Status of the perpetually empty ute

[changedname]

Hey girls - our first check in!

1) Where are you in your treatments/cycles/all that jazz?

2) Any updates this week or upcoming appointments you want to share?

3) QOTW - have you told anyone IRL that you are tttc?

[changedname]

1) No updates - I'm 9dpo of hopefully my last cycle before ivf.

2) Will go in for cd3 bw. I'm really concerned because I was having weird ovary twinges 4dpo-7dpo. I hope it's not cysts. It actually really hurt.

3) No, except for girls I met at fertility yoga who are all doing ivf.

[discogranny]

1) We are pending my follow-up appointment post D&C. We have resigned ourselves to the idea that we will only get pregnant via IVF, so while of course we will not prevent, we will not be actively trying until we do a FET, probably in August.

2) My RE's office called and my RE is out of the office this week and next Monday, so they moved my follow-up appointment to 2/19. We did get the verbal okay to resume "pelvic activity", so we are okay with this. Haha!

3) We were pretty secretive until we got to IVF/pregnancy. Now all of my/DH's immediate family know, a handful of close friends and my entire office (there are only 5 of us and the constant appointments were kind of obvious.)

@icedgems - I was being a TN GP creeper and saw your post. Those sound like ovarian cyst twinges, but if you are doing a long lupron protocol they will put you on BCP anyway before you actually start stims, so that should zap them even if they are cysts.

[ilovecandy]

1) cd 17, got a positive opk this morning.
2)Nope got nothing we are getting our tax refund back this week so yay!
3) At the beginning no. As it closed in on a year we started telling our family, and most of our friends know a little bit of it.

[changedname]

Feb 11, 2013 9:45:30 GMT -5 discogranny said:

1) We are pending my follow-up appointment post D&C. We have resigned ourselves to the idea that we will only get pregnant via IVF, so while of course we will not prevent, we will not be actively trying until we do a FET, probably in August.

2) My RE's office called and my RE is out of the office this week and next Monday, so they moved my follow-up appointment to 2/19. We did get the verbal okay to resume "pelvic activity", so we are okay with this. Haha!

3) We were pretty secretive until we got to IVF/pregnancy. Now all of my/DH's immediate family know, a handful of close friends and my entire office (there are only 5 of us and the constant appointments were kind of obvious.)

@icedgems - I was being a TN GP creeper and saw your post. Those sound like ovarian cyst twinges, but if you are doing a long lupron protocol they will put you on BCP anyway before you actually start stims, so that should zap them even if they are cysts.

   Hi Disco, yeah I think they must be cysts. I haven't had any pain since Saturday which I'm taking as a good sign but on Saturday I got it on both sides which was odd. My protocol doesn't call for bcp - just start suprefact (same as Lupron?) on day 21 next cycle. I am going to be so annoyed if I get delayed again. . I didn't know you post on GP? Or are you just a lurker? I don't recognize your SN.

[discogranny]

Feb 11, 2013 10:10:21 GMT -5 changedname said:

   Hi Disco, yeah I think they must be cysts. I haven't had any pain since Saturday which I'm taking as a good sign but on Saturday I got it on both sides which was odd. My protocol doesn't call for bcp - just start suprefact (same as Lupron?) on day 21 next cycle. I am going to be so annoyed if I get delayed again. . I didn't know you post on GP? Or are you just a lurker? I don't recognize your SN.

Haha, I was a reg. on GP for a long time, I think I posted on there from Jan. 2011 until I left when the big changeover happened. I left less due to change over and more due to starting really involved IF treatments. It was starting to burn that girls who had started posting on GP after me were already raising babies and I had never had so much as a positive test. I think you and I had some crossover time because I remember when you first started TTC and were trying to decide about leaving you job where you traveled a lot.

[G22]

1) CD2 - which explains why I was angry yesterday.

2) I'm still waiting for my stupid referral to get off base to go through . Its been 2 weeks since the nurse was sending it in, and she said it would take 7-10 business days. I just called and left her a message to see what's going on. This also explains why I'm feeling angry.

