannot be a good mother and a good employee at the same time. With H out town for the next few months I never get a reprieve.
xctsclrx, I think we're all feeling that way. I'm sorry you're dealing with it all on your own with no reprieve.
I found out yesterday that Sitter City offers virtual babysitting now. You basically pay a babysitter to sit on Zoom with your kids and keep them distracted and engaged for a little while so you don't have to. Would something like that work to help you balance work and the kids?
DH and I have been pretty down here too. The weather has been rainy and cool for the past few days and it looks like it will stay that way through the weekend. I'm getting anxiety just thinking about it. When the weather is nice, we can kick the kids outside to play and we can kind of take a break. We've been doing hikes on some local trails the past few weekends and the kids really enjoyed it. I still see my therapist once a month and that appointment is coming up next weekend. Knowing that I have that appointment keeps me going.
rere, I've kind of been breaking the quarantine because I'm very concerned about my dad's mental health right now. He's retired, my mom still works full time, and he's home stuck in the house by himself all day. I have one sister that lives 5 minutes away from him, but she and all 4 of her kids have terrible asthma, so she's sticking to the protocol and staying away. He doesn't have a ton of friends, so not a lot of phone contact. So I've been making the 35 minute drive 3-4 times a week with my kids to see him during the day. My mother has been texting me regularly to tell me how much they both appreciate me coming (which is... not the norm).
I'm also prone to anxiety and depression. I do not do well on medication, so I figure out other things that work. Long walks, time by myself to be quiet, sunshine, cooking/baking... all hard to come by right now. Solidarity!
Post by traveltheworld on Apr 24, 2020 10:06:30 GMT -5
twinmomma, a friend of mine recommended Outschool - it's basically Zoom on-line classes taught by hundreds of teachers on any topic you want. I tried it this week and it has been great! For DD, I signed her up for a daily circle time - it's 30 minutes a day and they just sing songs and listen to a story; but the fact that someone else is interacting with her makes all the difference. And DS loves his classes. So far he has done 2 science ones and a creative writing one. He hates writing, so the fact that he liked the creative writing one has been a pleasant surprise.
We are lucky in that DH is unemployed so he has been spending a lot more time with the kids. My work has totally been crazy though so I've been working around the clock and feel like I'm missing out on all the fun stuff, but at least I'm able to concentrate so I can't complain too much.
So apparently amid all this coronavirus stuff, the FTC passed some legislation that is going to make DH's worklife and schedule a mess for the foreseeable future. Yay?
My friend is coming over this afternoon for a social distancing walk (she'll walk on the sidewalk, I'll walk in the street with the parkway strip between us and >6 feet distance), and I have another planned for Sunday. These walks breath life into me more than all the zoom happy hours combined ever could.
twinmomma , hahahaha, no My kids are 5 and almost 2. that would be the biggest waste of money ever.
xctsclrx , do you have any ability to hire one of the closed daycare workers, or another babysitter? We are using our closed daycare provider, who has also been self isolating, a few mornings a week, and it has ben a lifesaver in terms of getting our work done with our 3 kids at home. I think my 7 and 6 year olds we could handle while working, but not the 2-year-old boy. It's a potential health trade-off I'm willing to take.
Post by sandandsea on Apr 29, 2020 10:47:26 GMT -5
We have ds signed up for one outskool class a week. He did one on extreme sharks and Minecraft chemistry. He really likes it but it’s about $15/hour class and I still have to set it up, deal with connection issues, etc so it’s not exactly a set and go for the younger kids (he’s 8 and tech savvy). But I do get about half an hour from it and he loves the classes.