Knock Knock....what is going on today?

[2brides]

it is very quiet here today.

[hensmum]

I know! I was looking for reading material, and you guys are totally letting me down :-P

Henry is down for an early nap. He does that every once in a while. My cold that was nearly gone is totally worse after my NY trip, and I am sleeeeepy. I am trying to online shop for a last few xmas gifts, but I think it's time to throw in the towel and nap myself!!

Really all I want to do is drink egg nog or cocoa, eat cookies, and wrap gifts

[thiswillbe]

Slammed at work, which is par for the course for December but I always hate it. I haven't even *started* Christmas shopping. Maybe it will get a little better when DW gets home (tonight!). I know I'm going to get an earful about the house being a mess, though.

[2brides]

I need to stop reading FB because people are posting all of this stuff about the CT kids and their funerals and once again, I find myself a puddle at work. Every time I see the pics, all I can see are my kids and their friends.

I need to get off FB anyway. I have too much work that needs to be done.

[twotrue]

I have plenty of work keeping me busy. That and trying to manage my nausea. I already went out and got lunch. Ate the chicken nuggets in the car and am now scarfing down chili cheese fries. Not my proudest moment, but I am HUNGRY and the damn picture on the Wendy's sign looked good. lol!

While I was out I managed to mail my first Christmas package. I better hurry and get everything ready to mail.

[ElsaVonM]

Our heat is broken again. Goes off in the middle of the night and we can sometimes get it to come back on, but it usually doesn't last long. We will decamp to my mom's soon. Need to work on job applications, cleaning, gifts and packing, so the timing is not good. No temp work this week - things dried up b/c of the holiday.

[mk]

I'm home with a sick baby. I hate how often he gets sick. Did I tell you girls that I'm going part time in February? I'll work 2 days a week and my mom is going to watch him, so I can pull him out of daycare!!! YAY! We were in the ER for over 4 hours last night. It sucked. I'm ready to be home with him and protect him from this germy world! He's finally down for a nap, so I should consider doing the dishes, taking a shower, doing laundry, or you know, something productive. Right after I finish this message

[tattooedmeegs]

I've been lurking a bit because I come here and read everything, then only have time to respond to a post or two. Work has been keeping me busy and when I have time I normally pop on facebook before here, then I have no time left!

Working from home today though, which is nice.

[seattlekari]

We woke up to almost 3 inches of snow!!! E was SO EXCITED! The look of wonder and awe and the huge hug I got when E looked out the window was priceless. And school was delayed 2 hours...yeah...because clearly we are ill prepared for dealing with snow. But now she's at school and I'm at work and it's my short day because E has gymnastics at 5. So I should probably go be productive...

[ElsaVonM]

Heat is fixed again, and for real this time - I think. The tech seemed to know exactly what the problem was when I described it, and when he popped the cover off he said "Yep" and a few minutes later it came back on. So fingers crossed. Now off to clean the bathroom while the babies jumparoo.

[bluedaisyus]

I'm just swamped and exhausted. I really just want to go home and take a nap. Sigh. If only...

[kershnic]

I'm reading over here (have sworn off the bump), but generally don't think advertising my negativity about life in general does much for anyone.

[twotrue]

Dec 18, 2012 16:58:59 GMT -5 kershnic said:

I'm reading over here (have sworn off the bump), but generally don't think advertising my negativity about life in general does much for anyone.

Every single one of us have had our periods of negativity. Whether because of ttc, loss, relationship issues, we've all been there. Don't feel like your posting your tthoughts and emotions will bother us. I don't think people with sad thoughts should censor themselves anymore than I think people with happy stuff should censor themselves when others are blue. That's part of what makes boards like this a community. We can all support each other through and with various things even if we aren't going through the same thing at that moment.



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[ElsaVonM]

I agree, please share if it will make you feel better. You don't have to be cheerful for us. I guess I am a little bit pot/kettle here b/c I haven't been sharing much about our current economic/job woes just b/c it's kind of embarrassing and I know a lot of people thought we were crazy to do what we did (IRL, not necessarily on this board, although yeah, probably some on this board too, and that's fine). I still believe that it was for the best and that it will work out and that our other choices were not better; I will just be a lot more chatty about it once I have some proof

[twotrue]

Dec 18, 2012 17:41:16 GMT -5 ElsaVonM said:

I agree, please share if it will make you feel better. You don't have to be cheerful for us. I guess I am a little bit pot/kettle here b/c I haven't been sharing much about our current economic/job woes just b/c it's kind of embarrassing and I know a lot of people thought we were crazy to do what we did (IRL, not necessarily on this board, although yeah, probably some on this board too, and that's fine). I still believe that it was for the best and that it will work out and that our other choices were not better; I will just be a lot more chatty about it once I have some proof

I don't think your choice was crazy. I think it was brave and confident. I know people judged the hell out of me and my relationship when K and I decided she should take the contractor job which would take her away from us for 16 months. But we knew it was right for us. So judgement be damn

And I was totally thinking of your job hunt recently and wondering if there was any networking I could help with in any way. If there might be let me know.

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[joyseattle]

I just want to echo that I think everyone should feel free to share as much or as little of their lives as the feel comfortable with in all the variations. We have all been through ups and downs and I love that there isn't any code on how/what we share.

