Can I have an emotional breakdown?

[mrsjason]

Hi. I haven't been around for a long, long time. I sorta needed an internet break for a good while. So please excuse my absence and then my need to come over when I need someone to vent to.

Anyway, I just got a phone call that my good friend Josh was killed in a motorcycle accident last night. That in it's self is upsetting news, but this particular family has seen more than it's fair share of tragedy. It's heartbreaking. And I can't believe this is really happening.

I was BFFs with his sister in law, Ashley since I was 6 years old. We did everything together from age 6 until I was 19 when she was killed in a car accident. In 2007, Josh lost his mother, his brother, and his father all within 6 months. His mother developed some fast moving crazy disease and was dead with days of being diagnosed. His brother was killed in a car accident and his father killed himself shortly after his brother died.

Josh married my BFF's sister Lindsay, and they have been together since HS so they have been together for over 15 years. They were dependent on each other since they both dealt with unexpected death and were there for each other during the hard times.

Just this past March, I got a phone call from my mom, telling me that my friend Lindsay's mom came home from work and found her husband dead on the bathroom floor from a massive heart attack. Again, Lindsay and Josh had each other to lean on.

I am super duper close with this family. Every time I am home in Orlando I visit them. I go on vacation with them multiple times a year. On the holidays I call them. I am utterly heartbroken for them.

[imalwaysme79]

Omg! I can't even imagine. Reading this gave me chills and tears! I couldn't imagine! My thoughts are with you and their families.

[mrschelseap09]

OMG, Kathy. I am so sorry for your loss. I don't even know what else to say, that is just horrible.

[jen812]

Thats horrible. How sad.
But, I am happy to see you here.

[mrsjason]

Thanks for the support. I feel stunned. And angry. And I feel stupid for all the dumb things that piss me off in life. I needed the perspective.

I have been hugging Macy all morning and I am looking forward to hugging my H when he gets home from work. I could use a big hug from him right now.

[alzi]

Omg I'm so sorry. That family has seen too much heartache!

[moonstone523]

I can't even imagine, and your friend will need you now more than ever!
Stay strong. :heart:

(and stick around)

[loskadoodle]

Oh Kathy, so sad to hear this. Life is so unfair sometimes!! That poor girl is going to need all the help she can get at this point. I will keep her in my prayers. ({)

[aegis2005]

(((hugs)))

[stingsharkruns]

SO SORRY Kathy! ... totally random: One of my FB friends said something about a Josh passing away on her FB page.

[mrsjason]

Jun 1, 2012 13:45:13 GMT -5 stingsharkruns said:

SO SORRY Kathy! ... totally random: One of my FB friends said something about a Josh passing away on her FB page.

Whoa, that's kinda nuts. Small world, huh?

But I just booked my ticket for Macy and I to come back for the funeral. Eeek, buying a two airline tickets the day before you leave is not cheap. Even still, it's worth it to be home for their family.

[pinkwillow]

I'm so sorry to hear this Kathy. My T&Ps are with you and your friends.

[sara76]

I'm so sorry Kathy . That is just too much for anyone to deal with. Life is so fragile. And amazing. The night your friend loses his life is the night little Dominic enters. I hope you and your friend and their families can get through this horrible time and see that life still can be beautiful. ((hugs))

[dearselah]

That is horrible. Sometimes it is hard to understand why things happen the way they do. That's for sure. Your friend's family and friends will be in my prayers.

[amellis2]

I'm sorry, Kathy. I'm thinking about your friend's family, and about you. Stay tough!

[jennifer8080]

Oh my gosh, that's heart breaking. I'm so sorry. Big hugs!

[surfbetty530]

This makes my heart ache. I am so sorry, Kathy. I have no good advice or anything. I am just sorry and I will pray for you and her.