**Berbs**

[lola]

You doing ok? Just want you to know that I'm thinking about you.

((Berbs))

[berbles]

Hi. Thanks.

No, I'm not doing very well. Emotionally, at least.

On the plus side, I gave up on trying to work while going though all this, and went back on a leave of absence. So at least I can stay home and sleep away the days until surgery.

Last week, my therapist brought up antidepressants for the first time. I've been seeing her for 3 years.

[lola]

What are you thoughts on the ADs? Are you considering?

I went on ADs/AAs about two years ago. They got me to a place where I at least felt calm enough to start working through the things I needed to work through. I'm a big advocate for them.

Please PM me if you need anything - even just to vent and don't want it all over GBCN!

[berbles]

I really appreciate it, Lola. I feel like I agree and empathize with everything you post.

I'm fine with ADs. I've used them before, though I never felt a hugely noticeable difference. The bigger problem is my H, who needs to work on his mental health but doesn't seem to have the motivation to do so.

[sunflower22]

Sorry you're not feeling great lately, Im glad you're on a break from working. You take care of yourself!! AD's can make a world of difference.

Sending you a giaaaant internet stranger hug lol

Eta: I just read your intro post and I completely understand that weird sense of urgency to get pregnant before the endometriosis comes back. Its like this constant thought in the back of your head, afraid its going to come back at any time..

[KaraOrNot]

Hugs Berbles! I hope everything goes well w/ your surgery. You will be in my thoughts.

[berbles]

OH! I forgot, I was going to tell you a kinda funny story!

So my pre-op testing included a CT scan. The scan showed that I have 4 fully formed, functional ureters. Normally, you have one tube per kidney, connecting it to the bladder. I have 2 per kidney. LOL! I'm a fucking mutant.

It also looks like there's another (smaller) cyst on my other ovary. Fuck. I thought the meds were supposed to suppress this shit?

[Cheesecake]

Oh Berbles, I'm sorry you're going through all this crap. Sending you big big hugs as well.

And about the ureters, honestly, I'm kinda super jealous of that. Wish I had that, it'd save me from a ton of surgeries.

[berbles]

Want my extras? LOL! I'll tell my surgeon to pack em in ice and ship them to NL.

[ilovecandy]

Good thoughts that your surgery goes well!

[thoseareradishes]

Hey Berbs, just wanted to say hi and send a hug your way.