I'm having some scary unexplainable rage

[montereybride]

I seriously don't know WTF is wrong with me but I feel like my head is going to start spinning any second. The sound of the birds outside, H moving around the house and breathing and asking me what's wrong, are all making me fucking psycho. 

I was sitting on the couch trying to breathe the rage away and he asked me if everything was ok. I told him very calmly "This isn't about you. I would stay far far away from me right now."

And then he asked if there was anything he could do. 

"Yesss, you can stay far away from me right now."

I'm literally shaking with rage and I don't know what's wrong! Gah!! 

And I thought typing this out would make me feel better! 

[mskitkat]

Are you under a lot of stress? I get like this with anxiety sometimes. I acknowledge to DH that I am not fit to be around, go hide in a room and put on soothing music.

[lime]

Can you try some meditating or deep breathing in a cool, dark room for 15 minutes or so to see if that helps?

[mrs.jacinthe]

I've been like this all day today too. Maybe its a moon phase?

[blackcat]

I sometimes get this way with really bad PMS

[coribelle26]

I'm sorry. As of the last year or so I have one PMS day that's similar. Everything around me makes me want to go all, "Sunny Came Home," and it's really crappy to feel so out of control.

[montereybride]

At least none of you think I'm crazy!

I'm going to a friend's house for a bit. 

H asked me three more times if I was ok. I yelled at him to stop talking to me and that it wasn't about him. With maybe an F-bomb thrown in. I feel bad but he was warned, lol. I hate the whole 'I'm a man and have the need to fix things so tell me how to fix you' thing sometimes. 

[janiejones]

Mar 31, 2013 18:34:19 GMT -5 blackcat said:

I sometimes get this way with really bad PMS

I have had this a couple times.

[ohgillian]

I had something similar a few times when I was a few months postpartum with baby no one. It scared me horribly. I ended up increasing my SSRI dose.

[speckledfrog]

"super rage" was one of the symptoms I listed at my PPD appointment.

[thinkofthesoldiers]

Where are you in your cycle?

[karmasabiotch]

Sometimes a shower helps me when I get that feeling.

I hope it passes soon for you.

[angelaa73]

get outside for a walk. run the stairs. chase a chicken, rocky style

[mx27]

this was me thursday night - super stressed and hormonal (on my period).

i hope you feel better soon.

[speckledfrog]

Have you been cooped up in the house recently? That always raised my boiling point.

[CheshireGrin]

It's because you're suffering withdrawal from me. I'm sorry.

[fuckyourcouch]

i would only be concerned if you start turning green.

have you been exposed to any radiation or radioactive animals recently?

[montereybride]

I love each and every one of you. For real.


I'm a little better, went to my friend's house and loved up on her dog.

My period is about to start, I just realized I had nothing substantial (read: protein-rich) to eat today, I am having some major anxiety over an upcoming fundraising event, plus I may have skipped (did skip) my Wellbutrin today.

I basically fucked myself over. Hah!

I'm making salmon and roasted veggies for dinner and then meeting a friend for a drink. I expect to be back to my normal level of crazy by morning.