Post by Chloride Kate on May 25, 2012 11:01:10 GMT -5
Oh goodness. Thank you all for your kind comments. It helps to know others can relate to the pain.
I had a dream that he wasn't really dead and he just got up like nothing was wrong and started playing again. Dreams can be so cruel.
As stupid as it is, I'm paying out the ass for a necropsy so we know what happened. I don't think either my husband or I will have much closure without it. We will have him cremated afterward and think of somewhere special to spread his ashes. He loved the mountains in Colorado, so that is our front runner right now.
I don't know how much my 14 month old understands. She loved him so much. They were pals. I told her he went to doggy heaven to go play with mommy's old dog friends and that it was just us now. I'm so sad that she won't be able to grow up with him, but thankful that she doesn't seem to understand.
I have my other doggy with me at work today so neither of us gets too lonely. My husband will be home tonight.
Thanks again for all the kind thoughts. It really helps to know that I'm not alone in this feeling.
I am so sorry for your loss. I just lost my heart dog Napoleon 2 months ago and I know that pain. It is horrible. I am so sorry you had to go through that and thank goodness someone was able to come over to help. It takes time and the grief can be unbearable at times. I found some comfort in knowing all our dogs are all together healthy happy and playing together.
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