I am dragging my feet.

[discogranny]

Post-D&C I was given instructions to call and schedule a follow up with my doctor around three weeks post-surgery. Next week will be three weeks and I have yet to call. My RE is difficult to get into quickly for consult/follow-up type appointments due to needing room for actively cycling women.

I feel like I am dragging my feet because I don't really want to go. A part of me wants to know the results of the testing on our embryo and the other part is fearful of hearing that we have a genetic issue or that my uterus is just rejecting perfectly healthy embryos. I also know that we will probably end up PGD'ing the two frozens we have now and I am scared to hear they are both abnormal. We are unexplained so answers would be nice but the options are pretty crappy at this point.

There's not really a point here.

[G22]

I'm sorry. I get it though. Sometimes it nice to just not be able to think about anything TTC related....I feel like I don't do it often enough. Vent away and I hope you get some helpful answers soon!

[murdock]

(((hugs))))
Maybe you do need a little time. It's ok to take it a little slow. Maybe, do something nice for yourself today, and decide to tackle the decision tmw or when the weekend is over.

you've been through a lot.

[changedname]

I agree, take your time to do this. Wait until you are ready.
I have no experience with losses but from what I have seen on another board I posted on, nearly all the time the test come back that it was just a bad luck/fluke thing that likely won't happen again - I hope that is the case for you.

[Cheesecake]

I'm sorry, (((hugs)))
And I agree as well. Take as much time as you need to get ready to hear whatever results there might be. The results will still be there next week or next month or whenever you feel ready to go on with this.

[pamela]

I totally understand your feelings. I would be surprised if they had genetic results already, both times mine took closer to 6 weeks (one we got results, the other they didn't get enough to test).  You should still go for the post-op part however.  At least call them and find out if he needs to see you in person, or if it's just to talk about results, for them to just call you back when the results are ready and then you can act from there.

[KaraOrNot]

Hugs. Ditto everyone else. Take all the time you need and make the appointment when you are ready.

[discogranny]

Thanks for the kind words ladies. I think I just needed to verbalize my fears. Pamela - you are right that regardless of results, I need to go for the follow-up portion. TMI but DH pointed out that we will not be released from pelvic rest without seeing the doctor. I am embarrassed to even admit this but due to doctor's orders for IVF and for the subsequent pregnancy, we haven't been able to do anything since early November.

I will be calling tomorrow. I kind of feel bad that this is what tipped the scale for me, but y'all November-February is a L-O-N-G time!

[murdock]

How's it going today, Disco?

[discogranny]

Feb 8, 2013 11:28:03 GMT -5 murdock said:

How's it going today, Disco?

Going well, much better, thanks for asking. I was able to get the appointment scheduled for the end of next week. I am at peace with it for now, I am sure the nerves will hit me the evening before but this is by far not the most stressful appointment we have had during this whole ordeal, so it will be fine.

[murdock]

You have a great attitude. Good to hear you got the appointment scheduled. : ) (((hugs)))