3) Since we have been trying for so long, yes people know. A handful of friends, and both my mom, MIL, sister, and FSIL know. Anymore I'm not hiding it, but just not wearing it on my sleeve and telling everyone. I just don't feel the need be hush hush about it I guess.

[changedname]

Hey Disco, ok yes I remember you but more specifically I recognize you from TB IF board. I lurked there for the last 6 months and followed your (and everyone's stories).  Yes, I have started posting a bit less on GP board even though I love those girls. I am just starting to relate less and less to the charting questions and feeling like I would never make the Holy Grail of a move to GPM.

I also like the proboards formatting and speed so much more than it becomes painful to post there.

[discogranny]

Feb 11, 2013 10:22:51 GMT -5 changedname said:

Hey Disco, ok yes I remember you but more specifically I recognize you from TB IF board. I lurked there for the last 6 months and followed your (and everyone's stories).  Yes, I have started posting a bit less on GP board even though I love those girls. I am just starting to relate less and less to the charting questions and feeling like I would never make the Holy Grail of a move to GPM.

I also like the proboards formatting and speed so much more than it becomes painful to post there.

It also annoys the crap out of me not to be able to hover and see what's within the posts. Haha! I am still lurking because there are girls who were first TTC with me who are still over there that I want to see have success. I have everything crossed for BB right now.

[changedname]

Feb 11, 2013 10:27:22 GMT -5 discogranny said:

Feb 11, 2013 10:22:51 GMT -5 changedname said:

Hey Disco, ok yes I remember you but more specifically I recognize you from TB IF board. I lurked there for the last 6 months and followed your (and everyone's stories).  Yes, I have started posting a bit less on GP board even though I love those girls. I am just starting to relate less and less to the charting questions and feeling like I would never make the Holy Grail of a move to GPM.

I also like the proboards formatting and speed so much more than it becomes painful to post there.

It also annoys the crap out of me not to be able to hover and see what's within the posts. Haha! I am still lurking because there are girls who were first TTC with me who are still over there that I want to see have success. I have everything crossed for BB right now.

    Me too. There are some girls there that I almost want to get pg more than myself. BB was definitely one of them. And yes, the no hover thing pisses me off, I can barely stand it. Also, how difficult they make it to change your siggy/screen name etc. So irritating.

[linz]

1. Femara and Metformin this cycle, 6 dpo.

2. Had a dr appt last week to check my follicle. According to dr had a "perfect" follicle - finally! Got a trigger shot. Hopefully got the timing right According to FF I O'd before my appt so who knows.

3. My bff knows what I'm going through. A few friends know we are trying to but in no hurry. I haven't told them about my treatments. Parents have no clue.

[changedname]

Feb 11, 2013 10:47:34 GMT -5 linz said:

1. Femara and Metformin this cycle, 6 dpo.

2. Had a dr appt last week to check my follicle. According to dr had a "perfect" follicle - finally! Got a trigger shot. Hopefully got the timing right According to FF I O'd before my appt so who knows.

3. My bff knows what I'm going through. A few friends know we are trying to but in no hurry. I haven't told them about my treatments. Parents have no clue.

  Hi Linz - good luck! Did you do an IUI or just TI with trigger? Are you going in for a beta or are you going to test? FX for you!

[linz]

Feb 11, 2013 11:04:35 GMT -5 changedname said:

Feb 11, 2013 10:47:34 GMT -5 linz said:

1. Femara and Metformin this cycle, 6 dpo.

2. Had a dr appt last week to check my follicle. According to dr had a "perfect" follicle - finally! Got a trigger shot. Hopefully got the timing right According to FF I O'd before my appt so who knows.

3. My bff knows what I'm going through. A few friends know we are trying to but in no hurry. I haven't told them about my treatments. Parents have no clue.

  Hi Linz - good luck! Did you do an IUI or just TI with trigger? Are you going in for a beta or are you going to test? FX for you!