[2brides]

Dec 18, 2012 17:53:39 GMT -5 twotrue said:

Dec 18, 2012 17:41:16 GMT -5 ElsaVonM said:

I agree, please share if it will make you feel better. You don't have to be cheerful for us. I guess I am a little bit pot/kettle here b/c I haven't been sharing much about our current economic/job woes just b/c it's kind of embarrassing and I know a lot of people thought we were crazy to do what we did (IRL, not necessarily on this board, although yeah, probably some on this board too, and that's fine). I still believe that it was for the best and that it will work out and that our other choices were not better; I will just be a lot more chatty about it once I have some proof

I don't think your choice was crazy. I think it was brave and confident. I know people judged the hell out of me and my relationship when K and I decided she should take the contractor job which would take her away from us for 16 months. But we knew it was right for us. So judgement be damn

ditto. Every family needs to make decisions for themselves on what works/what doesn't. While ours isn't as extreme as either of your situations (both of which I think took extreme confidence/commitment), I have put up with a lot of shit about L being gone most weekends for the past several years. Whatever.

[ct]

Dec 18, 2012 17:41:16 GMT -5 ElsaVonM said:

I haven't been sharing much about our current economic/job woes just b/c it's kind of embarrassing and I know a lot of people thought we were crazy to do what we did (IRL, not necessarily on this board, although yeah, probably some on this board too, and that's fine). I still believe that it was for the best and that it will work out and that our other choices were not better; I will just be a lot more chatty about it once I have some proof

((hugs))

I've been wondering about job stuff and have wanted to ask but didn't, thinking it may be a sensitive issue.

but, I want you to know that you arent alone. We've had our financial ups and downs and it can be hard. I've felt embarassed about it too...a little bit like, "I'm a parent. Shouldnt I have all this shit in place by now??"

but no, it ebbs and flows like everything else in life and your beautiful children are thriving. I think your move was very brave - and such a wonderful gift to your parents.

[ElsaVonM]

Wow - thank you guys, for all of your support. I love this board

[seattlekari]

Kershnic- I have been missing seeing you here and since I'm not yet on FB I haven't been able to keep up with what's going on. ((hugs)) and just wanted you to know that I'm thinking of you.

ElsaVonM- The other fabulous ladies of our board have said everything I would have said. I think it was a great decision for your family and I look forward to hearing about all the ups and downs.

I feel like this group has always been so supportive of one another without judgment through all the ups and downs of life. I don't expect that to change any time soon.

[kershnic]

Thanks guys. I'll get back here eventually. Right now I'm still at the point where crying randomly on the street is apparently normal. We have spent years worth of savings ($) and so much energy and are close to exhausting my lifetime infertility benefit and the reality that I may not ever get to be pregnant or have a biological kid is hitting hard. There is nothing I want more. This whole mess also means at least a year more until I can quit my job that I'm insanely tired of or go back to school or move away from this city we're fucking sick of living in. We've been doing fertility treatment for 18 months straight without a single break and it fucking sucks and it really feels like the universe fucking hates us.

[thiswillbe]

Dec 19, 2012 14:01:07 GMT -5 kershnic said:

Thanks guys. I'll get back here eventually. Right now I'm still at the point where crying randomly on the street is apparently normal...

((Hugs.)) We're looking forward to your return, but totally understand your desire to hang back for a bit. I can't even fathom 18 months straight without any sort of break to recoup-- that must be so hard. I wish there were something we could do to help.

[hlke]

I'm also in the sparing you my negativity camp. I know you ladies would all be here to listen if I wanted to talk, but I just don't have much to say about what is going on. And I'll admit that some of it is embarrassment too. Things are really hard right now, and it's just sort of too much to begin to talk about.

I miss you guys, and I'm lurking and posting occasionally. I've taken to being a cranky bitch on MM here and TTTC on The Bump as my outlet.

[eratmama]

I agree. Post away. Not posting about negative thoughts just leads to more people not posting and more people feeling alome. Which you are not.


I am thankful for each of the brave people on ths board.

[quinny]

Dec 19, 2012 14:01:07 GMT -5 kershnic said:

Thanks guys. I'll get back here eventually. Right now I'm still at the point where crying randomly on the street is apparently normal. We have spent years worth of savings ($) and so much energy and are close to exhausting my lifetime infertility benefit and the reality that I may not ever get to be pregnant or have a biological kid is hitting hard. There is nothing I want more. This whole mess also means at least a year more until I can quit my job that I'm insanely tired of or go back to school or move away from this city we're fucking sick of living in. We've been doing fertility treatment for 18 months straight without a single break and it fucking sucks and it really feels like the universe fucking hates us.

I am so, so sorry. It took us 18 months (20?) to conceive N. Randomly crying was my MO. I cried all day, at work, in the shower, in the car. I thought we were never going to have a baby. We exhausted everything we had, over $50,000 OOP and couldn't afford to try anymore. We were looking into adoption, trying to come to terms with the fact we would never have biological children. My sister bought me 2 vials for my birthday, it was our last ditch effort. I had absolutely no hope it would work. It was the darkest time of my life, there were times I thought maybe I'd never be normal again. Even though he is now 14 months old and an absolute miracle, in my mind, I can feel those emotions like it was yesterday. My heart breaks for you. I hope my news didn't hurt you. If here, if you need someone to talk to. I've been there, as have other women on this board. (hugs)