I was standing at Target looking at the new spring home stuff this morning when I should have been grabbing food for the fish and vitamins for the boy and an older woman stopped to tell me - at length - how much she liked my outfit. She reviewed each piece and then told me that I wore it "to perfection." I'm alternating between feeling really pleased with myself and deciding that she probably has some sort of early onset dementia. I can't take a compliment.
I'm feeling really down today. I haven't lost any weight for the last 2 weeks and I feel old to boot. I'm 35, have high blood pressure and just got told I also have high cholesterol, which could "be a problem" in the next ten to fifteen years.
That's really bloody scared me. I want to get fit & healthy before TTC'ing but right now it feels I'm worse off than before starting this diet, which is doubtful. I just found out how bad things were.
Post by sparkythelawyer on Apr 3, 2013 9:12:18 GMT -5
I have some love and then a giant pain in the ass (literally)
1) hisno1girl, please come to IL and clean my apartment/organize our wedding and shower gifts. I will ply you with Chicago Style Pizza :-)
2) @saint Monica, hang in there. I don't know when, but I DO promise it will get better
3) spedrunner, Its so great to see how well you are doing lately. I know you still have a lot going on, but you have handled all of the drama with so much grace, strength and class. Well done you!
AND NOW FOR MY GROSS THING (TMI Alert). I seem to have caught some sort of stomach virus. I literally have had the runs so bad the last two days it hurts to sit down because my brown starfish is a burning ring of fire. Dear tummy: Please get over this shizz already.
My H is out of town until Friday so I'm home with 2 babies, 2 dogs, and a cat. At 6:30 this morning my dogs discovered a nest of baby somethings (squirrels? moles? who knows) in the backyard. Awesome. Last time H was on a business trip they killed a rabbit. These things never happen when he is home.
I forgot to put on deoderant this morning. I foresee a trip to the store on my break.
I'm getting my hair cut after work and I'm mostly excited and a little apprehensive.
I have a lot of dreams that involve open communal toilets and being really embarassed to have other people see me go to the bathroom. Its latent poop shame isn't it..
My spring cleaning fever is hitting a high point. I pass this house every morning and I want to knock on their door and tell them to clean all the random branches from their rooftop because it makes their otherwise very nice home look really dirty and messy.
Come help me clean my house. I'll pay you in drinks.
This house's roof looks brown because of the dead pine needle and branches. I just tell myself that the owners are elderly and/or infirm, and not just lazy, LOL.
I really under estimated how two children would leave me in a perpetual habit of unorganization, feeling frazzled etc. Every week H and I are so close but miss the mark of getting our shit together. It is exhausting. This brought to you by the fact that I left my phone, which was dead, charging on our window sill this morning and spent 5 minutes going through baskets of laundry to find the socks I wanted. Laundry that should have been put away this weekend. Cellphone that i knew was dying but still couldn't get my act together to charge it until the last possible second thus making me forget it. These are little things but they are one of many. It doesn't help that I worked really late last night. H will work late tonight. There is always shit going on.
Jack woke me up at 4:30 to change his underwear because he ad skid marks on them. WTFWTFWTF-You are five dude do it yourself. Then he came up to let me know Scarlett had eaten a loaf of bread in the night, I swear to god guys I am going to kill that dog soon, then I went down stairs to find Jack eating a cookie. All at 4:30 am. This also added to me feeling like my life is chaos. I know my dog can get into the cupboard if we don't shut it. Obviously it wasn't shut. it is always something around our house.
I am just frazzled this morning. But I look nice at least.
I feel like we are living the same life, complete with the digging 5 minutes for socks. I wish we could GTG with some drinks, I'd even invite you in my messy chaotic house.
I left the house 5 min late this morning (which could have easily equaled me getting to work an hour and half late because of the fucking train schedule) because I was looking for my damn shoes my damn husband moved. I still couldn't find them, so I tossed on something else.
Eddy, I feel you and I don't even have a skid-marked child yet We try and try and I have just gotten to the point that "good enough" is "FUCKING GRAND MOTHERFUCKER"
After my thread yesterday I drove home wondering if I was over reacting, or if I was not pissed enough, lol. Then I got home and forgot all about it. So I guess I'm good where I'm at.