No IUI. Just doing the fertility meds and going in each month for an u/s. This is the 2nd month out of 4 that I've had a good follicle and gotten the trigger so I was stoked. I'll just test at home, but the 2ww is already making me crazy. I'm scared to test tooo early and get a false positive b/c of the trigger.

[Cheesecake]

1) Where are you in your treatments/cycles/all that jazz?
Did CD21/7DPO blood work today, DH goes in for SA on Thursday and then it's a wait until the 25th I think from the top of my head when we go in for results and hopefully schedule my HSG.

2) Any updates this week or upcoming appointments you want to share?
My boobs hurt. not that I see that as a sign or anything anymore, but they sure do hurt!

3) QOTW - have you told anyone IRL that you are tttc?
Hardly anyone. 1 or 2 people I know IRL from the boards know. I talked about it a little with one of them, the other(s) just (possibly) know from my posts here. I did tell one IRL friend just over a week ago, we were out drinking and stuff and talking about all kinds of stuff and she actually asked if we were TTC because of my other situation. So I told her we've been trying for a year, but no results yet. She's recently been treated for cancer and hopes to start TTC soon, so she realizes it might not be easy for them either.

[trufflefries]

Feb 11, 2013 9:24:41 GMT -5 changedname said:

Hey girls - our first check in!

1) Where are you in your treatments/cycles/all that jazz? Beginning of cycle #2341352 (not really but feels like it) Got period on Friday.

2) Any updates this week or upcoming appointments you want to share? DH's appointment with the urologist is tomorrow! Finally getting the SA done. I'm excited and maybe a little anxious...PLEASE be normal.

3) QOTW - have you told anyone IRL that you are tttc? I've written a little about it in my blog, but no one really reads that, it's more for me. My closest girlfriends and family know. In about a month, my entire church will know.   I just got filmed yesterday for a series we're doing in March called "This Beautiful Mess"-it's a 4 week series on the stuff no one really talks about because they think they're alone in it, like depression, miscarriages, infertility, addiction, etc. They filmed anyone who was willing to say what they're struggling with so that they can do an intro montage in order to show people that no matter what you're going through, you're not alone. So...I'm a tad freaked out by that, but I think it's going to be a good step in this journey toward healing from the anger/sadness that infertility brings. And I think it's really awesome that my pastor is going to do a talk about miscarriage AND infertility.

Sorry this got long, lol!

[G22]

Feb 11, 2013 12:55:48 GMT -5 trufflefries said:

Feb 11, 2013 9:24:41 GMT -5 changedname said:

Hey girls - our first check in!

1) Where are you in your treatments/cycles/all that jazz? Beginning of cycle #2341352 (not really but feels like it) Got period on Friday.

2) Any updates this week or upcoming appointments you want to share? DH's appointment with the urologist is tomorrow! Finally getting the SA done. I'm excited and maybe a little anxious...PLEASE be normal.

3) QOTW - have you told anyone IRL that you are tttc? I've written a little about it in my blog, but no one really reads that, it's more for me. My closest girlfriends and family know. In about a month, my entire church will know.   I just got filmed yesterday for a series we're doing in March called "This Beautiful Mess"-it's a 4 week series on the stuff no one really talks about because they think they're alone in it, like depression, miscarriages, infertility, addiction, etc. They filmed anyone who was willing to say what they're struggling with so that they can do an intro montage in order to show people that no matter what you're going through, you're not alone. So...I'm a tad freaked out by that, but I think it's going to be a good step in this journey toward healing from the anger/sadness that infertility brings. And I think it's really awesome that my pastor is going to do a talk about miscarriage AND infertility.

Sorry this got long, lol!

I think that's really awesome of you to open up about it in that way. I'm sure someone will be touched by your honesty in what your going through. I'd love to hear how it goes!

[jewel]

1) Where are you in your treatments/cycles/all that jazz? TTC since Oct 2011. CD 12, but likely a bust cycle because I still have one more day of pelvic rest following my HSG. I think we'll totally miss my fertile time.

