It's almost time you guys... <long, ventish>

[Cheesecake]

For me to make my appointment with the RE.

AF is due on Tuesday, so on Weds I'll either be overjoyed, over the moon and back excited because this absolute final cycle before going into the medical circuit has actually gotten me knocked up - or, much more likely, Wednesday will have me calling the RE to set up an appointment ASAP to get my HSG done and hopefully get a first IUI cycle in soon (RE told me on the first appointment that'd actually be the next step).

I'm kinda nervous.
Even though I'm trying to keep a level head and I know that if so many cycles that were perfectly timed haven't gotten me pregnant, the chance of this one working is only slightly above zero, I can't help but feel hope next to my rational thoughts. I try to rationalize away my hope, but it's just not working. On the other hand rational thought has supressed hope so much that I'm already feeling slightly sad about a BFN that hasn't even happened yet.

I'm crazy and I know it....

Anyways, Wednesday is D-day. I fortunately work from home that day, so I can actually call the RE without having to make sure co-workers aren't listening in.

Please send me super-quick-appointment vibes so I can actually get my HSG done this coming cycle!

[berbles]

Good luck with everything, cheesecake. We're here for you no matter what!

[thoseareradishes]

Good luck! Hope all goes well!

[daisy24342]

Sending you lots of vibes!!


I was actually planning on having an HSG next cycle ( actually I was counting on this cycle not working so I just kept saying 'when I have my HSG') when I got my BFP. I think it took a little pressure/ stress off which maybe helped.


I know the next three days will go by slowly......hope you can keep your mind as busy as possible!

FX to either BFP or super quick appointment!

[KaraOrNot]

Good luck!

[ilovecandy]

FX to either BFP or super quick appointment!

[degal99]

Good luck to you either way!

[bronxgirl]

Good luck to you either way.  When I went to the RE for the first time I was so scared and overwhelmed, but evetually things fell into place and it wasn't so scary.  Noi matter what happens we're here for support.

[Cheesecake]

Jan 20, 2013 20:45:29 GMT -5 bronxgirl said:

Good luck to you either way.  When I went to the RE for the first time I was so scared and overwhelmed, but evetually things fell into place and it wasn't so scary.  Noi matter what happens we're here for support.

Thanks everyone!

I did feel overwhelmed and a little scared that first time I went in. Right now I feel less overwhelmed, because I've already met the 2 docs that I will be working with and can actually find the department in that maze of a hospital. I now just feel anxious to see whether it can actually happen.

With the excitement of getting closer to a solution and who knows, possible pregnancy, also comes the dread of knowing that the answer might well be the contrary - they might very well tell us we'll never have children. Since with those asshole kidneys of mine treatment options are so limited, and with stupid Dutch age laws re: adoption a negative answer here will just mean no children - ever. I need to stop thinking about that though, because it makes me sad before we're even there.

One step at a time!

[changedname]

Good luck Cheesecake. Hope you won't need to call the RE but if you do, I hope it's a quick appointment!

[degal99]

Jan 21, 2013 4:19:20 GMT -5 Cheesecake said:

Jan 20, 2013 20:45:29 GMT -5 bronxgirl said:

Good luck to you either way.  When I went to the RE for the first time I was so scared and overwhelmed, but evetually things fell into place and it wasn't so scary.  Noi matter what happens we're here for support.

Thanks everyone!

I did feel overwhelmed and a little scared that first time I went in. Right now I feel less overwhelmed, because I've already met the 2 docs that I will be working with and can actually find the department in that maze of a hospital. I now just feel anxious to see whether it can actually happen.

With the excitement of getting closer to a solution and who knows, possible pregnancy, also comes the dread of knowing that the answer might well be the contrary - they might very well tell us we'll never have children. Since with those asshole kidneys of mine treatment options are so limited, and with stupid Dutch age laws re: adoption a negative answer here will just mean no children - ever. I need to stop thinking about that though, because it makes me sad before we're even there.

One step at a time!

Oh, extra good luck then!  What are the Dutch adoption laws?  

[murdock]

Crossing my fingers for you!! I hope that everything goes well!