Whine. Sadly, not wine.

[k3am]

I am feeling particularly crummy right now. Work sucks. Home sucks. My one bright thing to look forward to got cancelled. "School" is going to be a massive shitfuckclusterfuck of complete shitty shittiness that comes at an expensive price tag if I intend to keep working (basically having to pay daycare to supervise distance learning) that I'm already confident is not going to go well, and overall just feeling UGHy.

Anyone else?

[phdmomma]

k3am , Yes. I miss my office and the quiet of my office. Having all of us home (even with a nanny) for months on end is not good for my mental health. This was the first year that we weren't supposed to have to pay daycare, just aftercare for both kids, because they would be in school. Guess not, will hire a few college students as nannies to cover everything that can be covered. I am just so tired of it all, and want to escape to a quiet place to work.

[rere]

Same. Found out today that one of my favorite coworkers is leaving. The one I would bust into her office and unload. Such a loss for us. I am contemplating asking for her job. I don't think I would like it because I would be in the office every day, currently I spend most of my time in schools, at meetings, programs, during non Covid times. However, it would get me away from my supervisor.

[mae0111]

DH and I have been thinking about buying a vacation home, but we can’t agree on the location. A seacoast beach within a 1.5-2 hour drive is $$$$. So we started looking a lakefront property, which is a much longer drive and we wouldn’t be able to use it as much.

DH has taken it a step further. He found a place that he loooooves - 50’ of lakefront, dock, huge and remodeled... and it’s a 15 min drive from his brother. So every trip would be like our last vacation. 😳👍

Also, we still have no clue what fall will look like. Our public school saw a draft of their plan, and told everyone that, while the plan is not final, there is just not enough space to bring everyone back full time. They’re even leasing space in a school that closed last month. Still can’t bring everyone back. So I’m anxiously awaiting the principal’s decision.

Eta: Also, my children and their friends are physically incapable of closing a door or drawer. All drawers in bedrooms are open at all times. We have 4 access points to get outside. They’re in and out all day. They never close a door once it’s opened. Heat index today is 103° and I’m screaming like my dad for people to CLOSE THE DOOR BECAUSE WE ARENT TRYING TO COOL THE WHOLE NEIGHBORHOOD!!!

[twinmomma]

Yup. I'm a mess. Between quarantine, birthday feels/triggers, and beau's ex completing screwing with our schedules, I feel like I'm a totally unproductive puddle. I just want a hug. From anyone. But I can't.

[hocus2]

I am hugely on edge all the time. I worry about decisions. Sending the kids to camp was the right decision for their mental health but what about catching covid? What about school? What is the right choice? What is the ethical choice?

I really miss having any sense of normalcy. I have been fighting with DH and we very rarely fight. I feel like I so much to think about and manage and I never get any time to recharge and feel like I am taking care of myself.

[mae0111]

twinmomma - im sorry. Sending you virtual hugs.

[twinmomma]

Jul 28, 2020 13:14:49 GMT -5 mae0111 said:

Eta: Also, my children and their friends are physically incapable of closing a door or drawer. All drawers in bedrooms are open at all times. We have 4 access points to get outside. They’re in and out all day. They never close a door once it’s opened. Heat index today is 103° and I’m screaming like my dad for people to CLOSE THE DOOR BECAUSE WE ARENT TRYING TO COOL THE WHOLE NEIGHBORHOOD!!!

Oh. Is that not what everyone's bedroom looks like? Don't come look at mine. 

[waverly]

The Holderness video (the one called School Decision at the top of their page) is how I feel about all this- waves hands. www.facebook.com/TheHoldernessfamily/

[mae0111]

twinmomma - I care less about the bedrooms and more about the kitchen, where every cabinet and drawer is open. Or random drawers are open so I can’t open doors. Or the fridge. No one seems to like to close the fridge. They’re going to burn out our new beverage fridge because they don’t close the door.