2) Any updates this week or upcoming appointments you want to share? We've completed all of our initial testing and have our first real appointment with the RE on thursday. I told my husband that his Valentine's present is a $200 doctor's visit. I'm nervous to hear what the doctor might say, but I'm also hoping that we can make some good changes that will increase our odds of a viable pregnancy.

3) QOTW - have you told anyone IRL that you are tttc? A couple of close friends know, but for the most part, we aren't telling anyone. I think about TTC enough as it is, I just don't want anyone else asking for updates.

[changedname]

Feb 11, 2013 14:56:53 GMT -5 jewel said:

1) Where are you in your treatments/cycles/all that jazz? TTC since Oct 2011. CD 12, but likely a bust cycle because I still have one more day of pelvic rest following my HSG. I think we'll totally miss my fertile time.

2) Any updates this week or upcoming appointments you want to share? We've completed all of our initial testing and have our first real appointment with the RE on thursday. I told my husband that his Valentine's present is a $200 doctor's visit. I'm nervous to hear what the doctor might say, but I'm also hoping that we can make some good changes that will increase our odds of a viable pregnancy.

3) QOTW - have you told anyone IRL that you are tttc? A couple of close friends know, but for the most part, we aren't telling anyone. I think about TTC enough as it is, I just don't want anyone else asking for updates.

 jewel - maybe someone else can chime in but I was never told to pelvic rest after my HSG. It was also right near my fertile time and I think we did it the day after the hsg.

[jewel]

The RE nurse didn't mention it, but the radiologist told me 3 days of rest. I was still spotting at the time of the HSG, so she said my risk of infection is pretty high. Maybe she was being extra cautious, but I certainly don't want any kind of womanly infection.

[degal99]

1) Where are you in your treatments/cycles/all that jazz?
CD4. Crazy early this month, too! Probably going to start meds to help ovulate soon, after surgery.

2) Any updates this week or upcoming appointments you want to share?
Getting ready to have my hysteroscopy this week where they'll remove a couple of small polyps. My RE also wants me to have a 2 hr glucose tolerance test since he diagnosed me with PCOS and wants to make sure I'm not pre-diabetic. That probably won't be for another two weeks because I can only do it on a Saturday and I work this Saturday.

3) QOTW - have you told anyone IRL that you are tttc?
No, but I desperately want to. It's pretty isolating, so I'm glad I have this group! You girls are pretty wonderful! My RE has a support group that I may look into.

[mae141]

Feb 11, 2013 10:22:51 GMT -5 changedname said:

Hey Disco, ok yes I remember you but more specifically I recognize you from TB IF board. I lurked there for the last 6 months and followed your (and everyone's stories).  Yes, I have started posting a bit less on GP board even though I love those girls. I am just starting to relate less and less to the charting questions and feeling like I would never make the Holy Grail of a move to GPM.

I also like the proboards formatting and speed so much more than it becomes painful to post there.

I totally agree with the bolded. And I know this is flammable/annoying when people say, but all the girls that are KU and keep posting on GP all the time are making me stabby so I just need to stay away. 

[changedname]

Feb 11, 2013 19:18:28 GMT -5 mae141 said:

Feb 11, 2013 10:22:51 GMT -5 changedname said:

Hey Disco, ok yes I remember you but more specifically I recognize you from TB IF board. I lurked there for the last 6 months and followed your (and everyone's stories).  Yes, I have started posting a bit less on GP board even though I love those girls. I am just starting to relate less and less to the charting questions and feeling like I would never make the Holy Grail of a move to GPM.

I also like the proboards formatting and speed so much more than it becomes painful to post there.

I totally agree with the bolded. And I know this is flammable/annoying when people say, but all the girls that are KU and keep posting on GP all the time are making me stabby so I just need to stay away. 

mae, I was wondering If it was you but I didn't want to call you out/embarrass myself if it was someone else. I recognize you from GP!

