I'm a big ball of anxiety lately

[Bernadine]

Two weeks until our divorce hearing.  ::fingers crossed::  I posted yesterday that xh violated probation on his dui.  I'm dying a little thinking that might affect him refinancing the house.  I just want the rest of this to go smoothly.

Also, I'm feeling super insecure after meeting yet another one of J's exes.  His xw and the two xgf's that I've met are all gorgeous and SUPER skinny.  Like, really skinny.  I can usually shake it off, but I'm having a tough time with it right now.

I start my temporary assignment at work on Monday and I really, really want it to go well.  I'm feeling lots of self-induced pressure, because I think there could be some advancement opportunities in this office.

I don't know if I ever want kids, and that's stressing me out, even though it's obviously not a decision I need to make right now.  I think once I start stressing about one thing, I start thinking about everything else I could be stressed about.

My jaw hurts from clenching my teeth constantly.  I'm not sleeping.  I need this shit to be over!

[karmasabiotch]

They are ex's for a reason! You're amazing and he's lucky to have you. Don't forget that part. Never forget that part.

This is going to be your year. I'm excited to see how your new journey unfolds. Just enjoy it day by day and don't worry about the long term. You've had enough messy junk and this is your time to shine, and there is no question that you will!!