I literally can’t walk in DD1’s room right now. I tried to go on and get laundry and nearly killed myself. Also couldn’t get in because if the closet door is open, the bedroom door only opens a couple of inches. She has not closed the closet door in the 7 years since we’ve lived here.

[twinmomma]

mae0111, Also sounds like my room. I am admittedly a terrible, terrible housekeeper. I exhaust what little housekeeping energy I have on the living spaces that other people see. My bedroom looks like a teenager's, full of laundry, outfits I considered wearing and took off strewn about, bed generally unmade. I just... don't care. Every couple weeks I overhaul it and then it ends up right back where I started.

waverly, Yup. All of it. Our decision is made. Kids are back full time. It's happening. But I still spiral on all the what ifs.

[callmekd]

DS woke up coughing and crying last night. runny nose this morning. DH and I had the "should we send him?" conversation this morning and texted daycare to get her opinion.

of course, I'm planning to take the kids to my parents on Thursday (2 hours away) to swim, etc. sigh.

[mae0111]

twinmomma - I’m not a great housekeeper either, to be honest. I’m ok at picking up, Terrible at actual cleaning. But for some reason, open drawers and closet/cabinet doors drive me nuts. Also open external doors. They love leaving outside doors open. When it’s 100°, when it’s 0°. When it’s dusk and every bug alive wants to come in the house. When it’s late fall and the chipmunks and field mice are looking for winter homes. ALL DOORS OPEN 24/7 😂😂

[k3am]

mae0111, my kids are either leaving every door/drawer open or slamming them with all their might. There is no middle ground.

[mae0111]

k3am - all tantrums and timeouts are punctuated with a slam. Once released back into the wild, all the doors open.

[mustardseed2007]

I started drinking wine at 4:45pm while I still had a lease amendment to do. Nevertheless, I got it done. I only had a few swallows.

Today sucked. Although honestly I solved so many problems for other people today. My brain is now fried.

And now the AG just said health officials don't have the authority to close schools. Well. Thank you Mr. AG.

Also we canceled our disney vacation in September. If we had gone we would have had to quarantine the kids from school, if school was open. And if its virtual, I have some kindergartner families who want to do a pod instead. But how do I tell them we're going to Disney world?

Honestly, it might not be smart but I would LOVE the chance to have a weird, masked disney vacation right now.

k3am, I'm so so so sorry.

[mommyatty]

mustardseed2007- I read the AG’s letter. A not very bright first year law student could shoot holes in his reasoning. It’s that bad. Under his interpretation, public health officials have the right to pick their own noses but other than that have zero powers. It’s ridiculous.

[sdlaura]

I’m sorry k3am! I’m having a particularly hard time lately with all the new information that I feel like is constantly flying at me. I feel like I can’t plan on anything at all. Like with your trip - you thought it was set and suddenly it’s off.

Like we planned on private school, then Newsom said they can’t open. Then we find a teacher and she agrees to a rate, then comes back and wants more. Now we keep going back and forth on cash vs going through the whole payroll process - school starts in less than 3 weeks and I’m constantly worried she’s going to bail.

The one weird little thing that’s lifting my spirits the last couple days is that I was trying to figure out the best way to give away my maternity clothes and someone suggested I join our local Buy Nothing Facebook group. I’m having the best time giving stuff away to people who actually want it. In the past two days, local people have picked up maternity clothes, baby clothes, ovulation and pregnancy tests, and a floor covering. It makes me happy that the recipients are happy and it feels good to declutter/control anything at all in my life right now!

[sandandsea]

Ugh. We were all set to pay for private school but they want DS1 to work with a private tutor to get caught up and retest at Christmas. They are more than a year ahead of public schools and DS would revolt against a tutor so I think that private school is out for DS1 but DS2 will stay there for pre-K. And his public school will be awful and isn’t giving out class assignments until a few days before school starts leaving no time to form pods beforehand. And they won’t take any feedback into class assignments so we can pod with families we are comfortable sharing a tutor with. I’m annoyed.