I think with regards to the pg girls posting on GP - they are damned if they do, damned if they don't. If they leave and stay on GPM then they get flamed in the UO for abandoning the board even after they "promised to stick around after their bfp", if they do post then it is kind of annoying for the tttcers especially as there are no siggy warnings like on TB.

[mae141]

1) Where are you in your treatments/cycles/all that jazz?
Trying for two years now. IUI #3 was a bust. Waiting for AF to start.

2) Any updates this week or upcoming appointments you want to share?
Had a consult this afternoon with RE. He wants to move to IVF and it's freaking me out. On the one hand, I know that this is all I want and would really do anything to get it. On the other hand, I am terrified that this won't work and there won't be anything else to try. Not to mention I'm terrified of needles. I have great insurance, so I know I'm lucky there and money isn't much of an issue for now. I would prefer to wait until summer to do it so that I will have time for all my appointments, but I also don't want to wait anymore. I just don't know what to do.

3) QOTW - have you told anyone IRL that you are tttc?
Yes, many people know. I feel so lonely through this whole thing, and I know that other people must feel the same way. But no one talks about it, and I wish people would. So I talk about it. Plus, I wear my emotions on my face and anyone can tell something is wrong.

[mae141]

Feb 11, 2013 19:22:26 GMT -5 changedname said:

Feb 11, 2013 19:18:28 GMT -5 mae141 said:

I totally agree with the bolded. And I know this is flammable/annoying when people say, but all the girls that are KU and keep posting on GP all the time are making me stabby so I just need to stay away. 

mae, I was wondering If it was you but I didn't want to call you out/embarrass myself if it was someone else. I recognize you from GP!

I think with regards to the pg girls posting on GP - they are damned if they do, damned if they don't. If they leave and stay on GPM then they get flamed in the UO for abandoning the board even after they "promised to stick around after their bfp", if they do post then it is kind of annoying for the tttcers especially as there are no siggy warnings like on TB.

Yep, that's me! 

I totally get what you're saying about damned if you do, damned if you don't. And I actually get staying there because for the few weeks that I was pregnant, I was terrified to leave the safety of GP for TB or GPM because I was so nervous that I wouldn't get to stay. I guess I'm just being a bitter infertile at this point.  

[mae141]

Feb 11, 2013 12:55:48 GMT -5 trufflefries said:

Feb 11, 2013 9:24:41 GMT -5 changedname said:

Hey girls - our first check in!

1) Where are you in your treatments/cycles/all that jazz? Beginning of cycle #2341352 (not really but feels like it) Got period on Friday.

2) Any updates this week or upcoming appointments you want to share? DH's appointment with the urologist is tomorrow! Finally getting the SA done. I'm excited and maybe a little anxious...PLEASE be normal.

3) QOTW - have you told anyone IRL that you are tttc? I've written a little about it in my blog, but no one really reads that, it's more for me. My closest girlfriends and family know. In about a month, my entire church will know.   I just got filmed yesterday for a series we're doing in March called "This Beautiful Mess"-it's a 4 week series on the stuff no one really talks about because they think they're alone in it, like depression, miscarriages, infertility, addiction, etc. They filmed anyone who was willing to say what they're struggling with so that they can do an intro montage in order to show people that no matter what you're going through, you're not alone. So...I'm a tad freaked out by that, but I think it's going to be a good step in this journey toward healing from the anger/sadness that infertility brings. And I think it's really awesome that my pastor is going to do a talk about miscarriage AND infertility.

Sorry this got long, lol!

Wow, that is really cool! I love that your church is doing that. You are very brave.

[changedname]

Feb 11, 2013 19:29:13 GMT -5 mae141 said:

Feb 11, 2013 19:22:26 GMT -5 changedname said:

mae, I was wondering If it was you but I didn't want to call you out/embarrass myself if it was someone else. I recognize you from GP!

