Okay not really but I am crying. I had the screen door open and I heard a bunch of loud chirping but didn't think anything of it. Well eventually it got so loud so I looked and there was a big blue bird with a live sparrow baby in it's mouth. The sparrow's family was flying around and dive bombing the blue bird trying to save their baby. I slammed on the door to try and help but the big bird flew away with the baby.
I'm overly sensitive and don't know if this kind of stuff means I will be a bad nurse.
I can usually cry at the drop of the hat and I've come close a few times with patients when they've shared their fears, I've had to be with the doctor when he gives bad news, etc. It's definitely hard to separate yourself sometimes. I try to keep it in and if I really need to, I'll have a good cry about it when I get home. I don't know if that makes me a bad healthcare provider or not.
When I volunteered at the children's hospital I was on the dialysis unit. One day I came in to find out one of the kids had passed away. I balled like a baby in the bathroom on the unit, but I pulled it together to go back and finish my shift. I guess that's how you have to be to work in the healthcare field?
That's so sad the other day we had a baby bird on our windowsill that had clearly been abandoned. It kept opening it's mouth and waiting for food. I woke DH up bawling and told him there was a sad little baby bird outside the window, should I take it on the porch and give it food? And by the time I made it back it was gone.
And no, I think that makes you a good and healthy healthcare provider.
This. I don't want a robot for my nurse or doctor. I want someone who is at least empathetic to my feelings. My father still calls me cold when I talk about an elderly person we lose during surgery - but its just the nature of the beast, the body isn't meant to be around forever and some stresses are too much for it.
We just lost a 22 year old girl this week and my heart broke for this total stranger. The younger they are, the harder it is for me. FWIW, I was hardcore until I had kids, now I'm a babbling mess.
I'm a nurse and I'm a pretty sensitive person. If people say they cried during a movie then I probably cried 5 times. I've been close to tears in the hospital and I've gone home and cried but that's pretty normal as long as you don't continue to carry it with you. I think you grow a thicker skin as time goes on. I've only ever lost adults but I'll be training in the NICU soon so I imagine losing a baby will be a whole new kind of heartbreak.