I'm glad I've found you guys

[amberlyrose]

Reading some of the anxiety and depression threads has made me realize my mood swings are NOT normal.

Last night, I went from lovey dovey and "let's not eat dinner and have sex instead" to full on melt down because H said something about how he likes how happy I am after the end of my period. ^o) I then made a big to-do about him noticing my mood swings and somehow ended up on thinking I'm going to be a bad mom and not be happy in life and and and.. it was ridiculous. I'm sure he just sat there while I cried on the bed thinking I was crazy.
Last night was the tame night this last week.

I'm not sure if its period related, something I need to talk to a therapist about, or a multitude of other things. I just know I can't keep living like this and H probably won't want to live with me like this either. I wasn't like this before and it just seems to be getting worse every year. Things that used to make me happy give me anxiety.

I've always thought my dad had depression and I'm starting to see those same signs in me, and I'm scared. I used to think there was a huge stigma around ADs and therapy, so getting to this point is a little hard.

I plan on finding a therapist next week. Thank you to everyone who has shared their own stories on here.

[julez]

I'm really sorry that you're dealing with this. It totally sucks. Good for you for taking the first step to make things better. We're here if you need us! Good luck.

[Deleted]

I feel the same way. I love this group!!!

And hugs to you. I would def talk to your doctor. I had a friend who had severe depression around her period. The doctors helped her. Good luck

[soleil]

I can relate to all this. My DH has an awesome habit of blurting out something unflattering during happy/normal interactions that end up pissing me off and ruining the moment.

I've had noticable mood swings since I started college. They're not as dramatic since I got on birth control pills though. DH said I can be really hard to deal with because of this though. My mom has depression and anxiety issues and is just generally unhappy and I'm afraid I'm turning into her.

I'm trying to find a therapist right now too.

[amberlyrose]

[walterismydog]

I've been through some similar stuff. Just know you're not alone and you can get through this. If you ever want to just talk to someone who isn't like your fam/bff/etc, let me know. I'm happy to meet up with you anytime if I'm in town/not working. Seriously. And I'm a really good listener.

[partiallysunny]

I'm glad you've decided to seek help. Good luck.

[amberlyrose]

Aww, thank you walter. We should get coffee or a drink sometime, anyway.

[walterismydog]

I agree! sending you a pm in a sec