I think with regards to the pg girls posting on GP - they are damned if they do, damned if they don't. If they leave and stay on GPM then they get flamed in the UO for abandoning the board even after they "promised to stick around after their bfp", if they do post then it is kind of annoying for the tttcers especially as there are no siggy warnings like on TB.

Yep, that's me! 

I totally get what you're saying about damned if you do, damned if you don't. And I actually get staying there because for the few weeks that I was pregnant, I was terrified to leave the safety of GP for TB or GPM because I was so nervous that I wouldn't get to stay. I guess I'm just being a bitter infertile at this point.  

  Ok, I'm remembering more of your story now - we were both on the IUI check in at the same time in the fall, right? You got pg and and lost the baby around the same time as teacherlady? Are you still doing IUIs or have you moved on to IVF? I'm hopefully starting ivf next week.

[mae141]

Feb 11, 2013 19:34:00 GMT -5 changedname said:

Feb 11, 2013 19:29:13 GMT -5 mae141 said:

Yep, that's me! 

I totally get what you're saying about damned if you do, damned if you don't. And I actually get staying there because for the few weeks that I was pregnant, I was terrified to leave the safety of GP for TB or GPM because I was so nervous that I wouldn't get to stay. I guess I'm just being a bitter infertile at this point.  

  Ok, I'm remembering more of your story now - we were both on the IUI check in at the same time in the fall, right? You got pg and and lost the baby around the same time as teacherlady? Are you still doing IUIs or have you moved on to IVF? I'm hopefully starting ivf next week.

Yes, I was about a month before teacherlady I think. I've had 2 IUIs since and they were both BFFN. I think I might be moving to IVF soon. What will happen next week to start IVF for you? 

[changedname]

Feb 11, 2013 19:47:44 GMT -5 mae141 said:

Feb 11, 2013 19:34:00 GMT -5 changedname said:

  Ok, I'm remembering more of your story now - we were both on the IUI check in at the same time in the fall, right? You got pg and and lost the baby around the same time as teacherlady? Are you still doing IUIs or have you moved on to IVF? I'm hopefully starting ivf next week.

Yes, I was about a month before teacherlady I think. I've had 2 IUIs since and they were both BFFN. I think I might be moving to IVF soon. What will happen next week to start IVF for you? 

  I'm 9dpo so waiting for AF (and she's coming, that is for sure)  then I go in for cd 3 bw/ultrasound and then start suppressant injects on cd 21. I'm a bit worried about cysts as per my post above but if all goes well I would be looking at an ER/ET the last week of March.

I ended up doing 3 IUIs (2 x femera and 1 x gonal F).

[mae141]

Feb 11, 2013 19:53:01 GMT -5 changedname said:

Feb 11, 2013 19:47:44 GMT -5 mae141 said:

Yes, I was about a month before teacherlady I think. I've had 2 IUIs since and they were both BFFN. I think I might be moving to IVF soon. What will happen next week to start IVF for you? 

  I'm 9dpo so waiting for AF (and she's coming, that is for sure)  then I go in for cd 3 bw/ultrasound and then start suppressant injects on cd 21. I'm a bit worried about cysts as per my post above but if all goes well I would be looking at an ER/ET the last week of March.

I ended up doing 3 IUIs (2 x femera and 1 x gonal F).

Fx that there aren't any cysts! I'm waiting for AF, too (14 dpiui), so if I go forward with IVF now then we might be buddies!

[changedname]

Feb 11, 2013 20:01:31 GMT -5 mae141 said:

Feb 11, 2013 19:53:01 GMT -5 changedname said:

  I'm 9dpo so waiting for AF (and she's coming, that is for sure)  then I go in for cd 3 bw/ultrasound and then start suppressant injects on cd 21. I'm a bit worried about cysts as per my post above but if all goes well I would be looking at an ER/ET the last week of March.

I ended up doing 3 IUIs (2 x femera and 1 x gonal F).

Fx that there aren't any cysts! I'm waiting for AF, too (14 dpiui), so if I go forward with IVF now then we might be buddies!

Ooh, have you tested yet? Are you going in for a beta? GL!