Its Friday right?

[xctsclrx]

I am struggling today. I don't have a good reason. Nothing major is going on. I think it is just all the little things piling up. Looking forwad to the weekend but already exhausted by it. I think that is my main issue. I am exhausted not phyiscally, but with this never ending feeling of the next thing that I have to do.

[twinmomma]

Thank god.
I had a 7:15 telemed call today to get a prescription. I forgot to set my alarm, so I woke up at 7:05, ran downstairs un-showered and in pajamas to hop on the call. And then my doctor was 45 minutes late. Finally made it through that, got myself ready for work, and the pharmacy called to let me know that insurance won't fill the prescription, the doctor has to call it in this special way with different doses to actually get it covered. So now I'm playing phone tag to get that situation resolved. It's a good thing this a low dose of an anti-depressant and I'm still high functioning and motivated to get the help, otherwise I'd have totally given up on this process already.

[waverly]

Add me to the struggle bus. I’m working from home today. So far I managed to get DH angry asking about the kids Chromebook because I think he lost the cord the school gave us (which didn’t work it was for the wrong computer). Why take it out on me that he lost the cord though?

I keep waiting for the shoe to drop and school go online but they are trying hard to avoid it. I’d rather know now so I can plan. Multiple shoes are dropping at work as people quarantine for various reasons (sinus infection, travel and possible Covid exposure). On top of that 5 people want Christmas off. I mean obviously we are closed for the holiday but those 4 days aren’t enough for them. I have a staff of 6 in that department, so yeah.

One of them always asks for more and more crap at the worst possible moment like asks for accommodations when she has been home for 3 months doing nothing getting paid the whole time during the shutdown. She’s the type that’s never happy, and I wish she would just move on. Often times the stuff she asks for comes across angry and resentful and contradicts herself. Like asks for more hours than immediately takes 2 weeks off.

My boss is pushing reviews. Would it be terrible to email them and just say stop by my office to sign? The two people I’m talking to all have high marks and nothing more needs to be said outside the form. It’s just a formality.

[rere]

+1 for the struggle bus. My stomach is feels off, this has been going on periodically for months. It's never been entirely back to normal since my gallbladder surgery, but this is extra, so now I'm spirally on why. DS has been, not easy to deal with, the last few months. The last month of school was a struggle, his truck is in a state of flux, but he insists this is what he wants, yet we are not sinking more money. Him finding a job is difficult because they are scarce, and I don't want him around the public right now, so that pretty much leaves everything out. Last night he was supposed to do something for his club and blew it off. His teacher set me a message and I blew. I have had it. He could be worse, but he has had his head up his nether regions for a while.

We are supposed to go to a small backyard cookout tomorrow. However, I think we may skip. One of DS's classmates has tested positive. Ds wasn't around him, but his friends were. This stuff never ends.

[k3am]

Well, I was going to post a photo of our view of the ocean from our room, but Tapatalk doesn’t like that idea. It’s fabulous though, I promise.

We did a Napa wine tasting day on Wednesday before heading down yesterday. We got a surprise sunny afternoon in the high sixties yesterday, it’s supposed to be cloudy in the mid sixties the rest of our stay. That will not stop my kids from making our pool reservations and splashing in the ocean.. and therefore me doing the same. Brrr.

Also, Friday brag? DH took a photo of me yesterday and my abs are totally visible. Coronavirus for the win? They’ll disappear after this indulgent week.

[sandandsea]

We are driving home from vacation today and I’m the idiot that got a fish hook caught in my finger so had to go to urgent care to get it removed and am at the pharmacy to get antibiotics. Ugh. Not the best way to start the long drive home.

And the poor boys freaked out when I got hooked and yelled “ahhhhh!!!!!”. Ds1 came around after he realized I was okay and became a super helper. He’s so responsible in emergency situations.

[mellym]

It's supposed to warm up this weekend to high 80s so we will be watering grass and painting the basement. Kids will play in the yard and pool. Also, getting last minute details set for our vacation in one week.

[twinmomma]

I think the girls and I have decided we're going to spend some time this weekend cleaning out the spare room that we currently use as a "playroom" so that it's ready for beau and his son to move in at some point. It's basically full of toys that the kids barely ever use. I can organize and move the art supplies and board games that do get used into the office with no real issue. Plus, my exSIL will be in town this weekend and can pick up all these toys that we don't need anymore for her young kids. I have all kind of feels about the fact that my kids are old enough to not really need a "playroom" anymore. It's like the end of an era.

