Hits the soft spot here too, we are coming close to that day and its bittersweet. I agree with everything the author says about the feeling of you both relaxing the moment you get in the glider and how much I'll miss having that time with my girl. I did have the depression part for a short time that the author was lucky to avoid, but it was nothing that renewing a membership at a gym couldn't take care of. There have been a lot of ups and downs for me, but now they're all happy feelings and I'm really struggling with stopping. Who would have guessed I'd be here 1 year +.
Post by moonstone523 on Jan 7, 2013 14:17:30 GMT -5
Of course. I've already had that feeling of being stuck. I am the sole source of life for my daughter. But when you step back and think of it, that's pretty damn cool!
I'm struggling with pumping now. It makes me cry thinking about it. I miss my girl. tear, tear. I know she is right outside my door, but that might make it harder. I'm not sure.
That was beautiful. I've been thinking a lot about what it will be like to stop breastfeeding for some reason lately, and it makes me really sad. My goal was to get to a year, and then I figured I'll reassess and if it's still working for us, we'll keep going for a while. That is still my plan, but at 9 months, I feel like I'm staring that year deadline in the face. If things are like they are now in 3 months, I definitely want to keep going. So far the only thing I can see stopping me is that I still haven't gotten my period back and so I assume I won't until I stop BFing. We're talking about trying for #2 next fall so that's my end date, I guess.
It just makes me so sad to think about, both that Ellie will be so grown up she won't be relying on me so heavily anymore, and that we'll no longer have that special quiet time together. She's so insanely active, that really is the only quiet time we get together with any regularity. BFing has been so amazing so far. We've been really lucky.
Post by loskadoodle on Jan 9, 2013 20:04:20 GMT -5
I've been struggling with supply and also went through the depression phase. I've said I'm stopping a million times, yet here I am. Even after having the stomach flu last week and pumping 1.5 oz total I'm still bfing (out of only 1 boob cuz he rejects the other). I totally see where she's coming from. I'm sure it will be a bittersweet day.
That was beautiful. I've been thinking a lot about what it will be like to stop breastfeeding for some reason lately, and it makes me really sad. My goal was to get to a year, and then I figured I'll reassess and if it's still working for us, we'll keep going for a while. That is still my plan, but at 9 months, I feel like I'm staring that year deadline in the face. If things are like they are now in 3 months, I definitely want to keep going. So far the only thing I can see stopping me is that I still haven't gotten my period back and so I assume I won't until I stop BFing. We're talking about trying for #2 next fall so that's my end date, I guess.
It just makes me so sad to think about, both that Ellie will be so grown up she won't be relying on me so heavily anymore, and that we'll no longer have that special quiet time together. She's so insanely active, that really is the only quiet time we get together with any regularity. BFing has been so amazing so far. We've been really lucky.
My periods are really really irregular this time, and I'm so afraid I'm not going to be able to get pregnant while I'm breastfeeding. We wanted to start TTC when he's 9 months old. I absolutely won't stop BFing before 12 months, but the idea of stopping makes me so sad!
This hits too close to home and I am a pregnant hormonal mess, so I think I will read it after speck is born. It's true that you do feel tied down at times, and that doesn't work for some women and they do what is best for their family. I did what was best for mine and wouldn't trade it for the world. Zoe is alive because of the food that my body provided for her. ME. ONLY ME. How freaking awesome is that? I may have failed at the whole birthing part, but I rocked the breastfeeding thing. ;D
Is it weird that I am nervous about BFing with Speck? You'd thinkI'd be an old pro after 21 months, but it's kind of intimidating all over again, lol!
I've been struggling with supply and also went through the depression phase. I've said I'm stopping a million times, yet here I am. Even after having the stomach flu last week and pumping 1.5 oz total I'm still bfing (out of only 1 boob cuz he rejects the other). I totally see where she's coming from. I'm sure it will be a bittersweet day.
Have you seen a lactation consultant? Or you could go to a La Leche League meeting! help is out there!