Sometimes when I go in to get DS out of his crib in the morning I'll say "Hi, baby." I guess I say it more than I thought. When I went into his room this morning he told me "Hi, baby."
H is leaving on Friday for the whole weekend. I'm taking Friday off, taking DS to daycare, cleaning the whole house and then sleeping/watching TV. Then on Saturday, I'm going to take DS to the park, shopping, maybe the zoo. Just whatever seems fun, by ourselves. Every time H is gone, my mom and my MIL both start pressuring me to bring him to them or to come to our house. I don't want to. I'm ignoring all family calls this weekend.
Bah! My nephew with VSD, who was just told he didn't need surgery for it, now has a hernia that they think will need surgery. He isn't even 2 yet and keeps getting the short end of everything
Though I do wonder if the two are related in that his heart medicine weakened his muscles while he was on it -- maybe contributed to weaker ab wall overall?
Poor kid and poor family. #3 is due in October, they don't need this.
H and I were talking about security systems for our new house a few days ago. The hard-wired security option comes with every window tagged on the first floor. I said to my H, "Well...they kidnapped the Lindbergh baby from the second floor, you know." And he DIDN'T, then I had to tell him who Charles Lindbergh was and the kidnapping. He wasn't convinced. "If someone's going to break in, they'll break in the first floor." Um, what if someone is trying to kidnap ME? I'm kidnap-sized!
DH wants to move to Michigan to be close to SDs. We are month-to-month until May 31, then we have to move to a bigger place here or move to Michigan so the clock is ticking. He has made zero progress applying for jobs but still manages to dick around on the internet. I yelled at him Monday and told him either do it or if he's just going to dick around, tell me and I will find a new place here.
Yesterday he applied for 20 jobs and has 2 voicemails asking for phone interviews from different recruiters so he will call them back today. He works in IT and for some reason there are always recruiting companies involved but each recruiter he will talk to today has 5+ jobs that fit DH so it's looking up. I felt like a bitch for yelling at him but it looks like he needed it. Some of the jobs are in Grand Rapids, I looked up rentals there and cackled with glee that if he gets a job there we will pay half the rent we are paying now but we'll see if it pans out. I'm looking forward to an update after work.
ETA: ANNNNND my boss will let me work from home if we move so I will make my same salary but living in a place half the cost. WE'RE GOING TO BE RICH!!!! Well not really but we won't be scraping by like we do now. Maybe I can even have another baby at some point, lol.
GR is a pretty fun place. You should totally move here!!
I think it's a great state. I grew up in gr and while I also enjoy where I live now, I was back there for the weekend and am always blown away by how absolutely polite most people are! The grocery store by my parents' home doesn't have cart corrals- they still take your groceries to the car for you. Not all areas are the same, but it's nice. And lots of art activities.
I love a ton about detroit, too. Check out a recent Forbes article and prob crains detroit. There is a huge tech boom going on in detroit. Many, you could live in a downtown apt and walk to work if that's what you desire. That's what we did for a decade and loved it. We live in a house now and while there Are perks, I miss my downtown life a lot.
I keep telling H that I will eventually end up back in Detroit. It gets such a bad rep, but if you're right downtown, it really is such a vibrant and fun place.
Michigan is great... as long as you stay around the edges. Once you venture into the center of the state, there's nothing but cows.
I love Michigan. I miss it. Not the winters, but more so the people. Very down to earth. I lived in Kalamazoo for a couple of years and found the west side of the state really nice. My favorite area is northern Michigan, in Petoskey, but I'd be very reluctant to get a job in that area of the state. It's not a huge area of industry and it would be hard to find another job if you were laid off. Good luck!
I have some love and then a giant pain in the ass (literally)
1) hisno1girl, please come to IL and clean my apartment/organize our wedding and shower gifts. I will ply you with Chicago Style Pizza :-)
2) @saint Monica, hang in there. I don't know when, but I DO promise it will get better
3) spedrunner, Its so great to see how well you are doing lately. I know you still have a lot going on, but you have handled all of the drama with so much grace, strength and class. Well done you!
AND NOW FOR MY GROSS THING (TMI Alert). I seem to have caught some sort of stomach virus. I literally have had the runs so bad the last two days it hurts to sit down because my brown starfish is a burning ring of fire. Dear tummy: Please get over this shizz already.
