This (still) sucks.

[NomadicMama]

***I've "updated", scroll on down for more whining. ***

Today is DH's last day of R&R. I have spent the day getting sick (thank you stomach virus) and sleeping. DH got sick in the middle of the night but is okay now. Not how we'd planned to spend the day.

DH leaves early in the morning, so he just had to say good-bye to LO. It kills me.

R&R is so damn hard.

Five to six more months. We are just about half way done. Too bad I'm ready to be done *now*.

And thanks to crying, in addition to feeling like crap, I have a headache.

[amaristella]

Wish I could be there to give you real life hugs. Sorry hon.

[audette]

*hug*

That is a really crappy day, all around. Here's hoping you and the kid can get back to steady-state quickly after your H heads back.

R&R is great, but does it ever wreak havoc with emotions!

[G22]

I ditto audettes hugs! I hope you feel better soon, and the second half goes by quickly for all of you guys!

[meltoine]

I'm so sorry today has been so hard. Watching him say goodbye to LO must have been really hard. But you've already done half of it, and you're amazing for that. I hope the next six months goes quickly for you.

[baconlettucetomato]

Ugh. Hugs. That's a craptastic day. I hope the second half flies by.

[kcd0531]

Ugh! What a craptastic way to end a treasured time. Hoping you get to feeling better soon and that the second half flies by.

[JakJak]

I'm really sorry I hope you feel better soon, and that the next 6 months fly by!

[NomadicMama]

Thanks ladies! I'm feeling a bit better today, still tired. I spent 90 minutes this morning at the MP station on post. I swiped a parked car on Saturday and I had to file a report. What a weekend!

I am thankful that my folks are here. They got LO up and to kindergarten this morning (and yesterday, too). It also makes the house less quiet after DH's departure.

Headed back to bed. . .

[NomadicMama]

One might think that I'd handle this better when given a second chance. Nah, at least DH knows to expect me to be a blubbering mess!

DH spent the last two weeks at a training in Bavaria. LO and I were able to go spend five days with him (well, evenings as they were working all day). He is now returning to his unit for the remainder of his tour. Saying goodbye again was just as difficult.

I am thankful for the extra time together--we, along with my friends whose DHs were there for the training, appreciate the gift of time as a family. I've never known of a deployment quite like this one.

The last two and a half weeks have been challenging though. Did I mention that I swiped a parked car towards the end of DH's R&R? Yah, yeah me. Well, the middle of last week, while running an errand for a friend, I "kissed" a building with the driver's side mirror. The last time that I caused an accident was over 15 years ago. Now, I damage my DH's beloved Jeep twice in two weeks. Than, because things happen in threes--I got my first German speeding ticket in the mail yesterday. Well, it's not actually a ticket, it's a request to identify the person caught speeding in the vehicle registered to my DH. From the awful picture you can clearly tell it is me. Awesome! Had I been going four kilometers per hour faster, I would have lost my license for a month. Yikes.

And, did I mention that I'm sick, yet again? I have a wicked sore throat and if I don't take Advil every six hours, it gets worse and I get all achy. I have an appointment to see my PCM this afternoon.

Really, I am not usually such a downer. I take a moment to feel the emotions of the moment and then try to move on as wallowing does no good. But I'm struggling. I have not been sick like this in nearly a decade (sick three times in five weeks--all different "bugs"). And the car crap really has me rattled. (I swear, as soon as DH get orders for his post-deployment assignment, I am buying the tiniest car I feel comfortable driving! The only reason that I have not bought one yet is because I am afraid that the moment that I/we buy a second vehicle, the Army will change where they want DH and send us back home ASAP!)

I feel better for having written this out. I'm still really sad to have said goodbye, but I am thankful that my parents are still here. And, I am thankful for our son, who is such a funny, darling and strong boy.

Thanks for putting up with NM's Pity Party, Part 2.

[brandienee]

Wow, NM, I am really sorry. First of all, I hope that you get better soon.

And as I've been a huge downer this whole time too, I can't really say anything to that. You are strong and it does suck. Especially when you are in an unfamiliar place.

I have nothing, just hugs.

I hope that it gets better.

[hike]

Yikes. I'm sorry you have to deal with all of that.i hope you have a smooth week with no major stressors.

[pennylane]

hugs to you NomadicMama and wishes that the rest of your deployment goes by so fast and problem free!

[baconlettucetomato]

Oh NM. *hugs*

[NomadicMama]

Thanks everyone. We are home from the doctor. We both have prescriptions to help us. Mine turned out to be stress related/exasorbated. <sigh>. But, we will both be better soon. And, we did get extra time with DH--which is rare and appreciated. A good night's sleep will help, too!

[audette]

I hope script and the sleep helps!

There's no way around it, deployments suck.

[Dory1988]

I hope you feel better soon. The car thing sucks. Hopefully when this deployment is over you'll look back and wonder where the time went.

[ilovelamp]

Ugh I'm sorry about all the crap you are dealing with. I hope it gets better soon!

[erin2903]

Lots of hugs NM!