[sdlaura]

That’s annoying sandandsea. We requested classmates and teachers. Of course they won’t guarantee anything but at least said they’d take requests into account. Fingers crossed.

I have convinced myself too that it wouldn’t be horrible to have the kids on slightly different schedules - because then the teacher could work with them more one-on-one if the kids have synchronous/asynchronous sessions at different times. It’s just more for her to manage...but we are paying her $50 an hour...

I am hoping there are t synchronous sessions after lunch (in person school days here end at 2:20). Because we only have the teacher till noon and we plan to do camps/babysitters in the afternoons.

[vasc]

DH and I are using our final days and weeks of summer to tear out poison ivy vines from our backyard woods. It’s been very cathartic to go back there and just start ripping out shit when the news/school/COVID overwhelms us.

[mustardseed2007]

vasc,what pretty woods!

[sandandsea]

So tonight is the night Dh finally started to realize and worry about DL and realizes how hopeless the situation is. And he was Already in such a crappy mood before this revelation hit. I’m sitting there like “dude. Welcome to March. This is how 2020 is gonna roll. Where you been?”

[mommyatty]

Whelp, DH has a fever. So now I’m sleeping on the sofa. Or more accurately I’m lying on the sofa watching Netflix and freaking out. He got a shot in his knee today and known symptoms are fever, chills, and headache, all of which he has. I may still make him go get tested but I’m sure he’s going to argue with me. 

[mae0111]

This week has been a tough week. Kids are really needy, but also really defiant. Lots of screaming, then demanding that I take them someplace. It’s been unbearably hot here, and everyone has short tempers.

I don’t want to get out of bed and face the day. I want to stay here, in the dark, and let today pass by.

[erinshelley21]

This week is dragging. School starts for DS next week and then DD goes the following Monday. We got school shopping finished up yesterday so I feel prepared.

My SIL is pushing my buttons again and Without diving into some novel of a story, its going to result in me picking DD up from school everyday at 11:30 and likely having to pick DS up 1-2 days at 2:45. I can't rely on DH to do it because he is gone 3 days a week and his other 2 part time jobs are getting ready to start again. So my hopes of going back to working 8:30-4:00 are gone.

DS's principal quit last week. She took another job. SIL is also bitchy about that and its because the interim principal is a teacher that would call niece out for not following rules. I really hope this pissing match between them doesn't trickle down and affect my kids since its such a small school full of extended families.

[campermom]

I just want to say again that I heart all you ladies and you have been so incredibly helpful to me these days.

I’m sorry we are all going through so much shit. I feel like it’s been really helpful that I’ve had other women to turn to who get it. Thanks for giving me advice kindly, it’s been really validating.

[polecat8]

Big school board meeting was last night.
In-person schooling will be hybrid for the first nine weeks. This means kids will be in one of two groups. Group A goes M/W, Group B goes Tu/Th. Asynchronous learning on the other three days.
Parents can also choose 100% remote option, but the lessons are not live.
The complete details will be released today and parents have until the end of next week to decide.

Within an hour of the meeting, people were losing their minds on facebook. They were tearing the school officials apart asking "why can't they..." on every little thing. Their coronavirus committee has been working many long hours and conferring with as many experts, parents, and other local school officials to come up with a plan. The committee was able to thoughtfully answer every question the school board and public could throw at them, which tells me that they considered every option possible.

But please, Susan, tell us how you can change the world with the snap of your fingers.

[twinmomma]

mommyatty, I hope it's just a side effect of the shot! Maybe give it a day or so to see? I'd probably want him to go get tested regardless though just for peace of mind. Although my peace of mind led to me being locked in my house for 14 days anyway.

mae0111, I can't with this heat. I do not want to live in a hot place like this. This summer has been brutal so far. I'd love to be spending some of this time at home resting outside on my comfy patio couch, but it's too damn hot.

[mommyatty]

DH is mostly better. Fever now under 100. He says he feels better. I’m sure he’s not going to cooperate with isolating.

And as I typed that he walked into the kitchen.