Post by explorer2001 on May 11, 2012 15:26:22 GMT -5
I just spent the last half hour crying in the bathroom at work. 2012 has been a bitch and I am really struggling. So far this year I've broken my ankle, got in a car wreck (I was hit, not my fault), buried 3 friends, had bad date stories for the record books, had my bff cancel her trip to see me (valid reason, her grandma has cancer), had a bout with a major respiratory issue that could have killed me and isn't fully resolved, etc.
I feel like giving up on the rest of the year. I can't exercise which is my normal coping mechanism. I don't see my soccer or dance friends because I can't do those things right now. I basically don't see my other friends because they have little kids, are married, just got engaged, etc and I don't merit priority apparently. I've tried to reach out but that gets tiring when It's always me. None of them even offered to help or showed much concern when I've been so sick.
There's no hugging icon, so this is the best I can do ((hugs))
I know I already promised my spare bedroom to dmarie, but if you get here first, it's yours!! I'm let you watch movies in bed and I'll bring you ice cream and keep the world away from you for a little bit!!
I'm sorry things are not going well for you right now. Is there anyway you can go to counselling, it will not solve your problems but its great to have someone to talk to.
Post by explorer2001 on May 11, 2012 15:48:03 GMT -5
I've been in and still am in counselling. It's just been an extra tough year and it isn't enough. Plus at $140 an hour I can only afford it so often (once a month ish). I have an appointment a week from Monday already scheduled.
Big hugs!!!! I'm so sorry this is going on. I'd totally hang out with you if we lived nearby. I know how it feels with the coupled friends suddenly don't have time for you.