Here are 2 funny cute things: 1. Em has started playing peek-a-boo. When I hold my hand up in front of her face, she grabs it with both hands and leans in and hids her little head in my hand. Then she'll push my hand down and pop up so I can yell PEEKABOO!! And she is smiling ear to ear. Watching her hide her head in my hand is the funniest freaking thing ever.
2. DH was video taping the kids Easter morning playing with their toys. As he was watching the video, he realized you could see me start pumping in the background. Um..oops. Thank God I didn't put that one on FB.
*snort* The pump is like the soundtrack for every baby c video!
Love these 2 things! And I don't think anyone is sick of vents from you. Dude you've had a rough run
I fee pretty good...seeing a therapist and nutritionist and concentrating on me for once and trying to voice my self more instead of keeping things inside I know I did the right thing and am happy I have a new . Yes I miss and worry about xh but its also refreshing knowing its not"my problem" anymore. I'm also seeing its ok to not to settle and I'm ok with people not agreeing with my decisions :-)
Post by ElizabethBennet on Apr 3, 2013 11:19:35 GMT -5
H and I have decided to start TTC. I'm so excited about it. We've been talking an praying a lot about it lately and I'm happy to be starting the next portion of our lives.
I'm on another forum and there is a single mom going to nursing school with 5 kids. I figure i can manage two with the help of my husband.
We both came to the conclusion that if you want something bad enough you make it work.
My Dad is in surgery right now having a full knee replacement. He was very very ill in Dec with a massive staph infection/blood infection in his leg and his knee was destroyed in the process. I am all kinds of anxious.
DH wants to move to Michigan to be close to SDs. We are month-to-month until May 31, then we have to move to a bigger place here or move to Michigan so the clock is ticking. He has made zero progress applying for jobs but still manages to dick around on the internet. I yelled at him Monday and told him either do it or if he's just going to dick around, tell me and I will find a new place here.
Yesterday he applied for 20 jobs and has 2 voicemails asking for phone interviews from different recruiters so he will call them back today. He works in IT and for some reason there are always recruiting companies involved but each recruiter he will talk to today has 5+ jobs that fit DH so it's looking up. I felt like a bitch for yelling at him but it looks like he needed it. Some of the jobs are in Grand Rapids, I looked up rentals there and cackled with glee that if he gets a job there we will pay half the rent we are paying now but we'll see if it pans out. I'm looking forward to an update after work.
Michigan is cheaaaapppp. One of the few perks.
That is true, but it was 13 mother fucking degrees this morning. I would live just about anywhere but here right now GR/west Michigan is very nice though.
My Dad is in surgery right now having a full knee replacement. He was very very ill in Dec with a massive staph infection/blood infection in his leg and his knee was destroyed in the process. I am all kinds of anxious.
Sending positive vibes!
sent from my I crashed my car into a bridge. I don't care. I love it.
After my thread yesterday I drove home wondering if I was over reacting, or if I was not pissed enough, lol. Then I got home and forgot all about it. So I guess I'm good where I'm at.
Sometimes when I go in to get DS out of his crib in the morning I'll say "Hi, baby." I guess I say it more than I thought. When I went into his room this morning he told me "Hi, baby."
H is leaving on Friday for the whole weekend. I'm taking Friday off, taking DS to daycare, cleaning the whole house and then sleeping/watching TV. Then on Saturday, I'm going to take DS to the park, shopping, maybe the zoo. Just whatever seems fun, by ourselves. Every time H is gone, my mom and my MIL both start pressuring me to bring him to them or to come to our house. I don't want to. I'm ignoring all family calls this weekend.
That thread was ridiculous. I'm tired of the judgment over how people react. Some people would be irate; some think it's sweet, and everyone on both sides thinks their reaction is the only acceptable reaction to have and everyone else is either deluded or overreacting.
Feel how you want to feel and ignore the emotion police. lol.
I think there were a few middle of the road people (which is more where I was), but they seemed to get so lost among the two extreme sides, lol.
I just don't know why so many people seemed to think I was so pissed off.
I got more irritated by the poster who implied I just didn't trust my H to take care of my son than anyone else in that thread.