House hunting is going to be a nightmare based on the current market, so we've been discussing just all living here for the interim. Beau offered to do some projects around here to fix it up before I sell it (nothing major, but things that will help with resale) and we don't have to feel rushed to settle for a house because of low inventory.

[mae0111]

So... we made an offer on a beach house today. The house itself is a hot mess but the location can’t be beat. There are already 2 offers on the table, so I doubt we will get it... but it’s nice to dream!!

[186momx]

I also have motivation issues and just feeling yuck. DD is having a sleepover with my sister so I'm kid free for over 24 hours and all I want to do is take a nap.
Helping a neighbor replace some rotted T11 siding today so the house can get painted. Paint guys were going to do it for 2K but the neighbors can't afford it. We helped price it out and for $600 in material it will be all done.

[mae0111]

You guys... this week was a tough week. DD2 has had terrible behavior since finishing up meds for Lyme. Like, she’s a totally different kid. DD1 is just being herself, so my house was in chaos if they were here. They had a 1/2 day camp this week, and I spent the time racing around to prep for their big camping trip with DH and cousins. So no real time to myself, knowing that I would have a break starting tomorrow.

Well, behavior was so awful that we told them that they can’t go camping. DH is still going. So after the sh!tty beach vacation that was taken over by his family, my solo break is gone. I’m not mad at DH - I can’t be. He’s worked so hard and he needs a break and time to be with his friends. But OMG I needed a break too.

I want to cry. And to book a long weekend away. But I can’t do either right now.

[sdlaura]

mae0111 I would totally still let them go camping despite their behavior - let your husband deal with it so you can have a break!

[mae0111]

Aug 8, 2020 17:27:59 GMT -5 sdlaura said:

mae0111 I would totally still let them go camping despite their behavior - let your husband deal with it so you can have a break!

It’s a HUGE reward for TERRIBLE behavior. DH wants to take them - he’s really sad. Like, really sad. But it’s not fair to anyone to send them while they’re acting like this. It’s a big group that goes... and all they’ll hear is arguing and whining.

I’m booking a hotel room for myself for the weekend after he comes back. He’s already (and immediately) agreed. I need to go away.

[phdmomma]

Add me to people on the struggle bus. I am not handling the stress of the pandemic well. I’m not sleeping well and my acid issues are kicking it up a notch. I’ve been working out which helps somewhat, because then I sleep somewhat better. I had a MRSA skin infection and that has only happened before when things are not going well. But, I think that I might need a therapist or at least someone in the mental health field to talk to. So, how do you find a therapist? Start with insurance?

[waverly]

Yes, I looked up therapists on my insurance webpage. It was way before the pandemic. Nowadays, there are more telehealth options as well. Another option is your Employee Assistance Program- usually you get a set amount for free.

[twinmomma]

phdmomma
I found mine through the EAP at work. I was able to get a list through there and then look them up to see who I thought might be a good fit. I started there because I got a few free appointments through that program to start.
After my free EAP appointments ran out insurance covered her. Right now through my insurance copays are free because it's telemed and they're waiving a bunch of copays due to covid.

[mae0111]

phdmomma - I found mine here: www.psychologytoday.com/us/therapists

Figuring out insurance is a little tougher on this site. So you’d have to go person by person to figure it out.

Good luck!

[erbear]

Aug 8, 2020 14:39:28 GMT -5 mae0111 said:

You guys... this week was a tough week. DD2 has had terrible behavior since finishing up meds for Lyme. Like, she’s a totally different kid. DD1 is just being herself, so my house was in chaos if they were here. They had a 1/2 day camp this week, and I spent the time racing around to prep for their big camping trip with DH and cousins. So no real time to myself, knowing that I would have a break starting tomorrow.

Well, behavior was so awful that we told them that they can’t go camping. DH is still going. So after the sh!tty beach vacation that was taken over by his family, my solo break is gone. I’m not mad at DH - I can’t be. He’s worked so hard and he needs a break and time to be with his friends. But OMG I needed a break too.

I want to cry. And to book a long weekend away. But I can’t do either right now.

Have you looked into PANS or PANDAS? What you’re describing sounds like my daughters experience with it and I know it’s linked to Lymes.

[mae0111]

erbear / I had no idea that PANS/PANDAS was linked to Lyme. I had my older daughter tested because she had a ton of strep before we had her tonsils taken out. I was planning to call her dr for bloodwork for the Lyme tomorrow. I will see what she says. Thank you!!