Does this sound like PPD?

[atouchofklasse]

Hugs. You've been through a lot.

[Deleted]

If you're feeling off, talk to someone. There are things to check (like your thyroid function, which can be whacked out post partum) and there are therapies aside from Zoloft and drugs if you're not at the point where that's what you want.

Be kind to yourself.

[Deleted]

Physical problems plus Sandy would make anyone feel terrible but if you want to talk to someone about your feelings I think you should. Hang in there.

[Deleted]

I would definitely bring it up with your physician. Better to speak up with your concerns than let something go untreated. Any one of those things alone would put you at risk for depression; put together, yeah I'd say you might have an elevated risk for PPD.

Take care of yourself sweetheart; you've been through so much!

[booyah]

It sounds like PPD to me. I struggled with it after the birth of my first, I felt fat and I also had an episotomy (I found out after the fact that they are outdated medically and most hospitals don't do them at all anymore.) My episotomy caused a year of painful sex, I was on different medications like Premarin I think it was. I'm still resentful about it. Nursing didn't didn't go well, which further made me feel like a failure because my own mother couldn't understand what was so difficult about nursing. Add in sleep deprivation and cue up the daily cryfest. My husband deployed for a year when she was 8 months old and I spent the next year (seriously) crying any time I was in private. I'm sure others had no idea what I was going through, but as soon as I got home from work and all weekend, I was....not happy. I tried Zoloft, it didn't work for me. I never tried other antidepressants because I eventually did get the hang of nursing and they weren't safe. When she was nearly 2 was when I started feeling normal again.
I've had 2 more babies since then, a nearly 3 year old and a 1 week old. With my 3 year old I was dreading her birth because I didn't think I could do that again. But....I didn't feel like that. And now with my newborn I also don't feel that way. And we just found out my husband is leaving for another year come July.
So if you are crying a lot and laying in bed a lot, I think it is more than just normal physical discomfort. I think it is PPD. I wish I knew more what could get rid of it instead of time, since nothing worked for me, although i only tried Zoloft and counseling.
I'm sorry to hear about the weight loss struggles. I know what you mean. After my second child, 2 strangers asked me 4 months post partum when my baby was due. I tried WW, which worked to some extent, but then also started running. Running is how I lost the weight. It sucked though. Now I'm needing to start it again soon. :-( Good luck, and lots of hugs.

[sunshineluv]

I still wonder if my ppd was really depression or just lack of sleep. But, I took Zoloft for a few months, and felt like my old self again. I have no regrets about it. Life seemed very overwhelming and just crappy, for a while. I hope you get to feeling better soon.

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It doesn't sound like what I went through but that doesn't mean it is not PPD.

Talk to a trusted medical professional either for an evaluation or for a referral to someone who is qualified to evaluate you. It can only help.

[satama]

I think you should talk to your doctor. It could be PPD or might just be feeling crappy from being in a crappy situation right now. Hope you are feeling better soon.

[crazygame]

The thing about PPD is that it doesn't manifest itself the same in everyone. I wasn't sad, I was angry. As someone who doesn't normally get upset about stuff, it was very out of character for me to be so rageful. If you don't feel like yourself, no matter how that is showing up in your situation, talk to someone about it. I didn't take drugs, but therapy has been a lifesaver for me.

I am sorry you are having a rough time. Please seek some help and know that you are not alone. Also, be honest with your husband. I tried to hide it, because I thought it made me look weak. It wasn't the right thing to do.

[imimahoney]

PPD can present itself in many different ways depending on the person and situation. I didn't have a touch of anything until my son was diagnosed at 7 weeks with MSPI and that set my PPD off.

It sounds like you might have some situational PPD which can resolve itself on it's own but that might be really hard to work through. I would talk to your ob and see what they recommend. I also second talking to a therapist who deals specifically with PPD. That really helped me.

[bronxgirl]

I'm sorry you're going through such a hard time Spitfire. You definitely have a large amount of stressors right now in addition to being a new mom. I would talk to a professional to get their take on things, plus it might help just to have someone to talk to about your feelings. hang in there.

[bronxgirl]

Are you still staying in Westchester? If so, let me know if you want some company.

[xokell2]

I can completely relate on the body image situation. I struggle with the same thing every day. I had a really horrid vaginal delivery with my first and ended up with a ton of stitches and had to have secondary reconstructive work done. Things do get better. I would be inclined to think situational since I felt the same way you're describing, but definitely bring it up to your doc